Revelation

What a gorgeous day here on Okinawa! This afternoon we took the kids to Bryson's favorite park off base called, "Sunabe Baba." The park is adjacent from the East China Sea. To my surprise we arrived and not only was the park packed, but the ocean was packed with surfers riding the waves. What a blessed opportunity I had to spend a little quality time with Shymaya in the jogging stroller walking along the Sunabe Wall with the waves crashing in while my boyz were off frockling.

Okinawans are a parculiar people and so different from the Japanese on the mainland. Their days seem lazy and free! No matter where Shymaya and I went she drew attention from everyone. The little kids wanted to touch her and the older Okinawan women wanted to hold her. Did I let them? Of course I did. 

All this walking around and for the first time EVER I nursed Shymaya in public discreetly without a nursing shaw. (I forgot and left it back at the car) I never nursed Bryson without the shaw so I was very nerous with Shymaya. I know breastfeeding and changing diapers in public places is very frown upon, but oh well. Soooo, I got to nurse my precious baby while watching a magnificatn sunset (which I DID get pictures of).

As strange as this may seem for a place of SUCH isolation it is also a great place of freedom. Freedom in such a way that weight is beginning to peel off my body and as I begin to feel more like myself again. God is really the one who get the credit. Everything IS possible with Christ and it is up to me to place one foot forward and put it into action.

My weight loss progress is slow, but most importantly it is healthy and I feel fabulous. Perhaps hearing the waves crash upon the shore gets me into this kind of mood. :-) No wonder why I loved getting married in Hawaii.

More to come

Holy Cow

It has been too long since I last blogged. I was feeling pretty down, but got back on the band wagon. I have lost 2 more pds and have been working out faithfully. I hooked up with a friend and started back doing Air Force PT sessions. Did I mention that those sessions are very painful?!?!? Through being here on the island and once again in isolation I am learning so much about myself. Now with 2 kids and wondering if and when we will have our last child. Parenthood is the most rewarding and frustrating career one can have but the benefits are endless. For example, Bryson sticking a raisin up his nose and Dad having to take him over a neighbors house to borrow their tweezers to get it out (haahahah!!) Now Shymaya's GERD has subsided since making some small, but very significant lifestyle changes.Now I am getting more sleep and feeling like myself (praise God!)

Did I tell you that the weather is becoming a tad bit cooler now and the evening are gorgeous for walking or taking the kids to the park? It has been absolutely gorgeous here! The sunsets are just amazing! I can see a smaller version of me is just beyond the horizon so I am going to continue to pray and work at it. I deserve to be thin, fit and heathly! I want to live to see my great grandbabies so I can chase them around or spank them if neccessary (hahah!!!)

HALT!

Halt! Stop! Do not pass go-do not collect $200. You heard it right. I have not started yet. It is amazing because Brandon is in this same funk as I am. I know if I kick it into high gear he would climb right on board. I am just tired and feeling burnt out as a parent. I am need of a long non-smokers break from my life as a wife and mama. Do I feel guilty about that? No! I wholeheartedly believed that this assignment was going to be a 3 year vacation, but raising these precious babies is hard work of a different kind. My kids + husband pull me every which way. I know if I cast my burden upon the Lord that He will renew my strength in Him. Am I going into an early mid-life or self-identity crisis.

I know the only way to get the rest of the weight off is to run it off since my eating habits are awesome right now. We have a fish market which sells all the fresh catches of the day. It is a blessing to have fresh seafood daily for cheap if I want. We have cut down on meat to focus on chicken and fish. I do see that I am starting to slowly lose weight just by changing my eating, but know I need to blast it off my body.

It's About Committment

So I have been really praying and thinking about my situation. I have been searching my heart about why I have such a lack of motivation. The answer is that my life is almost perfect. I get to be a stay at home parent and raise 2 wonderful children without a need or want. How many women can say that nowadays?  I have a sexy husband who loves me no matter what and still thinks I am the "bombdiggy."

Since having my daughter and still breastfeeding it continually keeps me on the couch and/or lying down in bed. It takes a lot out of me, but also produces a ugly laziness that I have never experienced before. My adversary the "devil" continues to whisper sweet "nothings" in my eye and tell me that I will never be thin again and I will not acheive my 20 pd weight loss. I know he is a liar because I was thin before I had my first child, I was thin after I gave birth to my first child and I was thin before I got pregnant with my 2nd. So why should anything be different now? It shouldn't which is why I really need to get prayed up and ask God to help change me from the inside out.

So the root of the problem is in "my mind." This is where the battlefield is just Joyce Meyers preaches about. I want to win the battle AND the war. It has already been won due to Jesus dieing and resurrecting.

Tomorrow is a new day! May I decrease so that He may increase.

Here is the schedule I am committing too starting tomorrow until 1 Jan 09.

Sun:  1 hr treadmill (jog) and 25 mins core secrets

Mon: Cardio Blast and Conditioning Class (5-6am)

Tue: Cardio Circuit (5:15-6:15)

Wed: 1 hr treadmill (jog) and 25 mins core secrets

Thurs: Strength Fit (5:15-6:15)

Fri: 1 hr treadmill (jog) and 25 mins core secrets

Sat: Rest

Alternatives: Foster's Gym (Mon/Wed) Pilate from 7-8pm

Tue/Thurs: Step from 7:15-8:15pm

Change is hard work. I HAVE TO do the work so I can get back to living my life. Being this negative about myself is like being trapped with no way out, but I just can't live life like that. It is too destructive and I need to take care of myself so I can teach my children how to take care of themselves for life.

Please keep me lifted up in prayer

Here We Go Again

Okay. Over 1 year later and 1 baby later. I am now post pregnancy going on the 3rd month with baby Maya. I weigh 163pds. I feel it and it shows. To carry around 15-20 pds is truly a burden on my body. Maya's nap schedule are becoming more regular and predictable. I am doing my best to help her along the way. I vowed that once Bryson starts his 3rd full week of school that I would begin working out. In the meantime I have already changed my eating habits look/feel better for it. I promised the Lord and came to the conclusion after my mom passed away that health and fitness MUST be a priority. I want to live to see ALL my grandchildren and want to be an example of how to celebrate life living as a Christian. Through Christ ALL things are possible! I figure if I blog and share this with a few friends that it will help keep me accountable.

Start Weight: 163

Goal Weight: 140-145

Waist Goal: 29-30

Keep me in your prayers!

A Rough Time

It has been a rough couple of days. I have not worked out at the gym in 10 days due to being so tired. I keep thinking in my mind how to continue to be positive, but it is still tough. I am finding out that at night that I really having a lot of the wrong cravings.  I have been praying and praying asking the Lord to help me through this time. I received the body makeover in the mail and I am hoping over the course the next 6 weeks that my body will change through constant healthy eating habits. May God get the glory for all that I am going through!!!!

Let's Get It Started

This is my first post on the website and I am excited about the change that is coming in my life. I know through the grace of God, hardwork and committment that I can achieve my goal weight of 130pd.