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  • Name: Lisa33167
  • City: Washington
  • Region: Arkansas
  • Country: United States

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Height: 170.2cm
Start weight: 299.00lb
Current weight: 189.00lb
Goal weight: 150.00lb
Lost to date: 110.00lb
Remaining: 39.00lb

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What Really irks me...

It may just be a bad day or just one of my faults, but it irks the crap out of me when you share something and someone says "oh it's not THAT bad" you're not as sick as so and so", instead of just answering the question or helping you -giving support.

I had a doctor tell me something like that almost 12 years ago.  I took my older children and left my first husband a few months later found out I was pregnant.  I had to move back to the home we were in before because I got so sick.  I found a great dr at a high risk clinic.  I went to him feeling really horrible, he told me it was just "pregnancy" jitters and I wasnt sick.  

2 weeks later I lay in the hospital dying after going into premature labor at 26 weeks.  I had GBS and a strep infection that had turned septic.  I recovered, but I am now wondering if that isn't the cause of my kidney problems.

I had to get up and go do some cleaning, the more I write the more ticked off I get.  It's bad enough that the medical profession treats patients as $$ and numbers, but when a person who has dealt with an issue or has a family member, starts giving advice like "at this stage I wouldn't even get upset over it", it irks me even more.  I can't say what it's like to go through certain things and I would never think of telling someone something like this. 
 
Each person is vastly different and just because your went through it, doesn't mean I will or won't do that same thing.  There are a million variables and posibilities as to what will happen with anything.
 
10 years ago, I got remarried and almost 2 years later found out I was pregnant, my husband was esctatic but I was scared out of my mind.  One night I started bleeding around my 12th week, so I went to the local ER.  The dr there said it was all in my head and with my history I was just over reacting. 
 
Had I listened to that moron, I would have gone back to work and lost our son.  Luckily I listened to my body and went to a different, larger hospital and they knew immediately what was wrong.  3 or 4 days later, I ended up in a different ER massively bleeding from Placenta Previa.  I was hospitalized 7 or 8 times during my pregnancy and was extremely sick.
 
5 years ago when I started feeling bad, I went to a pompass dr who did nothing but clean his nails while talking to me and told me to "just lose weight and all my problems would go away.  Hearing a dr say that devastated me and made me feel like a heel and even worse about my weight.  Not long after when i was bleeding so much again I kept passing out, I went to my GYN and he scheduled surgery.
 
He diagnosed me with Severe Endometriosis, Adenomyosis, he took out hundreds of polyps, fibroids and cysts.  His first look at the tests the other dr did, he told me what he suspected was wrong and even told me the IVP's and CT I had done said I had a vessel crossing where it shouldn't over my right kidney and the left one didn't show.   I also found out that my pelvis which was separated in an accident in March 1999, was separated more which could cause more problems walking.
 
We haven't had insurance until last month, so I haven't gone to a PCP in at least 2 1/2 years, so I am sure I am in for a round of testing yet again.
 
Also, I had forgotten that in Sept of last year, I got hit in the area that the vessel crossing my right kidney is.   I couldn't pee for 3 freakin days and had problems for awhile after.  My kids got sick and son had pneumonia, then my MiL got sick and went into the hospital and had surgery, so I just dealt with the pain.
 
I'm not going to try and second guess HOW long my kidneys have been going downhill, that's a natural part of aging.  They can't guarantee how long for them to reach stage 4 or 5, and they can't guarantee how long they will stay at Stage 3, no one can - every case progresses differently.
 
I'm going to do everything I can to get healthy and stay healthy for as long as I can.  I am going to look at this in a positive way - my dr put a scare into me (no matter what "stage") that really made me see I need to make lifelong changes.

Chronic Kidney Disease (3)

When the kidneys stop working they can no longer keep the body healthy. This means they can’t remove the wastes or extra fluid from your body. Because the wastes and extra fluid have nowhere to go, they build up and can cause you to feel sick. When the kidneys stop working, this is called kidney failure.

There are two kinds of kidney failure:

Acute Renal Failure usually happens quickly and can be temporary. The kidneys can stop working due to such things as the loss of blood, a severe burn, infections, medications or certain types of poisoning. Dialysis may be needed for a short time while the kidneys heal. With acute renal failure, normal kidney function can return after the kidneys heal from the injury.

