So today i went to the grocery store and had two buggies of groceries got home put them up had to clean out the cabinets and everything else and guess what i'm still not done so i think i'm going to stay up and get as much as possible done because i really want to workout tomorrow but anyways wish me luck on getting done and ohh yeah i havent got to decorate the tree yet it is up but not done.......................

okay i just realized that nobody can make a change but me the pills are just a temporary fix so what i'm going to do is kick myself in the ass and get back on track i have damn goals to meet and i will meet them and i'm going to start making a list and get back to my damn planner so i can get organized and i will start working out twice a day 6x a week because i know that if i want a hot body i have to be willing to put some effort in and that i will but just wanted to let you all know that i'm back on track but gtg chat later

I think that i'm going crazy i don't understand....I should be very excited but i'm not i'm stressed and feel overwhelmed and depressed and i don't want to be i want to snap out of it but i don't know how. I went christmas shopping for the babies and i thought that would cheer me up but it hasnt ive been trying to put up the christmas tree and i really don't want to i'm just doing it for the babies. I have no will power right now and no motivation i just don't know what to do as soon as i get done with one thing it seems like there is another one i have to do i know that that is life but there has to be more than this i mean yes i'm thankfull for my babies and my home our vehicles and everything else god has blessed me with but my gosh will i ever be able to get done so that i can get back to me and not being as stressed i just don't want to have to be like this every single day i should be able to get up workout in the mornings and clean little messes and be able to play with babies in the evening and then put them to bed and be able to have a little me time. But no here reasonly it has not been like that i have to get up with the baby then get up at 5or6 and then do what i have to and plus more and then i have to stay up untill like 2:00 am and clean and then i only get like an hour of sleep and i'm about to go cray but anyways just wanted to vent but gtg babies are needing me

well yesterday went good breakfast slimfast lunch was sandwich with baked potato i ate some macoroni salad a bite of pasta dinner i knew i couldnt eat any of that snack i had salsa and chips it's my favorite snack and i glass of chocolate milk......yeah i know it doesnt sound to healthy but remember everybody's matabolism doesnt work the same and this is what works for me so....oh yeah got my house cleaned, so today i'm going to go ahead and focus on laundry and get it out of my way and there is a couple of other things i'll do to keep me busy and plus alexis is home from school, excersise i will do when landon takes his first nap.....i hate being on a diet and being broke you know they pound in your head lose wheight eat healthy but how can you afford all that healthy food it is so expensive that's why i just buy my self a little bit of stuff a time and just eat on that but right now i'm running out of healthy options and i cant go back to the grocery store untill monday that's 7 more days god help me but if i have to i'll stick completly to my slimfast and ceral or canned vegtables lol but anyways gtg i have to take my vitamins and stuff so i can wake up