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| Start weight: | 245.00lb |
| Current weight: | 224.50lb |
| Goal weight: | 215.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 20.50lb |
| Remaining: | 9.50lb |
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In the interest of having fun, but eating healthy I have devised a menu for my Superbowl party this weekend.
Pulled Pork Sandwiches
Homemade Honey Oat Bread
Homemade Salsa
Homemade Tortilla Chips
Healthy Chewy Chocolate Brownies
All of the recipes came from www.eatingwell.com, I think DH and his friends will like this and it is a better alternative for me than our usual, chicken wings and fries.
that sometimes life just loves to throw a monkey wrench into things.
Journal 2:
Today I am feeling a bit lost. Yesterday 5% of the corporate staff was laid off in my company. I am nervous now, if things don't pick up in the retail industry I wouldn't be surprised if we have another layoff within a year. As if that wasn't bad enough, after work I went to my MIL's house for a short visit. While there she pulled out pictures she had taken at Christmas. I was horrified at the picture of me.
I was honestly...FAT!
Even my before picture posted on EP is not as bad as that picture. It was horrible! I did not realize just how bad I looked. I just wanted to cry.
That is what I get for refusing to have my picture taken on a more regular basis. I'm going to get a copy and post here so that will keep me motivated.
NEXT YEAR I WILL NOT HAVE ANOTHER FAT CHRISTMAS PICTURE!
This made me want to grab my comfort food and go to town. I think I managed quite well last night. I didn't grab the chocolate cake, I stuck to my planned meal. Again, this morning I didn't allow myself to stop for a chick-fil-a biscuit. I had my oatmeal and applesauce instead.
So I managed to control myself, in the past I would have gone straight for the cake, cookies, chips, etc to soothe my nerves. I am still on plan and will hit the gym today at lunch.
Yesterday in my weight management class we talked about change and how our attitude toward change affects our weight loss efforts. In our discussion we talked about the Stages of Change Model which is a study of the stages we go through when faced with change. This model was originally created to help people with their addictions, drugs and smoking, but can be applied to so many things in life. I guess when you think about it, food can be an addiction. Whether we eat because we think we are hungry, eat from boredom, sadness, happiness, whatever - we wouldn't be here if we didn't have an issue with food. The idea behind the study is to show that change does not and cannot happen all at once, we go through stages during change and if we don't complete the stages then our change may not be complete.
Here are the stages:
Precontemplation (Not yet acknowledging that there is a problem behavior that needs to be changed - DENIAL)
Contemplation (Acknowledging that there is a problem but not yet ready or sure of wanting to make a change - ACCEPTANCE)
Preparation/Determination (Getting ready to change - RESEARCH)
Action/Willpower (Changing behavior)
Maintenance (Maintaining the behavior change) and
Relapse (Returning to older behaviors and abandoning the new changes)
I have been through precontemplation, this is very similar to denial, I did not have a weight problem. I was just fine the way I was.
I went through contemplation, around August - October of 2007, I knew my weight was beginning to be a problem. I was feeling bad, clothes didn't fit, I was eating everything in site. I started to realize just what was going to happen if I didn't get this under control.
My preparation phase started around late October 2007. We had a health fair at work and a weight loss clinic was one of the vendors. They came in with vats of fat 
and these little tubes that showed how much sugar was in one soda. I started researching diets, eating plans, and put into motion my plans to join a gym.
Now I am actively in the Action/Willpower stage. I have joined the gym and have been going since December. I joined the weightloss clinich that attended the health fair. I have been eating much better since joining the program. I just have to stay focused and keep going, I know what my future holds if I don't get my eating and exercise under control. I also know that my future will be brighter if I do get it under control.
Next come Maintenance. Hopefully I will not relapse, but if I do, I feel I will be better prepared to deal with the changes.
If you would like to read more about the stages of change go here:
http://www.addictioninfo.org/articles/11/1/Stages-of-Change-Model/Page1.html
I was challenged to start journaling my feelings every day, I will give it a shot.
Journal 1:
Today I'm feeling pretty good, I'm suffering from some severe boredom in my life right now. I will continue to monitor my boredom and find a pattern: am I bored with work, with home, with school, with friends? I don't know, but maybe keeping track will help me determine that.
1. My husband and I divorced over religious differences.
He thought he was God and I didn't.
