Weekly check-in!
So I show a gain this week. Truth time - ready?
I didn't keep my commitment to myself.
Talk about the hardest thing to admit! It's easy to blame, it's easy to find excuses (and it's really easy to go out to dinner 4 times in a week!), but it's really, really, REALLY hard to admit that I've failed a commitment to me.
Why make this public statement? Because yesterday when I was watching a tv show where the Life Coach reminded the dieter that she had failed to keep her own diet commitment I got really uncomfortable. Yep, I was sitting there on my couch waiting for the broccoli to finish cooking when I realized that I couldn't stand in my living room alone and admit the same thing to myself outloud. It took four times of trying before I could say it!
My JC Consultant and I talked about where I was in my life and how I was feeling around the time I went from a size 6 to a size 14 and what I may need to deal with around that event. Ugh. It's been seven years since that incident and just as many years of sorting though the emotional ick that resulted from it (or even brought me to that point in my life).
Just when you think you've worked through your stuff, more stuff is revealed!
So I'm off to meet with a body image therapist. Maybe she can help me to view things a different way.
I'll check back next week. In the meantime, I'm resolving to do my very best to keep my commitment to myself this week and eat only from my plan!
Keep loosing everyone!