It is Hard not to give up!!

Ok, I gained 1.3lbs, it is unfair, I worked out 5 days in this week,

controlling my  intake callories between 1250-1300

and gain weight. what does that suppose to mean.

am I crazy to continue diet like this!!!

OK I am trying to be positive and not give up, but I know disappointment comes to me gradually , lets see next week how can I stick to my program.

imrovement for next week would be: I want to limit red meat and increase lean met , may be 2time red meat and rest white,I am going to watch myself during the weekend not to overeat.

next week I will go to the Shapes in front of my house and ask if they can measure up my fat and muscles presentage.

I go to school gym, today I asked them about it, they said ,it cost 70$ for a session to measure it, it is crazy, I am not  paying that much money.

Gym buddy

I really need gym buddy. Ali has afried for gym, because  we can not do anything seriouse with each other so I know if we go with each other, he becomes so competetive, and we will have huge fight. So I need to find someone. Now gym is an obligation for me not fun, and I don't know how long I can continue like this.

I found out from Spark that I am just in stage 1 (11 days after my diet) then next stage is 6 weeks tracking of eating which I already do, So it seems long way to go.

I want to write a tip everyday, it helps me to remember it : eating slowly is really helpful for me.last night I took really small portion pasta on my plate, and I was sure I won't be full with that and I need to take some more, but I decided to eat really slow, you can't believe it , I couldn't finish it, partially because it became cold and I don't like cold food, so any way I didn't  take any more even.So it was huge for me who dies for pasta.

Running

Today I run for 50 min, about 4.5 miles.Now my legs are killing me, I am tired, but I should finish this damn paper and go home.

I planned not to go skating class tonight. I have no energy and I don't know what to cook for dinner which makes me Ok with not going.

Before I got bored with running, I was telling myself I run till I get tired and couldn't , then I just run for 7 laps which make 1 mile.

Now I find the trick,you should challenge yourself. last time I was telling myself I should run for 35 laps(5miles) even if I crawl at the end and I did it although it took an hour but I made it, and  surprisingly I saw I can run 2 miles(14 laps) without any stop.

That is the trick . I love to set a high point and strech myself to get it. today I  run 2 miles then  1.2  walkingand  then 1.3 miles running.

My problem is cooking deliciouse and fast and low cal foods. Now, I eat tunamost ot the times, which is really  good.

I am still on track

Ok, I have n't post for a long time, but I am still on track, I found another site which is really good for calculating fat, carb, protein I eat every day, and it gave me a rough estimation of allowable range  for me.(sparkpeople.com).

One thing I wanted to add is at first days I just starve myself and then at night I ate alot, and most of the times I didn't count it carefully.but now I write everything touch my lip.

I found that I sould cardio to my program, before I went to gym but I did more strength excercises, now I add 3 days cardio, 2 daye strenght.

and I increase the weight for excercise from 5lb to 8 lb.now i do less but I think it is more effective becuse I feel muscels working.

C..

So, It seems I can not write in Persian.

Ok , Last weekend I ate 4 slices of pizza which I shouldn't, I was strarving, and since I knew I alreadt ate  4 slices,

But I am not disappointed of my week, I cut my boince chcolate, and I add one day to my gym days, hope I can loose 1lb this week, we'll see this friday.

What I ate today:

Breakfast: One cup corn flack with skim milk

Snack:one small backed potato

Lunch: small chicken breast with carrot and bell pepper.

dinner: one cup soup with half a cup beens

one glass skim milk with two sugar, one orange

wednesday

Intake: 1219 cal

Skating:-348cal

Total: 840 cal

Tuesday

Gym: 349 kcal

food: 1079 Kcal

total: 730 Kcal

Well done!!!

Till now I am on the track, I just don't want to starve myself, am I starving, not  much during the day which I am busy, but at night I just crave for something to eat.

Monday

Calories intake: 1082 18

Calories out: 342

so in total I got =760

Well done!!

Sunday

My calloris intake for the weekend was: 1058 Kcal

as long as it is less than 1100 is OK.

Start

Like every  woman Loosing a few extera ponds which I have been carrying around, has been in  background of my mind. Some days very strong and irritating  due the over eating in a party  or a friend mentioning my weight, or watching a skinny  jeans in the Gap.Some days I start a plan not actually plan just a spark of decision  for starving which last for a couple of weeks and then I was back in my track of eating more than before, and disappointed from any weight loosing plan(which I have never actually finished any of them.)

Now, I am here, decisive and programmed and paitiont to start again .Now I know it won't happen in a night, with pills, with starving and without excersising. 

I am going to show myself that I can, because I just started to record my victory.