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     So, i'm still sick but getting better.  I haven't been to the gym yet.  I don't feel good enough yet.  My chest is whats really been nagging me.  But I'll survive.  I am weigh 246.  I am actually happy about it.  I am glad I haven't gained any.  I really want this to be the time when I can lose it and keep it off.  I have been feeling really good emotionaly.  I went shopping.  Even though I still where the same size in clothes, it is still nice to get something new.  Besides, shopping makes every girl happier right.  :)  So anyway I am going to try to make it to the gym tomorrow morning.  Even if I can't do my regular workout I will at least walk on the treadmill.  Something is better than nothing.

     My husband is training to be a truck driver and has been gone for a little over a month.  I think I am okay with it.  It hasen't really been hard without him, but there are days that I wish he were here.  I talk to him everyday on the phone.  What is wierd is that we don't really have much to talk about.  It seems like everything is normal.  Like the way it was before he left.  That worries me a little.  This is really part of the reason that I want to lose the weight.  I think we have lost some of the spark that we used to have.  I think it is probably more me then him.  I don't feel good about myself, and I think it shows in our relationship. 

     On a lighter note, I have started a new semester is college.  I am taking child development, psychology, and real estate.  As you can see I am not sur where I want to go yet.  I like all of these subjects.  Especially child development and psychology.  I am hoping that these classes will not only help me descide what I want for my career, but also help me as a parent, wife, daughter, and sister. 

     My relationship with my mom and sister is a little strained.  My mom lives with my husband, myself and our children.  We are really alot alike.  I think that is the problem.  But my mom really likes to create drama and to be in control of other peoples (my sister, and my) relationships.  My sister is the complete opposite of me.  She has so much going on.  She is very self serving.  I guess I try to distance myself from her and her issues because I don't need anyone else's problems.  My mom loves to be in the thick of it.  This poses a problem because she lives with me and brings all my sisters problems into our home.  I have been reading the book the Secret, and am really tyring to be positive.  So I really want to stay away from all of that negative stuff.

     So now that I have unloaded I feel much better.  Maybe I won't wait so long to unload again.  Thanks for listening.  Happy Monday!