Ok... Semi LIVID!!!!
Ok... Semi LIVID!!!! SO much to write.. I just have to get it all off my chest!
I admit I've had an edge of anger on me since about Friday.. maybe because the (.) time is cominng? Maybe becuase I'm fed up with alot of stuff I don't know.
As you all know I went to a concert last night. The BF knew I've been semi angry lately.. so he told me to have a good time with my best friend.. with a heavy metal concert you would think it would get alot of anger out of my system that has been inside lately.. you know... SO I went to the concert... Me and My buddy jessie are having a great time,, dancing around kindof head banging and going with the beat... We go pee pee between bands and come out of the bathroom and who do we see... the singer of Sevendust! He called Jessie and I over talked to us for a bit.. he was a really nice guy.. and pretty hot too.. hehehe he then asked if we wanted to go to the after party. (it was his bday that night and they brought out a cake on stage and the after party was a party for.. tada his bday.. so stop those nasty thoughts you girls got going on lol)
So the singer gave us our VIP tickets for the after party.. and then it started...
The BF was calling me and calling me over and over blowing up my phone. I duck back into the bathroom and he is
1. Drunk and now I find out blacked out!
2. Coming back from the casino,
3. the Van broke down,
4. Has no clue where he is!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
I tell him I'm not leaving.. he's drunk and wtf is he doing at the casino anyways.. he shouldn't of even went to the casino. By this time Sevendust is just getting on stage.. I want to enjoy my concert damn it like he said he wanted me to do.. But now he's getting pist because I'm not leaving. He's calling me seriosly 7 times a minute.. Blowing up my phone.. when I don't answer he starts calling my friend over and over both of our phones are blowing up. I go outside to answer... of course I'm getting drunk billergerant answers to my questions. I give him my triple A card number and tell him to call them for a jump or tow.. does he? I don't even know because he's bilergerant and drunk and now getting pist at me for not leaving. Why should I leave? he's being a freakin jerk! saying meanful stuff (cuz hes drunk and bilergerant). So I keep hanging up on him.. his fault he can wait for me to finish having MY GOOD time.. I missed more then half of Sevendusts set due to being on the phone with him. My friend was super excited that we were going to chill and meet sevendust.. the show is over.. and non stop he is calling and calling and calling... So we are sticking around for the after party.. (which was slowly getting together).. and this guy was driving me up the wall with the phone calls so I asked my friend if we can just go and leave and find him. I felt so bad.. my friend was like yeah its no big deal.. But I still felt bad.. we were so excited before the BF started pulling this stuff. At least we got our VIP passes to hang for a souvineer.. even though I really wanted a picture! GRRRR
So we leave.. Now from where I was.. the casino was about an hour or so away. From where we live the casino is about an hour and a half way. You can take 2 different ways to get to the casino from my house. This dude GRRRR didn't even know what freaking Highway he was on!!!! WTF how am I supposed to find you?!?!?! You can be on 3 different highways! And on top of it his phone is dying.. and he's persistant on calling every min asking where I am when we were driving... FINALLY his phone died thankfully becuase I was getting ready to throw mine out the window.
So we drive down highway 1... we don't see him insight... we drive down highway 2... and we spot him.. right off the onramp from the casino exit. WTF UGH
so I drive past.. do a U turn.. come back... pull up.. and he's sleeping in the truck.. I'm trying to wake him up (it's about 2am at this point). He's not waking up.. finally I got him to wake up.. and get out of the truck and he almost stumbles into traffic on the highway.. (I'm so violent sometimes.. not a good quality of mine) So I grabbed him and threw him on and over my car to get on the other side where there is no traffic.. I'm so LIVID! Also the freaking bozo.. was sitting inthe driver seat with the keys in the ignition.. One of the times I spoke to him on the phone I told him to sit in the passenger side and take the keys out of the ignition.. He never did! Thank god a cop never came by because he wouldof gotten a DUI Easily! Ohhh and I never mentioned... my car is not registered! So if a cop came even when I was behind him getting him I wouldof been screwed too! UGH
So I get him in the car.. (backseat!) and we take off for the 50 min ride to drop off my friend.. then the 20 min ride to my house.. Oh BTW I never ate so I was starving.. I drink just a big glass of milk.. he knows Im pist.. he knows he ruined my night. He knows I went off on his mother the other day about staying out of our buisness... (which he actually brought up last night and was happy I did go off on her..) He was trying to get me to talk to him.. I was sooooo mad I couldn't.. I just wanted to go to bed. He was blacked out and there is no sense in talking to him when he's blacked out like that. I told him thata few things have been agravating me lately.. Like his mother, him still not having a car, him starting to smoke that maryjane stuff again, him going to the casino and drinking to oblivion like he did last night, him always talking about marrying me yet he hasn't asked yet. His responce was, "I'm a loser, you hate me, dont talk to me anymore. I'm packing my stuff in the morning." What ever I think to myself.. you're blacked out.. you have no clue what you are saying. We then go to bed.
Ugh
I wake up in the morning.. make myself some coffee.. and wait a bit to wake him up. I'm enjoying my time alone at the minute. I then wake him up (cuz we gotta get the van before I head to work). he's STILL drunk and freaking out.. like "omg the van i gotta i gotta i gtta get the van omg omg". I say to him.. Well we will get the van on MY time, I need to do to the dmv to register my car!" He gets pist but no sence in arguing I do have a valid point. He's even lucky I picked his butt up last night! Ugh.. so I go to DMV.. check in and it seems like there will be a super long wait so I left. This is at 10am this morning.. I have to be at work at 130pm.. and the van is about an hour and a half away.. grrr
So we head down to go get the van and do some good talking. He states he's swearing off drinking... he's stopping the smoking.. he's comming to conclusion he has an additive personality and he can't drink in moderation... (we'll see how this goes). We get to the van.. try to jump it... it doesn't work. So I called triple A.. who took over an hour to get there and I fly to work.. I ended up being only 18 mins late for work which isn't bad. But I still don't like being late for work ugh..
So now I am here..my hands are still shaking from being stressed out and so angry... he is home with the van and his BIL is supposed to come to the house to help fix it. It's not even our van it's his bosses van. I haven't eaten all day I'm starving, have no food, and barley ate yesterday.. He and I have ALOT of talking to do tonight!!!!! I'm so furious it's not even funny he better change his ways or this isn't going to work! This is the 3rd tiime he has blacked out.. and It's the worst time as of yet. we are def going to have to make some changes around here... he and I if he wants to continue our relationship... on that note.. at least I met the lead singer of sevendust! lol At least that was one good thing.. and I still have my VIP pass..
I really feel bad for you.
