Well, I baught me a scale, although most of the comments lead to NO LOL. Sorry guys, I just had to do it. But I did appreciate your comments :) This reminds me a song (Tim McGraw) CAN'T TELL ME NOTHIIIIIIN LOL But anyway, I got one and surprisingly...I'm not weighing myself every day! I did weigh myself today - down to 178! I haven't done much exercise from that stupid mole/stiches blah blah (that's my excuse) But I did do some sit ups and stuff, something that wouldn't make me sweat a lot. I've been so good at eating I'm sooo surprised. My house is full of horrible crap, ice cream, Doritos, cookies, cake, pizza-GAH!! But it's all for my boyfriend and I eat none of it!! He offers me, and it's like this person inside of me smacks my hand if I try to reach out for some LoL It feels oh so good saying no and nibbling on my steak as he shovels fried potatoes in his mouth :D
I decided to reward myself a little, I straightened my hair -Hubba Hubba! LoL It actually looked nice, I feel like a different person! Everyone noticed, of course-and everyone says it looks good! But I do actually miss my curlies and everyone always wants to touch my hair so I guess I'm lucky to not have to perm it. I uploaded a pic-it was with a cell phone so it's not very clear looking. Seeing it now I guess my face does look a little thinner...but I still don't feel very different...ah well. That's my daughter Cleo givin me a smo0ch-love that damn cat. Thanks for reading me out people!
Heheh ok here's whats up today... I go get my stitches removed-I had 3 on my chest from a blood mole that had to be removed.Yuck! Anyway, I ask the Doc if I can get my prescription for my phentermine refill and she says to wait a month to weigh in because I might gain the weight back-wtf? I surely hope not! I'm eating just fine now, I eat good stuff (lots of protein!) I say no to cookies and cake.(But I say yes to drugs! I heart you Phen) LoL
So I weigh in today at the Doc and I lost another 5 pounds-yipee!! It's fast loss and Im scared but I'm eating just fine so I shouldn't worry, right? I havent been very active this past week or so with the stitches and all. I was supposed to stay "dry" in that area...Boy, taking a bath was quite a scene. I tried so hard avoiding that spot-It's like on my upper left boob. How am I supposed to keep that dry?! What about washing my hair? Ugh! I felt like a child with a big plastic cup dumping water on me and knowing I'm missing spots-geez!! So Doc says I can wet it now 'relief' and Softball starts again in September but we're actually going to practice so we start playing soon. That'll keep me active for a bit. I'm still lousy at catching fly balls...but maybe practice...might make me better? LoL I hope I can keep the loss going-especially now that I can run and jump and sweat all I want again. Stupid mole.
I think I might buy a scale today...LOL No I don't have one- I'm scared I might weigh myself every day and see nothing. But I know I should get one. I told my mom about my weight loss, assuming she'd be happy...and she freaks out and says "I'm gonna be so unhealthy or get fat again because I'm on stupid drugs." And she went on and on about my health and that it's too fast... I guess it was my fault for letting her know. Blah. Whatever.
And here's my dealio. I weighed 169 lbs (5'10) in HS and I was sporty and I felt great, blah blah blah. My parents however, always calling me a fatty, oinking at me, telling me to stop eating-it was hurting. I didn't care what I ate because I was active and I felt I could eat anything. Well good-bye HS and OMG the weight came on me like I couldn't believe. Before I knew it I was at 200 lbs exactly and well now I live with my BF in VA (my parents are in Cali) and I still can't hear enough of my parents bitching about my weight!
I'm not trying to lose weight just because of my parents' harsh comments, but because I felt good before and now I'm just so unbelievably hard on myself. I don't go shopping anymore because last time I started crying in the dressing room cuz crap wouldn't fit nice anymore. I know it's not too much weight I have to lose but people can be so mean and make things seem worse, especially if those words come from loved ones.
So I'm on a low carb/high protien diet and I started taking Phentermine, my Doc said I didn't really need it, but I need that little push. I play softball in a league, volleyball on the weekends sometimes, and I go to a small gym here that belongs to my apartment community. I've lost 14 lbs already so I feel ok about that, but I lost them so quick...I don't feel them gone. Was it fat on my head? Beats me.
I joined here because I figured I needed to hear from other folks trying to do the weight loss thing and maybe just get away from bad comments. Everyone here has such motivating stories! It's awesome-quite a tear jerker actually (ok ok, yes-it's that time of the month!) Thank's for reading me out! :) -Liz
