Just been one thing after another and i have been eating really badly and as a resukt i went right back up to 18st 0.5lb! I just couldn't be othered with it all and didn't want to knwo but i woke up with a renewed sense of ME on thursday and i have been on plan ever since - thats 3 days and counting!
I had to do a preganancy test last saturday as i was a few days late on and i felt "odd" but it was negative. Have been waiting, and waiting and waiting and still nothing so i have just done another one and still negative. I really don't know why but i have a real feeling like i am pregnant, just like i did with Charlie. I am going to make an appointment with my GP and have a proper one done with them. If not i want them to look around and see what it actualy is. I am now about 10 days late!
Not much else to report. Charlie is doing really well at pre-school. He still cries when i leave him but it is a temporary thing, and i have been able to come home, i have read nearly 2 books already! I should use the time to tidy and clean, but where is the fun in that!?
Hope you all have a amazing week and i will be on in a day or so to let you know how i am getting on!
I knew it would happen and i was expecting it. Put on 2lb....
I was wearing jeans as opposed to the light cut offs i usually wear but a gain is still a agin. I am not too worried about it though. I have really not followed my plan at all and have eaten loads of bad stuff. We went to Nandos on monday, which was yummy but hugely calorie laden i should think!
Not much else to report really. Charlie started pre-school yesterday and cried when i left and i had to go back in as she said she didn't want to push him and risk him hating the whole thing. Going back again in a bit. Starting off on 3 days and might extend it to 4 in january.
I had a big hair cut! Very short now. If you want to see, check out my videos on You Tube!
Must go and make lunch - having mozzarella pizzas, which sound yummy!! Got to get to the shop first and Charlie needs to be at pre-school in an hour so must go!!
Well hi guys - sorry for the delay. Well to cut a long story short i have had BIG problems in my relation ship with Terry and we were very close to calling it a day. I won't go into details, mainly as i don't want to re-live it all again but i think things have calmed now and after yet more discussion we are stayed together. We have been together for 7 yrs and of course we have Charlie too. We are not staying together for him but he adds a bit more glue, you know!?
On a more topical note, i stayed the same at WI this week, which was nothing short of a miracle! I Didn't really stuff myslef but i didn't follow the plan at all. Same goes for thursday and friday. But today is a brand new day so i really need to try. I felt so good last week when i had my 3 days on plan, even my skin got clearer, after just 3 days. So i know it works. Got the day all planned today so cross fingers for me!
On a non-diet related note i am having a bit of an image overhaul. I am having a drastic new haircut on tuesday (can't wait!) and when that is done i will be leaching it and dyeing with some Special Effects dyes www.hairdyegallery.co.uk/sfx-deeppurple.html initially will have a colour similar to this on the front and black at the top...not sure yet, i have to see how the cut works out! Have a look around the site, i will be using Special Effects dye. I love the Joyride, Atomic Pink, Deep Purple, Cherry Bomb...i could go on forever!! Check some of them out. Will put some pics of the colour up on tuesday - i am so excited!
Anyway - must go now and have some breakfast! I will leave you with a You Tube video by a very very talented lady. Many of you may have already heard of her. She is called Lauren Luke and she does make up tutorials. SHe started off using it to help her sell makeup on E Bay but she is now a global sucess story. This video has been watched more than 1,800,000 times! Check her out and subscribe to her channel, she had given me lots of ideas...
Did it again. I am so angry with myself. I was doing so well today. Breakfast and lunch on plan, and i felt great. But then after stocktake at work, our trainee manager gave us all a little bag of chocolates (5 Thorntons ones) to thank us for all our hard work while our manager is away. I thought to myself "i will give these to Charlie" but i ate them while walking to meet Terry, who was picking me up. They were nice but i ate them in about 5 minutes.
Got home and put Charlie in bed and he wanted me to "go to sleep with me" which basicallt means pretending to sleep on his pillow. But i did actually fall asleep! Terry came and got me half an hour later, by which time i couldn't be bothered to make the spicy beanburgers in pitta bread that i had planned for tea, so i had toast and bovril. That was still ok and i had i stopped there i would have been ok.
BUT we put a film on and Terry said he was going to the shop and i heard me say "get me some crap" which is our slang for "buy me choclate and crisps"...now he should have said no, but in the past when he has said that i have given him a hard time and started ranting that i can make my own decisions etc..
