Did I Jinx myself?
Did I Jinx myself?
Today it's a rainey cold day. I got a call from my step mother last night that my uncle is in the hospital. He had a bad heart attack, stopped breathing for about 10 mins and was in the hospital. From what the dr's are saying it doesn't look good. This is my dad's little brother. My dad has about 15, yes 15 brothers and sisters. Uncle Robin is the youngest out of all of them. My father is the second youngest. Out of all those brothers and sisters uncle Robin is the only one we keep in touch with, and the only one who lives in our state. Everyone else lives in Deleware or in Maryland.
To give you all alittle more back ground. My dad and my uncle are not that healthy. My uncle has to be about 400 pounds! My father has to be about 300 or so. They were both doing weight watchers over the summer and loosing alot of weight. I was so proud of my father that he was actually doing something good for him and his health. My father and I do not have the greatest relationship. In my eyes alot of the times he's a lying loser. And yes I do have jealousy and envy that he's actually a father with his new family. They live in a pretty nice sized house, big back yard and give my little brother anything he wants. Where as I grew up with no back yard, nothing upto date and new..I grew up in a ghetto, hearing gun shots at night was a normal thing, and yes I raised my sister because my mother had to work 2+ jobs to make up the childsupport my father wasn't paying. So yeah I do have anger issues towards my father... but the one thing I never want is to loose my father especially due to a heart attack or something of the sort. I never wish death upon ANYONE! HOPEFULLY my uncle will be ok... HOPEFULLY both him and my father wake up and realize they are not healthy and need to do something about it! I actaully told my father last night, "This is why it's very important to take care of yourself, you and Danielle (step mom) was doing so good on weight watchers I was so proud of you but now you guys stopped and gained the weight back!" I really hope as sad as it is.. that this opens thier eyes to how important it is to be healthy. Being super over weight like that, it's kindof committing a slow suicide on yourself. ugh..
Then when I called my mother to tell her about uncle robin last night she told me that her cat that was sick last week passed away yesterday. =( BLAHHHHH all this crazyness going on. It's rainey and cold I don't want to be here!
I woke up super late this morning. I woke up at the time I'm supposed to be at work so I was an hour late getting here... So i'm taking a half hour lunch and staying a half hour late today. I have a big homework assignment due tonight, yet I tried to work on it yesterday and well I couldn't think. I have to do it tonight. yet after work I'm going to the hospital to see my uncle. He's in some sort of coma right now I guess. BLAAAAAH trying to be positive...
on that note for food today I have:
Coffee
Salad
yogurt
Banana
1/2 cup cottage cheese
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