Going on a search and rescue!!!!

Back to business....

Friday, November 2, 2007 00:01:06

Ugh.... I know, that's not a good way to start a blog, but I am dragging this morning. I loved having some time off, however, one more day would be nice! I got up this morning and did some very much needed, long over due yoga, which felt great. I hope everyone had a lovely holiday. I for one enjoyed the mini-break that I had. I can say that I do not want to see, Turkey, sweet potato pie, greens or anything remotely having to do with Thanksgiving dinner for a while. I did do really well, and didn't stuff myself, I was too afraid of having a gallbladder attack, but I did munch a bit. I didn't bother weighing on Friday for fear of disaster, but when I weighed on Saturday I had not gained but about 1/2 a pound!!! Yeah! TOM is visiting though, so I will contribute that to him and not turkey day!!! Other than that I got all my Christmas decorations up along with my tree, and wrapped all my presents!!! My Christmas cards are addressed, and ready to go out, so I am done with that atleast. I hope this will be a short week. There is a Christmas parade this evening, and my DH b-day is Thursday. Anyways, better stop the morning ramblings and go get ready for work.

I will try to catch up some of your blogs tonight or tomorrow night. Have a great week!!!

Lots of love,

Kami

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will I ever get well?

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 22:04:18

Hey everyone! I know I vowed to be back on here more, but when it rains it pours!!! You all know how it goes. I got back on the right track after my gallbladder attacks and after getting over a miserable chest cold, only to be stricken with Pharyngitis this week. I swear it felt like I had swallowed a razor blade. I got better by the weekend, just a nagging coughing and running nose now, only to be try my chance with some home made tacos this weekend, fat free cheese, fat free sour cream, fat free beans etc, but I used hamburger instead of turkey for the mix. Needless to say... I am scratching that off the list of things to eat.

Anyway, I got back in the game today. I am super excited that this is a short week at work, but alas I am sad I can't enjoy a normal Thanksgiving for in fear of spending in the hospital with a gallbladder attack, so I MUST BE GOOD. But hey, maybe it's a good thing though, otherwise I probably would gain about 10 pounds on Thursday!!!!!!! So I will look on the brighter side for that!!!!

I hope everyone is doing well on here, and hope you all can hang in there and avoid the urges this week. If not.... NO BIG DEAL. Just the reason to work harder next week. I have only 4 more pounds to go before I am the 220 mark, and 5 to go before I reach my Dec. 9th goal. My 6th month goal was November 9, and not only did I make it, I was under my goal by about 5 pounds. It's really getting harder and harder to lose, and I have noticed that it has slowed down alot, but I am not discouraged.

Anyways, take care guys, and if I don't get back on here before the holidays, I hope you all have a blessed Thanksgiving. Take care, and if you are traveling, be safe.

Love,

kami

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I didn't fall off....

Thursday, November 1, 2007 00:09:08

the face of the earth, and I am still on the wagon. But I have to admit there was a point in the last few weeks where I was only hanging on by one hand. I have been absent on here for a few weeks. I think I just needed a break from everything, and needed some time to get myself back together. I didn't fall apart or anything. However, I have thought of EP every day and all the friends I made here. I felt like I had abandonded you all.

Since my break, I have continued my yoga, and love every min. of it that I get to do, and I try to do it daily. However I don't walk as much lately. I was sick with a really bad head and chest cold so, I slacked off when that happened. My weight is still right on target for my goal in May. I didn't gain anything back since I was gone!!!! *that was the only plus* I am finally down into the 220's.

However other things have gone south since I last blogged. I have been batteling severe pain in the upper abdominal/ rib area for a few weeks and not feeling well. I had suspected my gallbladder, and finally it hit my Monday, and literally dropped me to my knees. Come to find out I have 5 stones in my gallbladder, along with gallbladder disease. I don't have insurance, so of course they think there is no need to take it out right now. So until I can figure out what to do I am trying to educate myself of the working of it and what and what not to do. (ANY ADVICE WOULD BE GREAT RIGHT NOW). Looks like the menu is very grim. It turns out that my doctor says because I have lost sooooo much weight in a little amount of time, my body did not need the large amount of bile anymore and it has hardened and broken off to form stones. Great!!!! Not only that my husband has just been layed off from his job, due to the strain of the economy.

But I know we will be alright, and we will get through this. It's just really stressfull right now.

Anyways, I am fixing to catch up with some of your blogs. I have really missed you all, and I hope that you are all doing well.

