Food and mood

Day three and I'm still caffeine free!  Does anyone think there is a connection between food and mood?  I have had some mood swings lately and I wonder if it is almost like I am "detoxing."  Of course I am also pining away for Motivation Man -- whom I'm now renaming Fantasy Man because it doesn't seem like it will ever happen with him.  I can only fantasize.  But even aside from that it's been weird.  Over the weekend, a couple of times I felt exceptionally GOOD, for no special reason.  It would be nice if that was due to eating healthy and not having any caffeine.  I could use more good moods that's for sure! 

No diet colas yesterday!

I started April off right with no diet colas.  In fact, I had no caffeine at all!  I felt more tired than usual but I was able to rest up, fortunately.  I also ate very healthfully with no processed foods.  I am determined to keep this up!  Other than the fatigue, I really felt better already.  The next thing will be to focus on portion control and eating only when hungry, so I can really start losing pounds along with getting healthier.

A few changes

Well I took Jack Bauer off my blog for now.  Nothing against him, but I think I'm going to take a little break from men altogether and just focus on me!  LOL!  I also set a goal time, July 1.  I don't actually think I can hit 121 by then, but I'm not sure of my exact goal weight anyway.  I might find I'm happy at 124 or 126 or whatever I am by July 1, which would be fine.  But, I want to spend the next three months really focused on eating healthfully and exercising, so I wanted to my tracker to count the time down.  I can re-evaluate my goal after three months of hard work.  I'm going to be avoiding processed foods and eating nutrient-dense ones (and of course avoiding those diet colas!).

I also tested my scale... good news, it is weighing heavy!  It weighed my 20 pound dumbell as 21 pounds.  It also came up with that exact weight every time I tried.  So I guess it is consistent after all, just not accurate in terms of absolute weight.  But that doesn't really matter to me... it's just a number after all!

Lonely hearts blog

I've got a heartache today... I'm starting to realize that my "Motivation Man" just doesn't dig me.  I don't think losing weight will make any difference, either.  He was supposed to e-mail me something this week and it seems he has forgotten me.  Plus I can just tell when I'm around him that it's friends-only (and maybe barely that).  :-(  I think I need to just walk away and cut my losses -- basically, try to see him as little as possible.  I still want to lose this weight but I need different motivation.  I know it will boost my self-esteem, which I definitely need at this point!  But I wish I didn't feel so sad and blue right now, it kind of makes it hard to focus on eating right and exercising. 

My scale has become completely unreliable

I guess it's old and been stepped on too much, LOL!  But it seems to be getting really inconsistent.  I didn't have time this morning, but tonight maybe I'll test it by weighing a dumbell or something and see if it's accurate.  If not, I guess I'll have to get a new one.  Does anyone have a favorite brand?

I can't decide

I know I want to give up diet colas, but should I switch to tea, or give up caffeine entirely?  I can't decide!  I know tea is a pretty healthy beverage, but I also know that I'm sensitive to caffeine and would probably sleep better and have less energy ups and downs if I had none at all.  I'm not sure which is better for weight loss either -- allowing regular teas or having no caffeine at all.  Maybe I will experiment in the next day or two with just tea and see how I feel.

Woo-hoo, it worked!

Yay, the extra long workout worked and I finally inched my weight down again!  Thank you Jane for the idea... BTW what I ended up doing was the cardio-only premix, and then the whole workout.  It was fun!  Now if I can improve my diet I think I'll see a faster rate of weight loss. 

Still waiting to get moving

Well I'm still waiting to get going on my weight loss.  Tonight I think I'll try an extra long workout... Jane inspired me to do Cathe's "Cardio & Weights" but doubling up on the cardio!  This is a favorite workout of mine so it should be fun.

I'm afraid I've already had some Diet Pepsi today, so I'm not free of my cola addiction just yet either.  My goal is to be completely off the stuff from April 1st on, so I guess between now and then I can either wean myself off gradually, or else just go cold turkey on the 1st and deal with the headache.  But absolutely no more brown and bubbly after the 1st... hold me to it!!!

Brown and bubbly

Well I didn't do an all-raw weekend; in fact, I didn't stick too closely to my dietplan at all.  I've just been suffering through TTOM.  I think I may see a little weight loss tomorrow anyway though, from starting to de-bloat.  We'll see!

One change I need to make is to get off the "brown and bubbly" diet colas.  I enjoy them and they certainly help me stay awake, but I've notice they also stimulate my appetite!  I don't think they are any good for your bones either.  I am going to try to wean myself off from them this coming week.

I saw MM (Motivation Man) this weekend but it was a mixed bag.  On the one hand I'm always fired up to see his sexy self, but on the other hand, I was a little disappointed that he wasn't more encouraging towards me.  But, I will probably see him next weekend also so that does motivate me to put in a good weight loss week and at least feel more confident next time.

10 weeks to June

Ten weeks to pool season!  That doesn't seem very long, but if I stick to my diet I can be reasonably trim by then.  I feel ready for the challenge!  Spring is a great time for losing weight.  The weather is warming up so I can get up and do my yoga first thing in the morning without freezing; the days are getting longer so I feel more energetic.  And my Motivation Man will be around here and there.  I think I may try doing an all-raw three day weekend.  It depends how I feel after today, but I think it might jump start my weight loss (especially since it will also be TTOM).  Time to get that tracker moving in the right direction!