Chronic Kidney Disease (CKD) can happen slowly and is usually caused by damage to your kidneys in the form of a disease. End-Stage Renal Disease (ESRD) occurs when the kidneys no longer work. In ESRD, normal kidney function doesn’t return. Therefore, you will need dialysis or a kidney transplant in order to stay alive.

There are many reasons why kidneys fail. Different diseases can cause ESRD. Some kidney diseases are inherited, while others are caused by pre-existing health conditions. Some causes of kidney disease include:

Diabetes is a disease of high blood glucose (sugar) levels. It can cause changes in the structure and function of blood vessels and abnormal metabolism of carbohydrates, fat and protein. Over time, the small vessels of the kidney are affected, causing destruction of the nephrons (the filters of the kidneys).

Hypertension or High Blood Pressure damages the blood vessels in the kidneys and reduces the blood supply to the kidneys. If you control it, you may be able to slow down the kidney damage.

Glomerulonephritis is a swelling of the filters of both kidneys. This is sometimes due to infection. It involves slow, progressive damage. Early diagnosis is difficult because there are no symptoms in the early stages of this disease.

Nephrotic Syndrome is a non-inflammatory disease. It causes amounts of protein to pass from the blood into the urine. As a result of the loss of protein, large amounts of water stay in your body. This results in overall swelling in your body, called edema.

Polycystic Kidney Disease is an inherited disease. With this disease, abnormal sacs, called cysts, develop in the kidneys. These cysts may contain fluid, gas or tissue. As these cysts grow, they block normal kidney function. Cysts may be painful because of the blockages. If you have polycystic kidney disease you still urinate in normal amounts, but the harmful waste products aren’t removed from the body.

Systemic Lupus Erythematosus causes swelling in all organs in the body, including the kidneys.

Chronic Pyleonephritis or Kidney Infection is an inflammation of the tissues of the kidneys, surrounding the filters. Infection and other forms of inflammation can cause kidney failure, if left untreated.

Kidney Stones can form anywhere in the urinary tract. The stones may cause painful or pain-free blockages in the drainage system of the kidney. When this happens, the kidneys can be damaged due to the pressure of urine backup or infections.

What Is The Difference Between Pre-ESRD And ESRD?

Pre-ESRD, or chronic kidney disease (CKD), is the time between the diagnosis of a kidney disease until the time you begin treatment with either dialysis or a transplant. It may be a brief period lasting only a few weeks, or it may be months or even years. During this stage you might visit a kidney doctor (nephrologist). Your nephrologist will monitor your condition. His goal is to treat you in order to help your kidneys work as long as possible. Your nephrologist can give you the best information on how long it may be before you need dialysis or a transplant. Once you begin dialysis, you should see your nephrologist on a monthly basis.

Your doctor may prescribe certain things to help your body adjust to the slowing down of your kidney function.

A Friendly Note: Remember, the pre-ESRD phase is when your kidneys are beginning to shut down. This means certain waste products and fluids may build up in your body.  Don’t worry; your doctor will prescribe medicines, dietary changes and certain blood and urine tests to check your kidneys.

Protein in the urine is called proteinuria. It is often the first sign of kidney disease. Very small amounts of protein in the urine are referred to as microalbumin. If you are a person with diabetes, one of the first signals that you may be experiencing diabetic nephropathy (decreased kidney function) is microalbumin. Consequently, testing urine for the presence of protein should always be a part of a routine medical exam.

A dipstick test (a special strip of paper that’s quickly dipped into a sample of urine to test its chemical makeup) may be done. The dipstick test only becomes positive when the amount of proteins, mainly albumin, reaches two to four times the levels normally found in urine. In people with diabetes, the first sign of kidney problems is an even lower level of proteinuria, called microalbuminuria, that is too low to be detected by a dipstick test. There are also new sensitive dipsticks that detect microalbumin.

In diseases affecting the kidneys’ filters, proteinuria is a sign of some sort of kidney disease. This may be related to the presence of heart disease. If the leakage is heavy, protein lost may be enough to cause a fall in the level of albumin in the blood. This can cause swelling of the ankles or face and an increase in blood cholesterol levels. This condition is called the nephrotic syndrome.

You can do things to slow the progression of CKD. The sooner you change your habits, the better!

