09/26/2011 17:16
A good weekend (no I didn't lose 13 lbs. this weekend - read on)
Yay, I had a successful weekend which means I stayed on task with portions, water intake and ate NO junk food, nor empty calorie beverages. That's a *huge* win for me given I have been having slurge days on the weekend and drinking beer when I go to comedy mid-week. Those slurge days can undo a full week's worth of focus.
I'm trying to decide if I should throw out my home scale. That damn appliance is maddening! It jumps 4-8 lbs. within minutes, let alone days, and that leaves me totally unsure of where my weight is day to day. Given I'm struggling already, a gain leads me to the bad attitude of 'what's the use,' when in reality it might just be extra salt, hormones and other factors. Jim is *finally* working on his weight issue at the same time I am - a miracle!!! A true miracle!!! He's lost 32 lbs. since July 15th by simply reducing his portions (I admit I get a li'l jealous that he drops weight with such ease even though I know all the facts about heavier people losing faster, men losing faster, muscle mass blah blah blah). He is using the GNC scale on Sunday to keep a paper trail (it gives a print out each time) of his weight loss. I'm thinking I should spend the 50 cents a week and only weigh there too. I think it might stop the crazy mental cycle I'm in: beat myself up when the home scale jumps yet not trusting it when it shows are good loss. What do you think?
It keep telling myself that I need to get back to my basics and 'Trust the process'. For me that means as long as I keep on task with the basics, my body WILL respond. Afterall, my body wants to drop this weight - it really does - I just have to work with it, not against it.
The basics are more streamlined than my Master Plan.
1) Reduce junk food, soda, beer or other empty calories.
2) Choose healthy, lean, low fat foods
3) Drink plenty of water daily
4) Move 30 mins. - minimum of 3 days a week
5) Avoid eating for reasons other than physical hunger.
I've had several fair to good days so I'm feeling more confident about my ability to stay on task with these basics. Now it's just about doing what I'm supposed to do, one day at a time and Trusting The Process.
At this time, I'm not going to be tracking every single calorie and logging it all on Livestrong like I did last year. Maybe I'll choose to be that detailed at a later date, but not now.
I have deleted my weight updates on EP. Why? Because continuously seeing the graph (down then up) keeps me beating myself up and feeling like I failed. I don't need that mental sabotage right now. However, I kept my initial weight entry
from when I started EP (my all time high weight) and put in my current weight as of yesterday's GNC reading. Why? it reminds me that I have made some progress since 2009. Afterall, 13 lbs. IS a loss and it's a loss that inspires me to go forward.
Make sense???
Have a healthy day, everyone!