Sad Couple of days
Hey everyone! I haven't blogged in a few days because I have been very sad and unfocused. My eating and exercise have been excellent but my mind is in a far away place. My grandma is not doing so hot and it is really bothering me! It's also bothering me that I haven't spent as much time as I should with her!! I 've been beating myself up for that. The breakup still hurts and especially at a time like this when I would normally talk to him and he would make me feel better....secure...and supported.
So I eat right and I exercise bc at this point, those are the only things I can control. I feel that in my chaotic mind, those routines are my anchor. I have been doing great with Zumba and look forward to it. I feel like the biggest and fattest girl there. Huffing and puffing!!! I get so drenched in sweat it is unreal. I look around and I don't see anyone else looking that SWEATY! I do get a lil embarrassed....but then I tell myself that pretty soon I will look slim and trim so I continue to huff and puff my way through the workout!
I am on D3 Wk2 of C25K program. I was going to do day 3 yesterday but when it came time to start walking and stop jogging....I couldn't. I felt like I had to keep running. I had so much to get out of me! I did it! I ran 2 miles nonstop. Sure I was probably the slowest jogger out there but I did not stop jogging once. I am proud of that!