Control high blood pressure (hypertension). Even if your doctor has prescribed medication for you, there’s still a lot you can do to lower your blood pressure. Changes in your lifestyle and reducing salt in your diet, along with diet and/or behavior changes can help control high blood pressure. A blood pressure reading of 120/70 is considered normal for an adult.

Keep your blood sugar level in a safe range, especially if you have diabetes. An A1C blood test can tell you and your doctor if your blood sugars have been within a normal range for the past two to three months. A normal range is between 4.5 percent and 6 percent. If your blood sugar is not within this range, talk to your doctor or diabetes educator and find out what you need to do to maintain your blood sugar level. The optimal goal for A1C is less than six, but less than 7.0 is acceptable in advanced CKD to minimize the risk of hypoglycemia while maximizing slowing progression.

Reduce the amount of protein you eat. Your doctor may recommend you meet with a dietitian to restrict the amount of protein in your diet. 

Maintain healthy levels of fats (known as lipids), such as cholesterol and triglycerides, in your blood.

Quit smoking. If you do not smoke, do not start. If you smoke, discuss cessation efforts/techniques with your doctor.

Exercise. Consistent physical activity and/or exercise will have a profound affect on your blood pressure and sugar levels. A few proven benefits include: increased energy, strengthening heart and other muscles, weight control and self esteem. Talk to your doctor before beginning a new exercise routine.

Medications. Take all of your medications as prescribed. Do not skip or leave out doses.

Chronic Kidney Disease (2)

Chronic kidney disease (CKD) is defined as damaged kidneys, or a reduction in kidney function below 60 percent of normal. Kidney disease is sometimes called a “silent” disease, because it often causes no pain or other symptoms.

When the kidney function is poor, creatinine accumulates in the blood and a value greater than 1.5 mg/dl in adult females and 2.0 mg/dl in adult males is very abnormal.

Unfortunately, this test alone is a poor indicator of kidney disease since nearly one-half of kidney function must be lost before a substantial rise of the creatinine level occurs.

A better test is the glomerular filtration rate (GFR), which can be calculated from the blood creatinine test value, the patient’s age, gender and body size.

A low level, less than 90, usually indicates that the kidneys are not functioning normally. Patients at risk for CKD should request that this test be determined by their physician.

There is no level of kidney function or glomerular filtration rate (GFR) at which all patients with CKD can be expected to develop symptoms of kidney failure.

Patients with additional complications, such as anemia, diabetes or heart disease, may be expected to develop symptoms at higher GFR levels than patients without these other conditions.

Patients with chronic kidney disease (CKD) should be aware of signs and symptoms that their kidney function may be deteriorating, which may warrant further evaluation and treatment by their nephrologist.

Nonetheless, CKD causes many chemical changes in the body, and may affect many parts of the body. As kidney function falls, symptoms appear and sometimes worsen, eventually leading to the need for a kidney transplant or dialysis.

Problems that arise as kidney disease progresses include:

High Blood Pressure (Hypertension): High blood pressure is present in more than 70 percent of people whose kidney function falls below 60 percent of normal. It can cause faster loss of kidney function.

Hypertension can also cause heart and blood vessel disease, including enlargement of the heart, congestive heart failure, heart attacks and strokes. Most people with high blood pressure have no symptoms of this dangerous disorder. When blood pressure is severely elevated, headaches, dizziness, confusion, double or blurred vision and even seizures and unconsciousness can result.

All patients with CKD should work with their doctors to monitor blood pressure results frequently, and follow diet and medication advice to maintain blood pressure at less than 130/85. Many powerful blood pressure medicines are now available to lower blood pressure and at the same time help preserve kidney function.

Low Red Blood Cells (Anemia): Kidneys make a hormone called erythropoietin (EPO), that travels in the blood stream to the bone marrow, and increases production of red blood cells.

When CKD damages the kidneys, this hormone secretion is reduced, and normal red blood cell production reduces. This results in a low red blood cell count or anemia. Anemia is sometimes associated with reduced iron in the body.

In general, the worse the kidney disease, the worse the anemia becomes. Low blood counts are associated with higher rates of hospitalizations, heart and blood vessel disease and impaired thinking processes. Several studies have shown that anemia is associated with higher chances of death.

Anemia can cause a pale complexion, weakness, reduced exercise ability and a general feeling of poor well-being. Some patients say, “I feel cold all the time.” Anemia can also cause thickening of the heart muscle, and lead to congestive heart failure (CHF).

