Hold On
Hold On. It's commonly used in 12-Step meetings and I've been reminded of this phrase as I read James Frey's A Million Little Pieces. I'm going to use this when I'm craving sweets or needing to chew on something-anything to keep the black hole within me satisfied.
Yippee! It's Monday and I'm back at work! Whoo Hoo!!!
Sounds crazy, doesn't it? Truth be told, being back at work isn't my favorite thing, but being back on a regular schedule and around my diet support buddies helps me alot.
My weekend wasn't be best I've ever had on my program. Friday night I did okay, but Saturday was a day of laying on the couch and resting because my allergies were out of control. All that laying around doing nothing make me really crave snacks, snacks and more snacks. I ate salami and cheese with crackers for lunch (oh no!) instead of my JC food and an entire bag of popcorn that night. The only good news is that it was all lowfat or fat free stuff, but still - I know it wasn't good.
Sunday I did okay, but I went to my friend Rebekah's to watch The L Word season opener and she cooked. Far be it for me to skip Rebekah's cooking! She's learning how to cook healthier for her own family, but the wine I had with my meal probably didn't do me much good.
My biggest problem right now is at home. I'm not very active right now and I think the rainy weather has something to do with that. The holidays also kept everyone so busy that my social and dating life is slow at the moment. I did reach out to a couple of people yesterday at church and mentioned that I'd like to get out more, so hopefully those seeds will grow soon.
Wow. What a boring post! I need some drama in my life! (gentle drama though - I'm done with the big stuff)
A little drama - I need to a friend that I'm done with our friendship. She hurt me a year ago by ignoring me when she fell in love - I told her 3 times over 6 months (one via letter) that I was hurt and she did nothing to change it. she said a whole lot about working at keeping her friendships healthy, but did absolutely nothing - not even on a retreat we went on in September for 5 days. Now she wants to be best friends again. I'm not interested in opening myself up to being hurt by her again and again and I need to tell her that. Ugh.
There's my drama. Nothing exciting, just something I need to clear up and I'm not looking forward to it.
Monday - I'm sticking to my plan today!