It's About Committment
So I have been really praying and thinking about my situation. I have been searching my heart about why I have such a lack of motivation. The answer is that my life is almost perfect. I get to be a stay at home parent and raise 2 wonderful children without a need or want. How many women can say that nowadays? I have a sexy husband who loves me no matter what and still thinks I am the "bombdiggy."
Since having my daughter and still breastfeeding it continually keeps me on the couch and/or lying down in bed. It takes a lot out of me, but also produces a ugly laziness that I have never experienced before. My adversary the "devil" continues to whisper sweet "nothings" in my eye and tell me that I will never be thin again and I will not acheive my 20 pd weight loss. I know he is a liar because I was thin before I had my first child, I was thin after I gave birth to my first child and I was thin before I got pregnant with my 2nd. So why should anything be different now? It shouldn't which is why I really need to get prayed up and ask God to help change me from the inside out.
So the root of the problem is in "my mind." This is where the battlefield is just Joyce Meyers preaches about. I want to win the battle AND the war. It has already been won due to Jesus dieing and resurrecting.
Tomorrow is a new day! May I decrease so that He may increase.
Here is the schedule I am committing too starting tomorrow until 1 Jan 09.
Sun: 1 hr treadmill (jog) and 25 mins core secrets
Mon: Cardio Blast and Conditioning Class (5-6am)
Tue: Cardio Circuit (5:15-6:15)
Wed: 1 hr treadmill (jog) and 25 mins core secrets
Thurs: Strength Fit (5:15-6:15)
Fri: 1 hr treadmill (jog) and 25 mins core secrets
Sat: Rest
Alternatives: Foster's Gym (Mon/Wed) Pilate from 7-8pm
Tue/Thurs: Step from 7:15-8:15pm
Change is hard work. I HAVE TO do the work so I can get back to living my life. Being this negative about myself is like being trapped with no way out, but I just can't live life like that. It is too destructive and I need to take care of myself so I can teach my children how to take care of themselves for life.
Please keep me lifted up in prayer