09/12/07 - Weight loss Wednesday

I stepped on the scale this morning before my shower and low and behold I have lost a total of 8.2 lbs. this week!  I was shocked!  I'm glad that all of my efforts are paying off.

I have a wedding to go to at the end of the month about 4 hours away from home.  I didn't think we were going to go, but yesterday my husband told me that it would be a nice getaway from the kids and to go ahead and book a room.  So, I booked us a beautiful suite with a jacuzzi tub in the bathroom, a fireplace in the living room, and a view of beautiful Lake Michigan.  I can't wait! 

9/10/07 - Absolutely!

Yesterday I told my friend how much I actually weigh.  That was the first time that I actually told anyone (besides my doctor) how much I actually weigh.   I think I'm finally ready to get out of the denial stage and take accountability for my actions.  I'm 214 lbs. and I'm obese.  No more whining, no more looking in the mirror and feeling sorry for myself.  This is it.

Is this going to be hard? Absolutely!  Will it be a long and painful road? Absolutely!  Will I come across some bumps on the way?  Probably.   Will it all be worth it in the end?  ABSOLUTELY!

Back at it again

This is for good this time.  No more screwing around.  I'm sure I say that every time, but this time just feels different.  I will have to prove it to myslef and everyone else though that I mean it.  I have 2 kids now though and I need to be healthy for them, not just me.  I want to be able to run around with them and not get winded like I do now. 

So far, I'm off to a good start.  I actually started counting points again on 9/5/07, and have been very good so far.  WW seems to be the best way for me to lose weight, as I don't feel so restricted as I do with other diets.  I know that I can eat pretty much anything, as long as I count the points.

Here I go!  This is the beginning.  A new start.  And I'm more ready now than I've ever been before!

To join or not to join

I have been counting points, using WW's flex points system, for about 2 1/2 weeks now.  It's going great!  I never officially joined WW though, just used some of a friends materials to get myself started.  I'm debating whether or not to go ahead and join for the meetings and the weekly weigh-in's.  I think that looking forward to the week's weigh-in would give me added motivation, since I don't weigh myself on a regular basis yet.  But, on the other hand, why spend the money if I am doing ok on my own?  What do you all think?  Maybe I will give myself a couple more weeks and reconsider.  I do have some co-workers that already go on a lunch hour once per week, so that would help...  hmmmm....  Any advice?

They finally fit!!

I have been trying on a pair of pre-pregnancy pants every week now for about 2 months, trying to see if I could get them buttoned.  Today I slipped them on and buttoned them up!  I am wearing them and they are comfortable!  Progress! 

This is the first time in my life that I feel like I am changing my way of life instead of "dieting".  That word is so daunting and I panic when I think about it, as if I am going to starve myself or deprive myself of something.  That word makes me give up and grab a half-gallon of ice cream and a spoon.  Obsession.  That's what I have.. an obsession with food.  I am addicted.  Weight Watchers has me equally obsessed with food, only in a good way.  I am constantly pulling up recipes online and calculating the Points.  I am going to the produce store once a week and stocking up on my 1 Pointers or my "free" items.  I look forward to writing down what I ate and seeing how many points I have left for the day.  I drink water like I never have before, and my body craves it now!  I can't believe what a difference I feel already. 

Still feeling optimistic!

This is about the point at which I give up.  A couple of weeks after I have started any diet, I convince myself that I am starving and deprived (my weight shows that I'm not) and I go get something really good to eat.  Today I feel good!  I feel better than good, I feel fantastic!  I feel like my life has just begun and I can't wait to count my points tomorrow!  This IS going to work for me, but only because I want it to.  Maybe I am more ready now than I have ever been before to make a change in my life.  I see it as a change for life, not some ugly, nasty diet.  It's a whole new outlook, and I like it.  I can't wait to look in the mirror and see me again, not this ugly fat person that has taken over my body. 

Feeling good so far

I made it through the first day of counting points!  I thought I did really well, and I didn't feel deprived of anything which is really important to me.  I even did some cardio last night by walking 3 miles.  I feel good about this!  It's definitely a good start!

Weight Watchers

I decided to use the Weight Watchers diet system.  I won't be going to any meetings or anything.  I will have the support of some friends that are already doing it and succeeding.  I did some research on it last week and I don't think it will be as hard as I thought it would be.  Maybe it is a change in my attitude though.  I want to lose weight, for ME!  I have a beautiful son that I want to be able to chase around and play with.  I want to be able to go swimming at the water park with him, and biking, and ice skating.  I don't want to have to tell him that I can't do something, just because I am embarassed of my weight! 

A New Start

I am ready to shed these pounds that have "magically appeared".  It's like it happened overnight, although when I reflect upon the past couple of years I can definitely see what got me here.  So many days of bad choices, period.  It's time I take responsibility for my actions and reclaim my body!  Here's to a New Start!  Here's to many many more healthy and happier days!