On A Mission!!!!

Hey Guys.....

It seems like I have so much reading.  I am reading now.  Seems like that everyone has had a very eventful 3 or 4 months.  Some good and some bad.  I guess  it isn't a perfect life huh????   ......  

I had go to out to dinner on Saturday.  It was sooooo cold and I really didn't want to wear sweats, lounger pants etc...  I had not even looked at my jeans .... I still wear huge shirts etc.  My goal was not to wear anything else but sweats until I lost my weight...... I decided to look in my closet and started looking my jeans hanger by hanger.  I knew not to even try them.   Looked at the tags and  discarded, discarded, discarded etc..... I had bought a pair this last Christmas and tryed them.   WHOOPEE!!!!!!  I could put me and jellibean both in them.   I found a pair that looked may fit me...Maybe.  I kept looking and looking...  Do I do this.....Disappoint?? Cry??? The last time I tried these jeans was when I started getting fat.  I'LL BE DAMNED!!!!  They fit.  I didn't even have to suck in.  I even put  on a sweater that didn't cover my AS!S!! 

I decided to reward myself.  I put on my make-up.  Yes makeup!!!!!  I was ready to ROCK!  My husband says, WOW, you have a ass.  Just one.  The asswipe!!!   Dianna and Phil noticed right away......

 I can't be;ieve that my journey is paying off.  I started in October even before I started with ExtraPounds.  I have lost 52lbs at date.   WOAH!!!!!!!  Way to Weigh for me.

I still have 15 pounds.  I am finally under what I weighed at my highest when I was pregnant with Garet.  I am so in this losing weight thingy.  I can't even wear my bra's.  YEAH!!  I hated big Boobs.  I liked my 34C's....I was in a 40D.  Still need to lose a little of them....   

Well, guess I had better go.  My Jellibean is coming in the door.  Gotta go color and play  with play dough.

Luvs to all.......lilypad

HEY LILY!!! OH MY FRIGGEN GOSH!!!!

Yeah!!! your back!!! Wow so much has gone on since you have been away!! I missed you!!! I always looked forward to seeing your comments!! hmmm...you asked so many questions heehheee...where do I begin???

Well, I havent been blogging a whole lot due to my full schedule!! Dont get me wrong I do read a lot of the blogs though!! Its my down time!! lol I am taking 17 credit hours this semester!! WOW is that ever so over whelming!! Slapped myself with reality!!! haha But I am handling it all pretty well!! Still have all A's!! woohoo.I am trying to stay with the full load so I can get my associates as soon as possible. My councelor said I should be able to do it in a little less then two years maybe even 18 months!! Man that would be AWESOME!!!

Ok the ex-husband is living in the house with me and the boys. But we are not in a relationship. He has his own room and I have mine.(with a lock on the door!! haha) He moved in when all the shit went down with my mother. She never paid me a dime of any of the money she said she would. And I am unemployed at the moment soooo I had to tell my ex that I was about to lose the house because I cant afford it on my own. He didnt want to lose his VA ( which we used to get the house) so he moved in to help pay the bills. He works two jobs fulltime so I really dont see much of himYAAAAYYY!!!  He would love to get back together but I want to vomit every time he comes near me!!! So I really dont see that happening!!! As you would say he is an asswipe!!!

Ok the one thing in my life that holds me together....my soul mate...my lover ...my friend...the one that was positive didnt exist...ohhh I could go on on on on and on and on....the sweetest man I ever met. sincere...loving ...passionate ...caring...romantic...fun to be with at all times...whether we go out or just lay around and watch movies..thees no other place I would rather be then in his arms!! it gives me chill bumps just thinking about him!! I met him about a month ago. and it feels like we have been together forever,,happily together ...the most beautiful blue eyes You could ever imagine..6foot tall blonde hair and built like wooohooo!!! oh sorry My mind wandered...heehee...I have never felt  ANYTHING like this ever....the sincereity in his eyes melts my heart everytime he looks at me....OOOOOO and the smile.....OOOOOOthe "Keifer Sutherland "smile ( except he has the most perfect teeth )!!!! oooopppssss....mind wandered again...uuummmm oh ya...just beautiful!!!  Ya you could say I am a little smitten with this man.. No I am in love with this man ...heart and soul!!! But, (you know theres always got to be a but) October 3rd he leaves for Iraq for a year!!! at least...some of the soldiers have been staying 18 months!! I will be here waiting no matter how long it takes him to get back!! But I am going to be devestated when he leaves.I can barely go a day with iut seeing him...I cant imagine what its going to be like not seeing him for a whole friggen year!!!I dont know what I am going to do without him. Which is really weird for me...I am a very independent person...I have never been like this about any one!! I am freaking out inside!! wow who would have thought ...me all wrapped up in a man... woooo thats saying a lot!! All I keep praying is that he comes home safe and back to me!!  not a moment goes by that I dont think about the what if's and start to cry....my gosh this shit is hard!! I keep telling myself that I am going to focus on school and getting the rest of this weight off before he gets back. And all the rest of the shit I have on my plate should keep me pretty busy to!!

My boys are doing wonderful...my oldest is a freshman this year!! ya that makes me feel old!!! And my little one is in the third grade. Both are doing fine in school. And no major incidents lately!! haahaa!!

Did I say I am sooo happy to see you back on here?? I always loved to hear the jelly stories!!! I really missed them while you were gone!! Please keep in touch!! Lotsa love and luck to you!!! Shannon