Doing it for me....
For me, this journey is about SO much more than weightloss. I am an emotional eater, and once I hit my highest weight I decided that I really needed to look at what I was putting into my mouth, and more importantly WHY I was eating so much and so terribly..
I guess it has to do a lot with fear. I see my family and they are all happy, healthy and active, and I always felt like I didn't deserve to be that way. I put everyone else before me and somehow lost the happy and motivated person that I was. I've always told myself that I would lose the weight eventually, or when I felt the time was right, but when is the right time? I deal with emotional issues daily and I think its just something I am going to have to live with because it is a part of who I am. Taking control of my health is probably the best thing I can do for myself at this point. I am 20 years old and I want to be out there and having fun. Instead, I make excuses about why I cant go out because I feel tired and sick all the time.. I want to do this for me.. I want and need to be selfish for a while...