TITLE! Hmmm! My Angel!!
Hi Guys......
I know you are probably not reading this. It has been sooo long since I have blogged. I can give excuse's but they are just like assholes. Everyone has one.....lol
It's been so long since I blogged. I started reading some blogs off and since last week. Before then, it was sporadically....
Everyone knows about jellibean, right. They left in April. In the middle of May I went to Las Vegas and got her to stay with me until the 10th of August. We had soooo much fun. THE BEST THING was that I took a litle side trip to Salt City, Utah......I visited with Shar (Abwanter). It was lovely and she is such a wonderful woman. I don't know what I would do if I didn'y have her in my life. She is my Angel. My rock most times. (I didn't have a title and just went back and changed) .... There is a very very good reason why I call her "My Angel". Compassionate, nurturing, love, and most of all she keeps me IN LINE!!!!!!
After Jellibean left in August, I WAS NO GOOD .. I cried day in and day out. It was so bad. I had never felt like this before. It felt like someone ripped out my heart by bit by bit. The hurt was indescribbbbiblically (how about that SwimKatt) ... I wouldn't go out, just cry. etc....I couldn't do anything cause I would cry everytime, I would think..... Jelli and I would etc... you know what I an saying. After 3 weeks, my daughter, Phil, and Jelli decided to come home and live back here. THEY Said I have done so much for them that the least they could do is be happy. FUC*... You know what I mean. I couldn't go outside. My face was so swollen it looked like i had had an allergic reaction. After 3 weeks, my doctor was on my ass. BAD...He's such an asswipe. My new word..... YAda Yada Yada....
As I was saying.....Shar. If it wasn't for her, I would have drowned. Man, that woman has a HUGE whip!!!!!! It was sooooo long. (from Salt Lake to here to North Dakota). Honestly. Her heart is huge. She took alot of my hurt and put it on herself. She is so unbelieveable. I know that it seems really ????? (word) that we met on this site. We are so similiar with so many things. Our health is a real biggy... It will also be an issue with us. That is one thing that will never go away like the pounds. But now, we are dealing with that together. Just because we are gonna be sick (different) we know how it is to be sick all the time.
Ok.... I'm done. I didn't mean to ramble. She's a very beautiful woman .... inside and out. I have been so very blessed. I don't know what I did right, that someone showed me to her. I love you , My Angel!!!!!
Sorry, I just wanted to let her know. ...... Jellibean is with me now. My doctor is happy and my husband. Well, what I can say...... He's an ASSWIPE!!!!!!
As you can see, I am doing ok with my weight. No big deal. I have given my self until the end of the year to get to down to 112. We'll see.
I have been reading alot of blogs and will be blogging back. I am so sorry it took so long.
Luvs to all....lilypad