Patients with CKD and anemia need frequent measures of their blood hemoglobin, a measure of the red blood cell mass. Treatment with injections of EPO, and with oral or intravenous iron, can correct the anemia and improve many if not all of these symptoms and complications. Patients with CKD should work with their doctors to follow and treat anemia.

Heart and Blood Vessel (Cardiovascular) Disease: CKD increases the chance for heart disease, stroke and narrowing of blood vessels in the legs. Patients with CKD have a higher chance to develop chest pain (angina) and heart attacks.

In addition, CKD patients have a higher incidence of heart muscle thickening, leading to congestive heart failure (CHF). Symptoms of CHF include shortness of breath, particularly with exercise or when lying down. Swelling of the feet or ankles (edema) may develop.

Strokes are more common in CKD, the result of narrowing of arteries to the brain. Recent studies also show that postmenopausal women with CKD and heart disease also are at higher risk for artery narrowing to the legs, called peripheral arterial disease. This complication can cause pain, inability to walk and tissue breakdown.

Abnormalities of lipid metabolism (cholesterol and triglyceride) are common in CKD, and may add to the risk of heart and blood vessel disease.

In addition, smoking adds to this risk, and may speed the decline of kidney failure in patients with diabetes, high blood pressure and other kidney diseases. Patients need to find effective ways to stop smoking. They should work with their doctors to reduce the level of cholesterol with diet and medications.     

Nutrition: Poor intake of protein and calories during the course of CKD is common in many patients, particularly as the level of kidney function drops below 60 percent of normal.

This leads to malnutrition, and is associated with poor outcomes. Patients experience a decrease in appetite, lower protein levels in the blood, weight loss and reduction in body fat and muscle.

It is recommended that the nutritional status of CKD patients be monitored every six to 12 months when the kidney function is less than 60 percent of normal, and every one to three months when function falls to less than 30 percent of normal. Patients with CKD and malnutrition should get nutritional counseling, and receive dietary modification, education or specialized nutrition therapy.

Many CKD patients have protein loss in the urine, which can lead to low body protein.

In addition to making the malnutrition worse, this protein loss can lead to swelling of the feet, ankles or the whole body (edema). Medications, such as angiotensin converting enzyme (ACE) inhibitors, can sometimes reduce the level of protein excretion and improve the kidney’s function.

Bone Disease and Calcium: Bone disorders are common in patients with CKD. In some patients, an increased level of phosphorus in the blood reduces vitamin D production in the body, which reduces the intestine’s absorption of calcium from food.

The combination of low calcium absorption and high phosphorus can cause the growth of the tiny parathyroid glands in the neck, causing high levels of the hormone they produce (parathyroid hormone, or PTH). PTH stimulates increased cell turnover in the bones, causing abnormal bone structure, decreased bone strength and increased risk of fracture.

Other patients develop low turnover bone disease, with reduced ability of the bones to reshape. Some patients with this disorder have pain in their bones. Patients and their doctors should work together to measure calcium, phosphorus and PTH in the blood, and to assess bone structure with X-ray tests or a bone density test.

Medicines to reduce phosphorus levels and several forms of vitamin D have helped treat this bone disease. Newer medicines are being tested that may help improve this condition.

Diseases of the Nervous System (Neuropathy): Neuropathy is a common complication of CKD. The brain is sometimes affected (encephalopathy), resulting in fatigue, impaired memory, confusion, disorientation or poor thinking processes.

Severe kidney failure can cause hallucinations, delirium, convulsions and coma. Sleep disorders are common, causing restlessness, frequent awakening and fatigue.

The nerves of the arms, hands, legs and feet can be affected, causing decreased sensation, itching, burning, muscle irritability, cramps or weakness.

Neuropathy effects on the autonomic nerves can cause abnormal responses of the pulse and blood pressure. When patients experience symptoms of neuropathy, specialized laboratory tests should be performed.

Functioning and Well-Being: CKD can affect the ability to function normally or the sense of one’s well-being.

CKD is associated with increasing symptoms such as tiring easily, low energy, weakness, cramps, bad taste in the mouth, poor odor perception and hiccups.

These symptoms, along with the effects of CKD on the heart, bones, blood vessels and nervous system, reduce well-being and the ability to function well.

