Depressed

I guess the next time that I log in, I will be considerably thinner since I am so depressed and I just can't eat. I need to get depressed more often..LOL. Well, I am due to leave for Puerto Rico on July 5, 2007. My wedding is on July 7, 2007. The final payment on the trip was due 2 weeks ago but I hadn't gotten my new credit card, so it was up to my fiancee to pay it off. He knew that they were going to hit his bank card and what does he do? He spends the money. Ok, a little forgetful and blond so we ow our own company and there are outstanding invoices. Called one of our cronic non bill payers and he gives us his credit card. Declined!!! He promises that he will pay as soon as his night club does its weekly close out on the books. No call back. Other customers have found multiple excuses for avoidance and both of our paychecks pay for the mortgage etc. There is no spare cash to pay for the wedding. I have since gotten my new credit card and guess what. Someone has already put charges on it...How did I find out? I went to charge the trip and I couldn't! It would make me over the limit. So the card is now frozen until investigaion in completed and the funds are hopefully returned. Of course after alot of yelling I am no also waiting for a new card with a new account number. Maybe it will come on time to go with me on the trip but as it stands, we will not even be going. My travel agent is calling and yelling because we are going to loose our deposit and that means no plane tickets or room reservations. I know this sounds childish but I am too embarassed to ask anyone for help. I mean, how do you approach someone and tell them that you need money to help pay for your wedding? That makes us look so irresponsible, like we didn't plan our money well and we did. Ok, I did and the soon to be other half needs a little work. We have come this far and now it might not even happen. I don't know what to do. I am in the bed this morning , sipping tea, crying and letting you guys know how I feel. This is the only thing that I could think of to do. I did get on the scale though... Glad that I am still going down. Haven't been faithful to the phentermine for about 2 weeks and I see the difference. I need that kick to keep the weight coming off. I laid off of the lasix cause I started cramping. So I am definately taking my multivitamins to build up my potassium levels and then I will start back in about a week or two.