02/02/2012 18:01
Status quo.....
It's been quite some time since I've checked in and there a few reasons for it.
1) EP went to sh** for a bit and I started getting know it all people and a bunch of promo crap.
2) I got lazy about writing diet/exercise plans, feelings and other stuff.
3) I wasn't very committed to diet or exercise.
4) Health issues. Family issues left me feeling quite hopeless and depressed.
5) Other crap which basically narrows down to excuses.
Where am I now?
I miss the group of ladies I bonded with on here (at least I think I bonded with them) and FB isn't a substitute with its untimely postings and deciding for me who I want to see all updates for and not, regardless of my checked boxes etc.
So.. I'm back here.
I'll probably still get ads, and unsolicited advice when I really just want to vent and feel supported but I know how to delete mail and will do so once I memorize the names of those who annoy me.
I'm still going to have lazy times when it comes to writing and tracking but it is a PROCESS, and I have to remind myself of that often - several times a day, most days.
I'm still having on and off days with diet and exercise but I'm trying to have a more movement filled life in general.
Health issues/ Family issues seem to be ongoing and some do impact my weight issues but it is what it is and I have to learn to operate around it all day by day. (A lovely lady on here once said god gives us enough grace to live 24 hrs. at a time and I always think about that saying now).
As for other crap, aka excuses, it will always exist because life comes with crap regardless of what size my arse is going to be.
SO... I have to look at the big picture! After looking at my records, I've realized that I'm still not as bad as I was at the HUGE 258 lbs. of my all time high. I'm hanging out around 230 lbs.. up and down week to week which is no where near my goal but I have been worse off, so it IS progress just to stay at a lower weight.
In other news... I think I'm having a bit of a mid life crisis or something. I've got some big decisions to make, ones that are well overdo. Or I need to get a better perspective on things so that I can have a better attitude of gratitude than I have most days. Whichever... it's making me think too much . LOL
More later...
S
P.S. Please say hi if you're an EPer that recognizes my name or if you're someone interested in using EP as intended, for friendship and support.
Do NOT say hello if you want to promote your diet plan, exercise plan or other 'marketable' services. IF I want to seek services and plans, I know how to research them outside of EP.