So i have just eaten half (yes, half!) of a Heinz Strawberry Cheesecake, virtually a whole bag of Giant Buttons and a lot of salsa Doritos. ANd now i feel bloody awful. What the hell is wrong woth me? I know how these foods make me feel. I just broke down in tears to Terry saying he needs to help me and i feel so fed up, and everypne at work is so thin and pretty and then there is me. The real ugly duckling...
Going to bloody well stick to the plan tomorrow - i have to do this. Have just read back on the blog a bit and has been quite refreshing.
It is now or never..............
Mandy x
PS just to finish off, as some of you know i work for Lush. As from tomorrow we are campaigning and raising moeny for an organisation called Sea Shepherd. They are a marine mammal protection and conservation charity. In the window of all Lush shops you will be able to view this video. Please show your support to Sea Shepherd and Lush and go into your local shop to find out more. Thank you! Another way of getting more info would be to get hold of a copy of the film Sharkwater. It is a documentary by a guy called Rob Stewart. Worth a look. Thanks again for reading my shamless plugging!!!!
shouting "Surprise Surprise chuck" because yet again, i have failed.
Look down at the amazing food i should have eaten today. But i have had 2 bars of choclate, crisps, frozen yogurt...just all sorts of crap.
Kim, my friend who is doing the same plan as me and she wants to stay on track for the next 12 days to lose 4.5lb for her holiday. I have told her i will do it with her. So i am all out of excuses. Today i was just a fat pig....
We had the 5 Board Awards tonight and i was chuffed to win the award fro persistence. I have been going to WW since may 2006 and have lost the grand total of 6.5lb. All i think is how heavy i would be if i hadn't stayed! Thanks to all how voted and thanks to Samsung for all her hard work.
Off to bed now to get some sleep before a full day at work tomorrow, got stocktake in the evening but will pop on to let you know how the day went!
Top Tip - drink a big glass of water if you feel hungry and then wait 10 mins. Hunger and thirst send very very similar signals to the brain and are often mistaken!
How are we all this dull, grey morning!?Just wanted to pop on and let you all know what i am having today.
B - Muesli with skimmed milk, Tesco low fat yogurt, banana, apple.
L - Pitta Calzone with salad and dressing, orange.
D - Cheesy Butternut Squash Bake, Lemon Griddled Chicken, green beans and new potatoes.
S - Nutrigrain bar, grapes
Should be a nice day. Not much planned as Terry will be doing the washing (we have no machine, so he goes and does it at his bosses house!) and it is grey and overcast but i need some shopping so i will have to drag him to Tesco to get some bits for the week. Hoping that we can get for a walk somewhere nice too. I have been working the last few sundays so we haven't really seen each other. Booked some time off in a couple of weeks so hopefully we can go out for the day somewhere nice and catch up with each other.
Might pop back on later - have a great day everyone xxx
I have just read back all my blog entries, and i am NOT going to delete them. They are a record of me and my journey. Was scary to read when i said i had lost 1st 13lb!! Have gone right back down to only 6.5lb lost now. Nevermind!!
Hoping for my 1st (ish) silver 7 on thursday. For those who don't know WW for every half stone you lose they give you a shiny "silver 7" sticker for your card. I did have 3 but then.........you know the story!!! Going to try and pop some pictures on soon as well, so you can all have a good nosey. Going to try and add a couple now but they may not work. Fingers crossed though!
Goodnight to you all,
Mandy xxx
Todays Tip - lollies like Chupa Chups are only half a point each if you have a sugar craving
I have been awful and at one point went right back up to 18st 3lb! But i can happily report that i am now 17st 12lb and i have a new plan that has helped me. I signed up to the Uk Diet Club. Basically you pay them £3 a week and tell them your height, weight, food preferences etc...and answer loads of questions and they do you a tailored eating plan. The flexibilty of points on WW is good for some but not for others. I was allowing myself far too much bad stuff.
With this i have a set breakfast, luch and dinner with a snack. It calculates my fat and calorie needs based on weight etc.. If i don't want to eat what they say for breakfast i have a list of a lot of other meals to choose from so the flxibilty is there but not a total free rein. I know i cannot live like this forever but it will help for now.
I apologise for being absent for so long but i really do believe i have turned a corner and i am just off to delete all previous posts. I am sad to do this as i quite like the style i was usuing, but that will stay - the old me has gone.