Lots of love,

Kami

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Have a great week!!!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 23:03:07

Well back to the grind. The weekend was great, but not long enough. Filled with ball games, house work, play dates etc. The weather was beautiful. I got my exercise in this weekend, plus I got my new Yoga videos. I finally felt it was time to take it to the next level, intermediate. WOW!! It really felt great. I am still walking, but this time of the year I want to be outside walking. So I think I am going to give the old treadmill a break, and start walking outside some.

As for the eating. At some points it's been hard to resist the urges to snack, and I have given in, but I am not beating myself down about it. I have maintained my weight loss. But that is no excuse and this week, I am buckling back down on myself. This is not the time to slip. Especially with the holidays right around the corner !!!!

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I will stop by some blogs this evening, but for now it's off to get ready for the work world! ( I say that with sarcasim).

Lots of love,

Kami

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Back burner.....

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 00:08:16

Guys, I promise I did not go on a trip to the moon, or fall of the planet, though it surely seems like I have been somewhere. I have really missed all of you, commenting, blogging etc. Seems lately I have put things on the back burner... but no more. I just really need to get organized again. Life really feels hectic. Work is crazy, when I get home it's homework, housework, etc. (you all know the drill). I just feel like I have lost my grip somewhere.

However, I have kept up on my daily workout. So I am proud of myself there. I am getting in 30 min. everyday, but I know that I need to step it up. I feel so out of the loop on here. *SOMEONE FILL ME IN ON THE AB WORKOUT* I have been seeing it on everyones blog. I could definitley use it. That is one area that needs some TLC!!!!

Anyway, I am getting my grip back, and I will be back on here hopefully everyday again. I really need the support... TOM is sniffing around again, and I keep getting these almost uncontrollable urges to EAT EVERYTHING!!!!! UGGGGGHHHHH. However.. i have resisted the temptation of most of them, and I am maintaining my weight. I have not gained, but I fear I will not lose any this week either.

Well, better get to the homework, dinner, house work.. etc... etc.

I have missed you all, and hope that you are all doing well. If I missed commenting on your blog, please know that I am thinking of you!!!!!!

Lots of love,

Kami

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I'm still here!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 00:05:20

Hello everyone! I am still here guys. I am sorry I haven't been on here, or on to any of the blogs. It's been on hectic week and I am still trying to play catch up. Work has been crazy, my computer has been acting crazy, and this weekend, I have barely been able to stop to pee! Otherwise I am doing good. I have had the munchies lately, but I have been strong and tried to refrain from eating everything that moved! I am still hanging in there on my 21 day challenge, ( I'm still working it Judy!) I have managed to get my exercise in everyday, though I am not sure what day I am on!! I did get to take a bike ride today with my little family. It was good. We haven't rode in a while. The last time I did, I was about 60 pounds heavier, and was about to die after the first mile! This time, it was a breeze.

I hope all of you are doing well on your plans! I have missed you all so much and seeing what you have been up to. This coming week will not be anything like this past week, so I will be able to check in on everyone this week. I was able to get a recent pic. of myself up on Friday. The difference is really starting to amaze me.

Anyway, I will check out some of your blogs tomorrow night and see how you are all doing, but I have to go run around some more and try to get things ready for the week.

Love you all,

kami

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long weekend...

Saturday, December 8, 2007 22:09:20

Hey everyone. I am sorry I haven't been around, it's been a pretty crazy weekend, and an even crazier Monday. I did manage to keep up on my 21 day exercise challenge, but only managed to get in 30 min. of yoga on Saturday and Sunday.

Today I was able to do my yoga for 15 min, walk 22 min. and do aerobics for about 15min. Work did not slow down today, and after that I had to go take my husband to pick up his truck, go get groceries, come home unload them, get dinner, and help my son with the rest of his homework. So now I am just sitting down. I am completely beat.

I have so much more I wanted to blog about, and tell you guys, and I also need some input, but tonight I just don't have it in me to type it all out. So I promise to try to catch up with you all tomorrow.

TO ALL MY 21 DAY CHALLENGE PEPS, I KNOW YOU ARE DOING WELL, SO KEEP IT UP!!!!!! I will check up on you tmw.

Lots of love, (and hopefully some sleep)

Kami

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ALL SMILES!!!

Saturday, December 8, 2007 22:06:20

Well today was a good day guys! I got up did my 15 min. of yoga, and walked on the treadmill for about 25 min. Went to work, got several complements. I always wear scrubs, but today I was able to wear regular clothes. My scrubs swallow me whole now, so I think everyone was in shock when they were actually able to see how much weight I have lost. It's been so long since I have had someone compliment me. It felt great.