Chronic Kidney Disease (1)

One in nine adult Americans has chronic kidney disease (CKD).  However, many don’t realize they have reduced kidney function.

CKD means decreased function of the kidneys. Over time, the condition may progress and your kidneys may fail.

One common misconception about CKD is that it’s something you don’t have to worry about right now. Your kidneys are functioning and everything is fine, so that means kidney failure won’t happen to you.

This is a false hope that causes many people not to maintain their health and therefore increases the damage to their kidneys.

There are things you can do to maintain or improve your health, and there are things you can do to protect your kidneys from further deterioration.

CKD doesn’t go away. This isn’t something you can watch for awhile and then suddenly everything becomes "normal" again and you never have to worry about CKD. CKD means you’re at greater risk for kidney failure. If you do nothing, chances are your kidneys will fail.

Will I know if I start to have kidney problems?

Not necessarily. The early signs of CKD can be subtle and therefore many people do not realize they have symptoms of the condition.

The symptoms can include high blood pressure, blood in the urine and swelling in the legs, feet or hands. The only way to know for sure if you’re starting to have kidney problems is a simple test which detects protein in the urine. Do not wait for signs of kidney damage to have your urine tested.

There are several conditions and diseases that can eventually lead to CKD. Two of the most common conditions are diabetes and hypertension (high blood pressure).

Diabetes is the single leading cause of kidney failure in the United States, accounting for about 44 percent of the people who start treatment for kidney failure each year, and about 38 percent of all Americans being treated for kidney failure.

Twenty-six point five percent have high blood pressure as causes of kidney disease. The remaining 29.8 percent lost kidney function due to another condition. Because diabetes and hypertension are two of the main causes of kidney failure, these conditions are explained in further detail in the next section. Most people with kidney disease have hypertension.

A Friendly Note: If you have one of the below mentioned conditions it doesn’t mean you WILL develop kidney failure, however, it does mean you’re at greater risk and it’s in your best interest to understand your condition and do what’s necessary to maintain your health.

You’re also at greater risk if you are African American and/or have a first degree relative (mother, father or sibling) with kidney disease.

Diabetes - Diabetes is a disease of high blood glucose (sugar) levels caused by either a reduction or lack of insulin or resistance to it in the body. High glucose can disrupt the structure and function of blood vessels. Most people with type 2 diabetes do not have a reduction in insulin but the body does not react to insulin in a normal fashion. This is often associated with obesity and occurs after the age of 30. People with diabetes have an insulin deficiency, which results in abnormal metabolism of carbohydrates, fat and protein. Over time, the small vessels of the kidneys are affected, causing destruction of the filters of the kidneys.

Diabetes has become the most common single cause of end-stage renal disease or kidney failure in the United States and Europe. People with diabetes constitute over half of those currently starting dialysis.

Hypertension (high blood pressure) - High blood pressure damages the blood vessels in the kidneys and reduces the blood supply to the kidneys. If you control it, you may be able to slow down the kidney damage.

Glomerulonephritis - Glomerulonephritis is an inflammation of the filters of both the kidneys. This is sometimes due to infection. It results in slow, progressive damage. Early diagnosis is difficult because there are minimal symptoms in the early stages of this disease.

Nephrotic Syndrome - Nephrotic syndrome occurs when excess amounts of protein pass from the blood into the urine. Nephrotic syndrome results from massive losses of protein, large amounts of water stay in your body. This causes overall swelling in your body, called edema.

Polycystic Kidney Disease - Polycystic kidney disease (PKD) is an inherited disease in which abnormal sacs, called cysts, develop in the kidneys. These cysts usually contain fluid, gas or tissue. As these cysts grow, they block normal kidney function. Cysts may be painful because of the blockages. Cysts can get infected and can bleed. If you have polycystic kidney disease, you’ll still urinate in normal amounts, but the harmful waste products are not removed from the body.

Systemic Lupus Erythematosus - Lupus causes inflammation in all organs in the body, including the kidneys.

Chronic Pyleonephritis or Kidney Infection - Kidney infection is an inflammation of the tissues of the kidneys surrounding the filters. Infection and other forms of inflammation, if left untreated, can cause kidney failure. There is no evidence that kidney infections alone (i.e. without structural abnormalities like obstruction or scarring) can cause kidney failure.

