Doing a little better...
Well, I unfortunately experienced a gain this morning. It's not surprising because I have been eating like crap/not eating at all in the past few days.. I always turn to food when my emotions are effected.... I'm feeling better today, so I have decided to get back on the wagon. I only had a little gain, and can be back down to my last weight by the end of the week, I'm sure.
This weight loss has been such a battle for me. I need to learn how to stay on track ALL of the time... I can go a couple of months and get steady losses, and then something just kind of explodes in me and a leave the healthy eating behind. I can't keep doing this to myself. I'm tired of saying "I'll be healthy by...." and the day comes and goes with no success.. I am giving myself until my 21st birthday to get all of this excess weight off, and it that doesn't happen, I am going to be very dissappointed in myself. I am keeping myself accountable.
When I look at other people who have lost weight, I always wish I were in their shoes.. I want to "be an after"... I know how to lose weight... I know what I need to do.. It's all just a matter of implementing it for the long term... I am determined to get this off... My current goal is to lose 15 lbs by the next time I see my mom ( November)... I think if I really try, I can surpass that!!