Water weight and emotions...
So I didn't add my weight last Saturday because I didn't really get online.
But because of water weight (guess why BOO) I had gained two pounds. it sent my emotions into a frenzy because I had hit goal the week before and all I could think was "I CAN'T do this to myself anymore... I CAN'T gain this back."
I know what you're thinking... "2 lbs... pssshhh I'm trying to lose 50 lbs." But when you've reached past what you wanted initially, you start to beat yourself up over little things.... My starting weight on this thing is 170 lbs... but what people don't realize is that I used to be 252 lbs. in high school... I've been on yo yo diets for I don't know how long and it started to depress me that I was getting nowhere.
Then I did the 3 hour diet (Jorge Cruze)... and my metabolism went through the roof! What I realized is that the restrictions he gives you IS the core plan for weight watchers... you just eat it every three hours to trick your body. It worked... After the first 15 lbs or so was gone from walking everywhere on campus my freshman year of college... I lost another 50 just by doing this three hour ordeal.
Then WW happened... I started with my pal Lauren. We just wanted to lose more weight (because at that time, I had went from around 180 lbs back up to 195 lbs and I did NOT want to be over 200 lbs. again). My sister had lost a LOT of weight doing this on her own (but that's not the good way, her weight teeters too much for me... I need reinforcement, that's why I <3 my meetings). So I ended up hitting the 160s when I started on WW in NC (they're WW International)... then I moved to TN and the entire state is Franchise owned... I loved my etools too much and decided to give doing it on my own a try... yeah, I gained weight and ended back up at 175 lbs.
Then I decided, franchise or not.... I need WW. And lo-and-behold... I've lost the 10 lbs. I gained last semester and then some. :-D I just hit the 150s... Woot woot 159.6! I haven't seen this weight SERIOUSLY since like first grade.
I know this is like my entire weight loss story for the past 6 years... but still. It helps to just let it out sometimes.
So future plans for weight loss:
I want to feel good about myself ALWAYS *I still look in the mirror and see the 252 lb girl from high school... I'm working on this....*
I want to feel physically okay. This one's not as difficult to conquer, I already feel fantastic physically compared to how I usually felt.
I want to lose 100 lbs. before my 10 year high school reunion. I have 7.6 lbs to go to accomplish this and I have 4 years to do it. I think this is feasible... it's just doing it and KEEPING IT OFF.
I want to see what putting on single digit sized pants feels like... that's never happened to me... though I think I would be completely fine with my body if I stayed a size 10. I think for someone 5'7" that's reasonable.
Lastly, I want to keep doing this for myself so I live longer and experience life to the fullest.
I think that's all I have for now. I'm pretty drained. LOL
Grace and love 
,
Paula