After work, I decided that I needed to go and get an outfit for my best friends b-day party tomorrow. Nothing fancy, just wanted to get some jeans that acutally fit me. So I went to the local clothing store, one that I never go to because #1 the bigger sizes look like something my great grandmother would have worn, and #2 nothing ever would fit. So I took a chance. I went in and as soon as I entered the store, I realized, I had no idea what department I needed to go to , Plus size or Misses. So of course out of habit, I went to the plus size, found a pair of size 20's, and saw nothing that I liked in tops. The Misses is next to it, so I wandered over that way, just wondering...hoping... well I grabbed a pair of cute 20's and 2 cute tops. I headed to the dressing room just knowing that the Misses 20's and the plus size 20's are different styles, and different fits. Plus I thought I was just waisting my time. How about I tried on the 1x tops, and they looked good. Boy was I relieved. Then the true test, I tried on the jeans..... well, to my surprise, they were TOO BIG!!!!!! TOO BIG!!!! As I rushed, literally rushed, to put my clothes back on to go grab a size 18, I was overwhelmed with emotion. I got the 18's from the misses section, got back to the dressing room, and UREKA... they fit, damn it they fit. No muffin top, no thighs busting out at the seams, just pure bliss. Needless to say, I am the proud owner of a new pair of size 18 jeans, and two xl tops. Now I know your probably thinking, what's the big deal. Well, for those of you who don't know, when I started out I was in a size 26 pants, and a 3x shirt. I haven't seen 18's and xl's in years. I came home with the biggest smile on my face. My husband asked me did I win the lottery or something, I mean I couldn't stop smiling!!! I told him no, I had something much better. He automatically knew what I meant, and said "so, you found the perfect fit right?" He then told me that he was happy for me and very proud of me. You know, I have been happy with my hard work and effort, but have yet to really be proud of myself, but today I am damn proud of myself.

I have had success in life with my husband, my son, my home, but this is different. This is my renewed self confidence, a rejuvination of my entire being. This is the point that I realize, I am worth it, and why the hell did I let myself faulter years ago. Did I somehow abuse myself, did I stop loving me. I guess I did... however no more. This is a marker in my journey, one that I am so proud of.

Of course I have a long way to go still, but that moment,in that dressing room.... made me realize nothing will stop me from getting where I want to be, and that I am once again finding the old me, and you know... I have really missed her.

Anyways, I just had to share this with all of you. My husband would probably think that my ramblings were crazy, and that it was just a pair of jeans. He wouldn't understand, that their not just a pair of jeans, they are an awakening.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!!!!!

Lots of love,
Kami

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Someone was inspired...

Saturday, December 8, 2007 22:05:20

by me actually. I went to pick up my son from after school care, only to find that my husband had already got him. His teacher said hello and told me he was gone. As she did she made the comment of how much weight I had lost, and that I was looking good. She asked me over and wanted to know what I was doing to lose so much. I told her that I made a life style change after I hit rock bottom. I did it for me, myself, and I. I just explained my exercise routine, my eating habits, etc. The most important thing I guess, was that I told her I needed this for myself, and that I wanted to love myself again. I wanted to be healthy, happy, and to be free of the control that obesity had over me. Then I explained to her that without this site and the wonderful support group that I have with all of you that I probably would not have made it this far. I really hope she joins up.

She told me that she felt so inspired after our conversation that she had made her decision to go for it and do something about her weight. I can't begin to tell you how overwhelming this was for me. I actually helped someone with their weight, something I have struggled with for so long. Then like a slap in the face I realized that yes, I am still overweight, but I am becoming the success story now. Ones like I have read over many times before, and always wished it was me. It's actually happening, it's my turn!

I am so on cloud nine, 10 in fact. My emotions are running high, I don't know whether to cry, laugh, or smile. I just know it felt good for a change for someone to complement me and to look at me as their inspiration. This makes me want to reach my goal even harder.

Thanks again to all my EP friends for being there. You guys have really set the foundation for my success so far. I love you all.

Kami

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day 4 of challenge..

Saturday, December 8, 2007 22:05:06

Well, after deleting some of my bloggins last night (which I am still angry about) I realized that I had deleted my days of exercise on the 21 day challenge. However I have worked out each day for about 45 min. yoga, and on the treadmill. Today was no different. I walked 30 min. on the treadmill at 3.5 mph & 2 incline, and I did about 15 min. of weights, situps, and such.

I am feeling good too, but really looking forward to the weekend. I have been right on target with my food, no cheating, and better yet NO URGE TO SNEAK ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think the flicker of light that was blowing in the wind at the end of my tunnel, is getting brighter!!

Hope you all are well, and I will check up on you tonight.

P.S. By the way, those of you who know my situation at work with a certain person is coming to a head, and I do believe she is about to get a BIG WAKE UP CALL, Donald Trump style!

Love ya,

Kami

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