Kidney Stones - Kidney stones can form anywhere in the urinary tract. The stones may cause painful or pain-free blockages in the drainage system of the kidney. When this happens, the kidneys can be damaged due to the pressure of urine backup or infections.

Prostate Obstruction - As men age, the prostate can grow, blocking normal urine drainage.

Family Connection - If you have a family member who’s on dialysis or who’s had a kidney transplant, you may be at an increased risk of developing kidney disease.

Exercise (interval training)

Hopefully I can keep up with this and modify my plan as needed.  I started out too fast and ended up with terrible shin splints, so it's back to the beginning.

I burned 195 calories and total mileage was 1.35 mi 32:00 minutes total

5:00 warm up @ 2.3 mph

:30 Jogging @ 3.8 mph     3:00 walking @ 2.5 mph     alternate these two

5:00 cool down @ 2.3 mph

My goal for the month is to add .2  jogging speed and add 15 sec time length per week to where I can run/walk alternating 1 min each

      0 - 5:00 Min Warmup Walk 2.3 mph
 5:00 - 5:30 Jog 3.8 mph
 5:30 - 8:30 Walk 2.5 mph
 8:30 - 9:00 Jog 3.8 mph
 9:00 - 12:00 Walk 2.5 mph
12:00 - 12:30 Jog 3.8 mph
13:00 - 16:00 Walk 2.5 mph
16:00 - 16:30 Jog 3.8 mph
16:30 - 19:30 Walk 2.5 mph
19:30 - 20:00 Jog 3.8 mph
20:00 - 23:00 Walk 2.5 mph
23:00 - 23:30 Jog 3.8 mph
23:30 - 26:30 Walk 2.5 mph
26:30 - 27:00 Jog 3.8 mph
27:00 - 32:00 Cool down 2.3 mph

Guilt

I started exercising again and finally starting to tell some results and my clothes fitting looser. 

I'm starting to feel better; but holidays are always hard for me with feelings of guilt of my mother dying at this time.  After 16 years, I would think I would get over these feelings of guilt of letting her die alone, but I haven't.  One day I'll find a way to forgive myself and move on.

Physically I feel ALOT better and not as depressed on a daily basis - so maybe between Phen & exercise plus eating better will help in the long run.

Can stress cause a nervous breakdown?

I can't even begin to describe 2008 and the stress I've been under.  My oldest son shipped out in March for the Air Force, and I took that a bit harder than I thought I would.  Then my oldest daughter decided to move out also, and not move with us.  Even though I have two younger childern I felt an empty nest syndrome :confused: hormones maybe?

We were in the process of selling our house and moved into a home and it had mold started seeping in the master bath ceiling after a week or so.  The inspector said they just painted the ceiling over the mold.
 
It took us 3 long grueling months with the help of an attorney to break our lease and move - we were out $3,000 though.  Which was a huge financial hit with the economy and housing market the way it is.  It was take a $3,000 hit or pay the attorney $6,000 more and it go through court for possibly years and live that condition ICK!
 
We got a shocker; we only had 7 days yes seven days to pack 11 years worth of stuff that took us almost 4 months before to pack and get out !  Our movers backed out at the last minute and we had to rent a truck and move ourselves; my oldest daughter and in laws helped us and we got moved the last day.
 
My f-i-l is 76 and had a heart attack the week after and had to have a defribrilator (sp?) pacemaker put in, which made us feel guilty as heck.  The home we found is beautiful though, and was worth the pain of having to move two times in a short period.
 
I really thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown.  So much stress and then the really stressful part started.  My baby girl started school this year, and we just switched our youngest son school's.  We found what we thought was a great teacher for Autistic children.  She was a great teacher, just had personal problems with the principal and staff and made it all the parents problems also.
 
About 3 or 4 weeks into school, I found out my son was lost during a scuffle at PE. I panicked inside and tried to hold everything in.  Anyone who knows anything about Autism can understand the feelings I had.  I have spent every waking and sleeping half eyed ;) just to keep him safe and find out that there wasn't enough staff out for the amount of children.
 
Then I find out the <insert every cussword bad name here> principal told the teachers involved to lie to me so I wouldn't complain or file charges against her.  The idiot didn't lock down the school or call an alert or anything.  The school is near a major intersection and all gates were closed but one - which she said he couldn't get out of rotflmao - I told the school board she needed to take some classes on special needs children; obviously she didn't know his IQ.   Just because he can't commuicate doesn't mean he doesn't know anything.
 
