the continuation of my monthly update
I had to stop mid post earlier this morning and I submitted it to make sure it was saved... and when I went back to finish it -- I had received about three comments that were so inspiring. I dont think anyone can really put into words how it feels so have that support and to REALLY appreciate and value the kind words other people with the same struggle say. Thank you for supporting me and for letting me support you -- you are a BIG chunk of why I have this success to write about, and will have more in the future!
Previous Post Continued:
Life in general has been eventful for me... I have coached every weekend this month with my 10U softball team and really experienced the real differences between coaching and playing. I have also learned that coaching softball is not as aerobic as playing -- so I have started running laps with my players and doing all the dreaded stuff I used to try to avoid! My co-coach thinks I am wacked out, but weight loss does not come with standing still!! :)
This past week was a big giant lesson learned for me... my best friend came into town for a the week and I took vacation from work. I realized that I have become an adult when I took vacation to stay home for a week and really really enjoyed it. I loved sitting in my pool during working hours, driving around with the window open at noon, and not having a single stress about what was not getting done. Being new at a job usually enduces vacation stress, but I took it well and am proud of myself for that!
My best friend came into town, have not seen her for over a year -- she has been in miami, florida teaching for two years. We are very different... but its so neat to see that friendship grow with distance and be stronger instead of fall apart by the wayside. I think i learned more about myself in the past week, then the entire 6 months I have been in Indiana. She taught me how to step back and look at situations, she showed me the communication strength me and my boyfriend have, and she reminded me how worth loving I am. That I truly am someone that a person can wholeheartedly believe in, and that is ok!!
Lastly, my boyfriend got in a BAD car accident on Friday night. He totaled his car, and I was the first person he called --- wasnt even out of the car yet. I was completely panicked.. he was 15 minutes away, didnt know where he was, and claimed to be ok but i wasnt sure. I was scared!! We are driving down the road I think he is on and suddenly there are firetrucks, ambulances, and a big massive hoopla. I started bawling --- omg if its that bad he has got to be dead... omg omg!! Well turns out that was an entirely different accident and when I call him to tell him i am there, he says he is way farther down the road and sounds much better now. I finally get to him, about 20 mins later, and he is pacing while his car steams and is all bent up. His airbags went off, gasp, and his knees are bruised. He is safe... he is alive.. he is fine -- THANK GOD.
His car was ruined, and his entire brain shut down into panic mode the next 48 hours -- but he is alive. Another HUGE lesson I learned is that people handle stress very differently, and you have to love them enough to let them figure it out alone but be willing to help when they ask. Me fixing his car problem was not going to help him at all... just keep him weak. I had to let him suffer and panic and freak out, and be an all around freak show -- so he could FEEL the problem being fixed on his own and take control. I hated every minute of it, and frankly I wanted to kill him when his attitude went raw -- but to see him FEEL better about things slowly and to have the confidence that comes with that -- irreplaceable.
My family also swooped in and helped immensely -- just really gave him the support they would have given me.. and it was magical to see that and feel that. He is truly my guy, and my family truly believes in us -- and feeling that envelope of love is amazing!
He does get a new car out of the deal though -- i want a new car!