two year anniversary with the boyfriend
Last week... I was thinking about this day and all the things it meant not only for my relationship but for me as a person. The supreme significance that came with being with the same person for two years and dedicating my life and my heart to that success. I also think this two years represents so many things in my own life that have changed and occurred, that this day celebrates all those as well.
My relationship -- HOLY CRAP I MADE IT TWO YEARS WITH THE SAME PERSON. I would never say that I was afraid of commitment, but i have been independent and loud my entire life and never thought there was a human out there who could put up with me without losing himself or me in the process. Not only have we surpassed that expectation, but we have morphed into a couple that has clear individual personalities yet mold well together in every situation. We have been through alot of obstacles, but what surprises me most is how easy it has been. I sometimes wonder if its too easy, but how can that be? maybe its soo easy because we are honestly meant to be.
I am a difficult person to love... I am stubborn, loud, bitchy at the drop of a hat, persistent, incredibly smart, and willing to fight anyone. It is not a walk in the park to be in a relationship with me... and I am fine with that. Looking back on the past two years, I realized how I have changed as a person. That amazes me because I always thought I wouldnt for a guy, but I find that if its for the right guy you find yourself changing with them and standing behind those changes.
I still remember our very awkward first date, the halarious parking garage first kiss, and the day we signed our shared lease here in Indiana. It feels like the best, most rewarding, and shortest two years I can remember. I often ask God what I did to deserve him and honestly think it was fate that we met, because it had to be PERFECT timing to come together the way we did... and to stay together as well as we did... and whatever I did to deserve him and this happiness -- gosh I hope it continues!
MYSELF: Two years in a relationship with someone who has more patience, a calmer attitude, and such a different perspective on life can really change a person. I have learned that yelling doesnt always solve the problem, and sometimes being quiet means you get better answers. I have learned the inside and outs of another human being and how to intereact and share space with him on a daily basis. I have learned how to love someone fiercely, yet let them experience things on their own -- and how to give my entire self up to someone and trust they will be up to the job.
I have moved across country with someone to live with them and start a new job... and found that it was 10x easier than I expected. I have conquered so many personal demons and surpassed so many goals in the past two years... that being in a successful relationship also makes it that much better.
I have lived in four different apartments, with three different roommates -- held down two successful jobs... gained 30 lbs and lost 60 lbs (more to come off)... successfully met all my financial requirements... and grown up too much to measure.
Two years today... today is a celebration and a day to reflect on the changes I have made personally through the success of being with my love.