Oh my listen to me rambling! Sorry but this is just too unbelieveable to even comprehend how she got to her position in a school that caters to Autistic children and making $100,000+ yearly and doesn't have a bit of common sense or morals.  Luckily the teacher told the substitite aide to tell me about my son getting lost, the principal never told her not to tell me ROTFL
 
What happened to my son is - he was scared of the loud noises and ran across the campus to the media center to read.  There was no one in there and it wasn't open yet, so they don't know how he figured out how to go in.  The media specialist found out going out the door out on to the grass to sit and read.  They don't know how long he was there or how long he was missing, I'm just glad he loves books so much and went there.
 
I got all the facts from each person involved and made sure they knew I was going to make a report and used their names.  I talked to the principal and she lied to my face, and I made sure I put that in the report.  I went to the Dept of Education and Governor's office and wrote everyone I could so they knew what was going on.  There was alot more involved including humilation from a teacher because my son couldn't tell him who he was - which made him have an accident in the media center and the principal covered up.  She now has a permanent mark on her record and the teacher is gone; the whole program is redone and different staff brought in.
 
We kept in the school because they made a safety plan and we got a bracelet from the Sheriff's department that has a Lo-Jack locator system in it.  The next month, he ran away from the teacher, aide & behavioral specialist daily.  After I got hit by the student in his class that was causing the problems, I took him out of the school.
 
It took a couple of weeks and looking at different schools, but we finally found one that is within a mile of our home.  He has been there a few months now and not tried to run out of the class or away from anyone at all.  This is a different class and doesn't have the problems his other class did, so I think he is adjusting to it better.
 
My mother in law, told us at the end of Oct they found a tumor and the dr told her it was cancerous.  She gallbladder surgery last night and the doctor didn't tell my husband or f-i-l anything yet.  Not even what they removed or what he found, omg it's so frustrating waiting and not knowing.
 
I know it will take a few days for them to do the biopsy on her gallbladder, but waiting is stressing me out even further.  I worked out so hard yesterday I'm sore today, but it's a good feeling.
 

I did it

I almost forgot! I really did it...I cut all my hair off (15 inches) and had it highlighted blonde! even my own children didn't recognize me...rotfl. 

I donated the hair to Locks of Love and sometimes have to look twice to see if I'm the same person.

When I get back to my weight I lost to before, I'm going to do pictures; but not before then.  it's strange, I had to change everything in my makeup case with the color change.

Info for me

3/31/06    Low Carb/High Protein Diet
8/1/2006 started Phentermine for the first time
4/27/07  Started PcP's new plan
9/27/2007 took a break from Phen
12/12/2207 Started Phen/Pro
3/5/2008 went off Phen
12/1/2008 Started Phen/Fiber & Vitamin B-shots (new PCP)

What will 2009 hold?

Instead of buying larger clothes, I cried, called myself every deragatory name I could, had a pity party and pulled myself back up by the bootstraps again like I always do.  I keep wondering how much more stress I can handle; and our kids being sick with things they bring home from school only makes it worse.

I found a doctor here in town that is reasonable and I can justify the cost of going to him by saying it will cut down the cost of food I'm eating.  I'm in such a state I even broke down the $$ for each pill and outweighed that cost over the cost of food.  ROTFL I'm so anal about some stuff,  my husband laughed and said all you had to say is you wanted to go and it would make you feel better.  He is so damned frustrating at times and irks me to no end but then turns around and says something like this.

This new doctor is an older man who has struggled with obesity and has treated obesity for 40+ years.  He seems to really understand what we're going through and listens if you have a problem.  He said we're on a trial basis and have to find what works best for each patient and will keep the weight off, not just who loses the most the quickest.
 
He put me on 1000 - 1100 calories with portion control and a well balanced diet along with exercise being the key.  He also prescribed a fiber capsule twice daily and Vitamin B shots and gave me a book from www.calorieking.com  it says Protein, Fat & carbs are important but calories are the KING LOL which is true.
 
Portion control, water and exercise that's the key.  Who knows what the new year of 2009 will bring?  I am feeling better because I took control again of my life and I am getting my stress under control.

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