| Height: | |
| Start weight: | 155.00lb |
| Current weight: | 168.00lb |
| Goal weight: | 145.00lb |
| Lost to date: | -13.00lb |
| Remaining: | 23.00lb |
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Today has truly been a crappy day. I broke down and got a blast from Sonic. Now, I feel ugly, fat, and very upset with myself. Tomorrow is a new day. I must get myself under control! Help!!!!
I just can't seem to get myself back to normal. I have major PMS and all I want to do is eat. I haven't weighed since January 1st. I have been counting my WW points, but I am running out of flex points.
Going back to work has been hard. I am so used to sleeping in and now I am back to getting up at five in the morning. I know it will take me some time to get back to the grind. I just have to give myself time.
My husband turns 31 this Sunday. I can't believe it! We are growing up and it feels so weird. I'll be 28 a month from Sunday. Where does the time go? Another shocker is that I have been out of high school for 10 years! I CAN NOT believe that! Most of my friends have babies and are married. I've seen a few people from high school and I can't believe they have children. Honestly, if they are like they were in high school, they don't need children.
Well, I am going to try and get through today and know that tomorrow will be better. I just have to hang on!
I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year. So far this year has been very uneventful- that is good. I slept way too late today, but I was very productive. I washed my car, did laundry, and cleaned the house. Not bad! So, I did major celebrating last night- not drinking, but eating. I am not even going to mention how much I was up this morning. I am going to get myself back into the swing of things. I know it is going to take a while to get rid of this salt in my body, but I must be patient. Isn't it sad how easy it is to get food in your mouth, but how hard it is to get rid of its effects? Well, I hope everyone's year has started off well. Happy New Year!
Well, I have almost made it through the holidays. Yes, I've gained. I am up five pounds. I don't think that is too bad considering last year I gained almost ten pounds and just kept going. I had a nice holiday. It was a relaxing holiday. I have to admit; I am getting a little bored. Work will start up next week, so I will get back into the groove of things.
So, this time of the year makes everyone start thinking about their New Year's Resolutions. I know I want to continue my new life style and make myself realize that I will have bad days, but that doesn't mean I blow the whole week. I also would like to be in a marathon. I have always wanted to do that. I think it would be rewarding to myself. I also want to continue paying my credit cards off. I paid off one this year. I hope everyone has a great New Year and that you are able to stick to one of your resolutions. Have a wonderful New Year's celebration!! 
Okay, I feel so much better. I had a holiday lunch party at work and I had a plate of good food! So, I decided I needed to walk the treadmill and I feel so much better. At our lunch today, we played a game and we passed gifts around several times and finally we got one to keep. You are never going to guess what it was??!!! TWO POUNDS OF CHOCOLATE!!! I mean really- that is so cruel. I left it at work and I am going to put it in the lounge tomorrow for everyone to enjoy!
Tomorrow is my mom's 49th birthday! I posted a picture of her! Isn't she a hottie?!! Happy Birthday Mom!! 
Oh! This is getting hard. I am just so happy about the holidays and all I am doing is sad to say is eating. I had to make a dessert for work today and that just has started my holiday eating. I didn't even weigh today because I am scared. I am going to walk the treadmill tonight, so maybe that will make me feel better. I also haven't been drinking my water! Bad!! I am retaining salt and my fingers feel puffy! Ahhhh!!!! Someone tell me to stop this craziness! 
I just want to eat and eat. There are so many goodies around and I just want them badly. I keep looking at my fat pictures and tell myself that I must stop this. I then try to tell myself that I can enjoy myself, but I must keep exercising. So, I am going to do that. I have to gain control of my eating. Just because the food is there, I don't have to eat it.
I keep reminding myself that I was a size 16/18 and now I am a 8/10. I mean- I should feel proud, but when I see all this food, I just want to eat and eat it! Help!!
Okay, goodies have been brought to work today. I had a few and now I must stay away! I can enjoy myself, but I don't have to go overboard. I can be strong today!
I am doing exactly what I told myself I would not do - over eating! My husband has been off more often and I am happy. And when I am happy, I eat! I have got to get a hold of myself. I am not using my moderation rule at all. I must stop.
I am almost at my Christmas break from work. I am really looking forward to break this year. This year has been tough with my job and I am just looking for me time and family time. Well, I must tell myself that I don't need food to do that!!!! I must be strong!!
This week is going by so slowly. I haven't had a good week at all. I got into some of my husband's candy and REALLY enjoyed myself. I try not to get into his goodies, but sometimes I can't help it. Oh well!! As long as I don't do it all the time! I am so glad tomorrow is Friday! Two whole days of freedom!
