I have still had a very hard time getting on track this week. I hate to make excuses but its so much harder to diet now that Im married with children. I have always been on the heavy side and dieted my whole life. When I was single, I could control it better because I only had to worry about myself and didn't keep anything else around when dieting. Now that Im married with two children, I have to keep a variety of food and prepare dinner and it does make things so much easier to cheat. I seem to just have no willpower anymore even though I am sooooo tired of being heavy. I really just don't know what its going to take to inspire me. I was thinking of joining WW again even though I have had no success there in a long while. I actually lost the most weight on my own with phentermine so I just don't know. Any suggestions from anyone out there?
Well I was pretty much off the wagon yesterday even though I still managed to lose weight. The Golden Corral should be moved to a remote corner of the North Pole so it won't be the downfall of so many of us. I went to lunch with my mom there yesterday. I normally just eat at my office but she was in town yesterday and there were just too many bars of temptation there yesterday and then we had Little Ceasars last night. Im so glad that I still lost weight because other wise I would probably have done my usual and gave up til next week but today Im really going to try to get right back on track. How do you get back on after falling off??
I was down 2 pounds this morning!! Its actually always nice to see things going backwards instead of forward like usual. I still did a lot of nibbling yesterday but probably cut my normal calorie intake in half. Im really trying to start out slow instead of just cold turkey which I always fail at. I still haven't made it to the gym but plan to one day this week. That is soooo hard to fit in with kids, every moment seems to be spoken for. I need to get my before pictures as well, although Im not sure if my camera has a lens wide enough to capture the true size of this big ass!!
Well I am officially starting my diet today. Although Im going to try not to call it a diet and just a lifestyle change. I am going to really try to do this one day at a time. I have failed miserably at my last zillion diets and I really want this one to be different. I so need to lose the weight and get back in shape for myself and my family. I have done this before so I know I can do it, I just need to get back into that elusive zone again. Please send your good thoughts my way that I make it through this first day!!
Have you ever noticed or maybe I am the only one, but Mondays always seem to be a time of accounting for my weight and my lack of dieting from the week before. Fat just seems fatter at the first part of the week. As the week goes along, you can say you will start the next week and thus put off the fat thoughts pretty good for the rest of the week. I rejoined the gym at the first of the time. I was pregnant last year after many miscarriages and was forced the give up working out and take things very easy during pregnancy so since giving birth at the end of July, I have wanted to start exercising again. My daughter had the have her tonsils removed a few weeks ago and I have put everything on hold since then and of course I haven't been really motivated either. I just wonder to myself, what does it take to motivate you to get back in "the zone" again. I have been there and lost a lot of weight and of course found it all again. My wonderful husband although he has never said a word about my weight, must surely wonder and hope I will pull it together again since I met him in one of my slimmer moments. I just know I can't be that attractive to him anymore and yet I still can't seem to get it going for more than a week at a time. Does anyone have any ideas or want to be motivating partners to each other?? I sure could use it!! And of course, I had that evil McRib again this weekend!!
Well just when I am hoping to get back on track with my diet, what happens?? McRibb is back at McDonalds!! Like they couldn't have done that a month ago when I was happily eating everything in sight without a thought towards dieting?? Now, as soon as I think it, BAM, its baccckkkk. Ok, I even have to admit, Im sitting here having one for lunch while I type this and damn, its just as good as I remember!! Sighhh, how long could it stay around this time. Just call me Big McRear.
I had to post this while I was thinking about it. Have you ever noticed as you get heavier, you start changing everything you can other than losing weight of course? My first thing I always go for is my hair. I blame my unhappiness with my appearance on a bad hair day so I Immediately am obsessed with getting it cut, trying a new color, ect... I have been having a bad hairday all week and am looking to go to a neat place someone told me about. Also, I ordered 3 new pairs of jeans yesterday because I felt like they would be neater on.......It hit me this morning that these were all bandaids for fatness. Change something and feel better about myself for a while. Ughhhhh. Pulling that bandaid off sure hurts. I better go ahead and dedicate myself to weight loss before my bandaids get more expensive and more drastic
Well I called and made an appointment with my doctor yesterday for next Tuesday. Im going to start Phentermine again hopefully. Phentermine and I have a past, we were in love once. He romanced me all the way down about 75 pounds and was the love of my life . Then I got too confident, met the other love of my life, my Husband, got married and got fat, pretty much in that order. Its now time to start seeing my first love again and hope he can help me overcome my addiction to twinkies and everything else under the sun!!
. Then I got too confident, met the other love of my life, my Husband, got married and got fat, pretty much in that order. Its now time to start seeing my first love again and hope he can help me overcome my addiction to twinkies and everything else under the sun!! 