Losing Me

My journey of losing myself and finding myself all in one step

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  • Name: BeautifulPoetO6
  • City: Charleston
  • Region: West Virginia
  • Country: United States

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My Weight Loss

Height: 165.1cm
Start weight: 291.00lb
Current weight: 279.00lb
Goal weight: 160.00lb
Lost to date: 12.00lb
Remaining: 119.00lb

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MINI GOAL!!

i stepped on the scale this morning at 8am and it said EXACTLY 240 .... woohoo!!!   

i reached my mini goal like 2 weeks early :) now for the next one of 199 pounds ... that's like 41 pounds to lose by Jan 1 :]

new clothes, new pictures!!!!

i just back from shopping, i needed some new jeans cus all of mine were falling off lol, and i'm down 2 1/2 sizes! i say 1/2 because i could BARELY squeeze into a size 20, they weren't comfortable AT ALL lolol, but i got IN THEM!!! i'll save them for when i'm down another 10-15 pounds and they will fit better :)

and i'm down 2 sizes in shirts too ... yayyyyyy :) total motivation to keep going~~



Here is me at my highest weight of 291




and today at 240!!






you don't get to see THIS on a treadmill!!

hahaha ... i love walking outside, especially when you live in the country like i do ... all the sights and sounds are a beauty to behold :)

i always thought what a convenience it would be to have a treadmill ... to not hafta leave the house and be able to get some exercise LOL, but personally I just can't see myself spending all that money on one when I can go outside and walk for free hahaha

this morning i'm glad i feel that way :) i was coming around the corner, for some reason i looked down at Gracie (my schnauzer), and saw her pulling at the leash to get to something, turned to my right and there's a big ol deer runnin at me LOL... it crossed the field and ran across right in front of me, not even 3 feet away, went into one of my neighbors yards, hopped the fence and was gone

it was such a lovely sight :) i love deer.... almost every morning, when i can get out early enough, i see a whole family of them jumping and running around the meadow across the creek on the route of my walk

emotional day

okay so i had a rough day yesterday, with the doctor appt and my broken jayjay and everything LOL (long story haha)

i didnt exercise for fear of hurting myself ... and to top it off, i did the comfort food thing ... i ate a burger (no cheese, just ketchup), and a very large baked potato today =\ (with low fat margarine, low fat cheese, and low fat sour cream at least!)

and to top it off i drank my first regular soda in 3 months ... BAD me... but gawd it was good, it was like heroine coursing through my veins .... LOL, such sweet sin

*sigh* ok back on wagon today...already went for my walk

i'm feeling so refreshed today and so much stronger ... and only a few pounds from my first goal of 240!!! if im extra good for the next couple of days i might be able to swing it by Monday :)

Weigh-In ~ 8/10

well I weighed in this morning .... and EVEN with me going crazy at pizza hut and then having more bad food later that evening on Saturday....

I'm 244.2 pounds!!!!! omgggg... that's like 6.8 pound loss this week, not real sure how the heck i did that but I'LL TAKE IT!!! lol 

I'm now 2 pounds below my prepregnancy weight of 246 ... i haven't been this low in like 4 years!!!

I'm soooo close to my mini goal of 240 pounds! I definitely should be able to make it by my timeframe of Sept 1, but probably way before (like next week hopefully)

yikes!! that was a close one!!!

yikes that was close hahaha ... target only had ONE of the Ni Hao Kai-lan backpacks left that Teagan wants for school, i had them put it up to the front so jamal (her daddy) could pick it up tonight, along with one of the matching lunch  bags

she woulda been so disappointed if we couldn't have gotten that one!!!!  I'm glad i thought to check on it tonight and have him get it early (instead of this weekend)

for those interested.... LOL

the backpack :)






lunch bag



I've come to the conclusion that ...

sometimes a few bad days do more good than harm....

I say this, because before I had those few really horrible days last week with my eating (even though i was still exercising at least 5 days a week, i went off the wagon as far as my diet)... my weight loss was starting to slow down a bit .... and i weighed myself this morning and i've lost 4 pounds since monday!!!!  

I know a lot of that probably was a little water retention from sodium and such but so far, at least, it seems to have jump started me again :)

not sure why ... maybe confusing my body, giving my metabolism a jolt or something? i dunno, but i'll take it LOL

a new day, a new month, feeling strong

today is a new day ... a new month ... and I'm feeling stronger :)

yesterday was just rough, food wise (though I DID get off my butt and do my Walk Away the Pounds video [was raining])

this morning i woke up a little late, was only able to do half of my walk before it got way too hot ....i was able to do about 20 mins ... i'll do another 20-30 minutes this evening when the sun goes down :)

i've already drank about 36 oz of water LOL (was super thirsty cus of the heat when i came in!)

the good news is that this morning I hadn't gained any weight, I'm still maintaining at 249.8 ...even after yesterday (man was that good!! LOL) so if i'm SUPER good the next 2 days I might still be able to shed a pound or 2 by Monday :) if not ... whatever, i still have plenty of time to accomplish my mini goal within the time frame i hoped for :)

official ... this week is a bust!!

**meant to post this yesterday, but i forgot ... so technically ... July 31, 2009**

i've decided today is just gonna hafta be a free for all cus my will power went out the door completely when i ate half of a grilled chicken burrito from taco bell this morning LOL (tay ate the other half)

...and a cookout tonight? blah ... forget it LOL

today is just gonna hafta be free for all and i'll get back on plan tomorrow and hope for better results NEXT monday :)

changing my stats...

over my life i've been a real yo yo dieter ... like REALLY bad...every time i stop i get heavier and heavier ... but i'd never went past the 270's

needless to say a year or so ago it totally shocked me when i stepped on the scale and saw that i'd gotten all the way up to 291!!!!  it was at that point i was like WHOA! i need to do something i cant deal with this .....i don't know why I was so okay with being 275 but not 291 lol

that was when i went on a major diet and i did pretty good i lost about 17 pounds...and got down to 274 ....but then i stopped (AGAIN!) ... i never gained anymore back though

this is why I've decided on this most recent journey (WHICH I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE TO QUIT!!!!)... to go by the most recent number of 274.  But then just a few minutes ago while blogging on here for the first time... I realized, that not stating those little measly 17 pounds (measly compared to my whole journey) ... was almost like taking something away from me. 

I have NOT lost 24 pounds ... I've lost 41 pounds!!! and that's a HUGE accomplishment!!!  

As much as I hate to put it on there, that I ever weighed that much (LOL) ... I've changed my stats to include my highest weight of 291.