I have done this a million times and failed but this one is different. I don't know why I think it's different, it just is. Maybe it's that Wii fit telling me I'm obese and blowing up my little Mii like a balloon. Maybe it was my kids laughing at how fat I was on the screen. I didn't even know they knew what fat was. I try to never use that word just like I never say diet. I always tell them I am trying to be healthier.
So far so good for the year. As soon as I get those Hershey kisses off my desk, it will be even better. I guess I am weaning my way off the sweets. I am back at the gym and doing well. I have started the "Couch to 5K" program so that I can run a 5K in 9 weeks. One week down and 8 to go. Tomorrow I will be attempting a Zumba class at the gym. It looks like fun and hopefully I won't make a complete fool of myself being that I have NO rhythm. Only time will tell.
Tomorrow is another day where I WILL stay on track and make my way to a new and better me. I am so sick of being fat. Sick of hating to get dressed. Sick of hiding myself from everyone including my husband. It is the year of Michele! I NEED to make the time for me instead of the excuses.
It's been a rough couple of days and I put back a couple pounds but they are coming back off. AF was here and just magnified everything around me. I was a raving, eating lunatic for a few days there but I think I am getting back to normal.
I have a goal of 180 by June 1st. It seems very attainable. I really hope I can reach and surpass it. Then the next goal is for October. Don't I wish I could just snap my fingers and be thin.
I am a failure once again. I don't know what the heck happened over the weekend but I gained 2.2 lbs. Hopefully it is just a lack of water yesterday. I know I have been emotionally eating. I really need to start using the tapping technique to avoid that. This week will be better! I am really in a bad mood and that doesn't help at all. I need to do something to pull me out of this funk.
Last night after dinner I finally got the motivation to get up on the treadmill. My motivation was pretty much looking at the dinner table and knowing if I got on the treadmill DH would clean up the mess. I did a 5 minute warm up and a 30 minute walk and a 5 minute cool down. I use my ipod while walking and have to walk to the beat so there were points I was actually running to keep up. By the time I was done I was sweating and feeling great!
Hopefully I can continue and get on a regular schedule. If it stays nice today and someone is home for the kids I may try and get an outside walk in. And I really need to start working on those abs of mine. I like donuts but not around my middle.
Weight stayed the same from yesterday but that's ok. I had a very fattening dinner so the same is good.
Who'da thunk it! The Paul McKenna method is really working for me. So far I am down 8.8 lbs in the 3 weeks I've been following it. The first week was fast and then it slowed down but it's OK. I'm losing and I have a goal and I really want to reach it. I have been eating considerably less than before and am finally getting that "full" feeling. Of course if I drink diet soda with my meal I don't know if it's full or gas. I am still drinking alot of water so I know that helps. Hopefully soon I will get the motivation to get up and move. I have been noticing that I have a spare tire around my belly that wasn't there before. You would think after 3 kids I would expect it but it took me by surprise. I think my fat is settling there. I have also cut back to one cup of coffee a day. I start on my water right after that.
So far I am really impressed that this is working. I haven't done any bingeing and that makes me feel good. Maybe I finally found the one that is right for me.
So I followed Paul McKenna's advice last week and lost 5.8 lbs and that includes overeating on Easter. So far I am impressed. Last night I watched the show about the emotional eating. The tapping looks silly but I will try it if it works. I really hope to go walking today. We are having doinner at MIL's so maybe I can get DH to bring me some walking clothes and I can walk home form there. At least it's a mile walk.
If this is the way it works, I've been killing myself all these years with every diet under the sun.
I am sure a lot of people watched this show the other night. I was flipping and saw parts so then thanks to the innovation of DVR I was able to search for additional showings, record and watch the whole thing at my leisure.
I tried this out yesterday and found that I certainly ate less food than usual and enjoyed what I ate. I do question myself on the "Am I full?" part but decide if I even think I might be, I'll stop. I can always come back and eat more later. DH is very excited about the prospect of cooking normally again instead of no salt added and no this and no that. He is sure this is the one for me! I have high hopes that he may be right and can;t wait for next weeks show to see what's next. I know I could watch it online right now but I want to give step one a full week before diving into the next step.