2. I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it.
3. Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.
4. I used to have a handle on life, but it broke.
5. Don't take life too seriously; No one gets out alive.
6. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me
7. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder.
8. Earth is the insane asylum for the universe.
9. I'm not a complete idiot -- Some parts are just missing.
10. Out of my mind. Back in five minutes.
11. NyQuil, the stuffy, sneezy, why-the-heck-is-the-room-spinning medicine.
12. God must love stupid people; He made so many.
13. The gene pool could use a little chlorine.
14. Consciousness: That annoying time between naps.
15. Ever stop to think, and forget to start again?
16. Being "over the hill" is much better than being under it!
17. Wrinkled Was Not One of the Things I Wanted to Be When I Grew up.
18. Procrastinate Now!
19. I Have a Degree in Liberal Arts; Do You Want Fries With That?
20. A hangover is the wrath of grapes.
21. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a cash advance
22. Stupidity is not a handicap. Park elsewhere!
23.They call it PMS because Mad Cow Disease was already taken.
24.He who dies with the most toys is nonetheless DEAD.
25.A picture is worth a thousand words, but it uses up three thousand times the memory.
26.Ham and eggs.A day's work for a chicken, a lifetime commitment for a pig.
27. The trouble with life is there's no background music.
28. The original point and click interface was a Smith & Wesson.
29. I smile because I don't know what the hell is going on.
Bye bye the three pounds that disappeared this week. I hope to NEVER see you again. Next week I'll be sending three more pounds your way to keep you company.
I'm down a total of 15 pounds since starting this journey! Only 5 more to go and I reach my first mini goal of 20 pounds lost. Then I can get a manicure.
After 30 pounds lost, its a pedicure!
Ok, after being sick the past two weeks I finally made it back to the gym today. I managed the full 30 minutes of cardio, all in my target heart rate zone and did my upper body weight routine. I was really afraid that after staying away from the gym I would have a hard time getting going again. It wasn't so bad.
I guess that is because while I haven't been going to the gym I have tried to stay somewhat active at least a little bit every day. I've managed to get in walks to cover some cardio and have been doing crunches and such at home. I must confess that I do prefer the gym to doing this stuff at home. At the gym I can turn on my IPod and tune out everything, I don't have to listen for the constant calls of "Mom!!! I need you," or dh bugging me or my dogs trying to sit on me while I do crunches. I have an hour and a half of pure me time.
On another good note, my size 16 jeans are fitting really good now. I bought a pair about three weeks ago, I absolutely refused to buy another pair of size 18's. The 16s were snug, but now are starting to fit comfortably. Hopefully by Valentine's Day they will start feeling a little big, like the 18s are doing now.
Weigh in is tomorrow, my weight after working out today looked really good I just hope it lasts until tomorrow. So here's to eating really good all day today and tomorrow morning in preparation for my weigh in. I would so love to take off 2 pounds of fat, instead of water like last week.
It has been a week since I last posted, I have been battling illness yet again! Sinus infection and strep throat, I HATE winter!
On to a better note, despite being ill I still managed to take off 2 pounds. That is with no workouts and eating way off plan. Not bad stuff, just not enough food.
Here is to a good week.
Warning: This is long, but may give you a laugh.
I hit my 10 pound loss today.
I am going to try really hard this week to stay on plan and see if I can see a more significant weight loss than 1.5 pounds next week at weigh in.
with the weekends.
Oh how I love my weekends, I get to lay around in my pj's all day if want. I can cuddle up with a good book, I can watch a marathon of "America's Next Top Model" and really not feel guilty about it. After all, I work hard all week, running here and there so why not rest and enjoy my weekends?
Oh how I hate my weekends, I lay around in my pj's all day. I watch tv non stop for two days. My eating schedule goes completely out the window. I don't drink my water and I don't exercise.
I'm so conflicted! I love the weekends yet I hate them. I suppose I should try to find some balance on those two little days of the week, but I get so caught up in doing nothing that I just can't put forth the effort.
Maybe when Spring gets here it will be a little easier for me. I'm more apt to go outside and work in the yard, I'm planning to put in a garden this spring. Maybe it is just the winter blahs getting to me.
On a good note, my jeans, fresh out of the dryer this morning, went on with no trouble and are actually comfortable. So I know I'm losing something besides my mind.