I am still obsessing over food a bit but hope that will get better with time. Here's to a new wagon! Hopefully this one has seat belts so I won't fall off.
Another one of those up weekends unfortunately. I had the opportunity to try and be a little good but of course I did not. I was terrible. I managed to gain 3 lbs over the weekend and didn't even have any desserts. Go figure. I really need to buckle down and get with the program. I will be great at it once I am "living lean" but I have a long way to go before I get there. I was hoping the weather would stay nice so I could walk outside but that isn't going to happen. DD's birthday party is this weekend and I have to prepare for that. Only one person has responded so far but I'm sure they will start calling soon. I wouldn't want her to be dissapointed at the turnout. It certainly wasn't an issue last year when nearly everyone came. I need to figure out what I am going to do about party favors. I really don't want to just give a bag of junk. I'd rather give them each something decent that won't land in the trash or in their bellies.
My friend asked me to join a new gym with her but it is just sooooo expensive. I can't justify $54 a month. It's insane. I wish they had gyms you could go for free. Today I will get on my treadmill and get back into the swing of things.
Over the weekend my whole family and I went to visit my sister in Massachusets. My BIL has rock band and it is so much fun. We are going to get it for home. The kids loved playing the drums. I did better with the bass. I want to try the singing but only if no one is around. LOL
I really need to get on the ball at getting my grandmothers estate squared away. I could use the money I am getting but it is so much work. I need to get the tax return filed so I can collect up all the assets and start distribution. Why me? Lucky me being the responsible one. The others just get to sit around and wait for their share. The executor fee better be worth it. It's still hard to believe she is gone.
Just had my morning snack and am well on my way to a perfect day. Let's keep it that way!
YEAH!!! I've seen a 1 as the first number of my weight. It's been a few months since I can say that. I am on a roll and feeling great. I have been on the treadmill for the last 3 days and eating well. I guess it's true what they say about the 3's being the worst because yesterday (day 3) was pretty tough. I was really wanting to eat something bad but I didn't and now I am proud. Hopefully I can make it through to week 3 and then month 3 and then year 3!!
I don't know that I can hit the treadmill tonight because of parent/teacher conferences and then a wake I have to go to. We'll have to wait and see how motivated I am tongiht. I am afraid not to because if I get out of the swing of it I may never go back. I just know me and that is how I work.
Tomorrow night is probably dinner out with the inlaws for MIL's birthday. Hopefully they pick somewhere that I can be good. Sunday I will be sitting home by myself (after the kids go to bed) watching the superbowl. Exciting for me. DH will be at his annual S.B. party and that is just fine with me.
So, I lost 3 pounds last week and I found 4 over the weekend. But here it is Wednesday and those 4 are gone again. I am feeling good. I have been on the treadmill 2 nights in a row and am eating perfectly. Maybe my mindset has changed but I have decided to try and avoid situations where I would typically "cheat". MIL served dinner the other night and since the only thing there that was on plan was turkey, I stayed home and walked while DH and the kids ate there. DH brought me back turkey and I had quite the enjoyable dinner at home when they returned. I think I have finally gotten to the point that dropping the weight is the most important thing to me. I want to drop 40 pounds by the time I go to Vegas in July and another 10-20 before the cruise in October. Hopefully I finally have myself on track to get this done.
I did a 5 minute warm up and a 30 minute walk and a 5 minute cool down. I use my ipod while walking and have to walk to the beat so there were points I was actually running to keep up. By the time I was done I was sweating and feeling great!
I am still drinking alot of water so I know that helps. Hopefully soon I will get the motivation to get up and move. I have been noticing that I have a spare tire around my belly that wasn't there before. You would think after 3 kids I would expect it but it took me by surprise. I think my fat is settling there. I have also cut back to one cup of coffee a day. I start on my water right after that.