Set Backs!
Well, I havent had a chance to update my blog for a few weeks.... I've been traveling a little and now I am back home for a while. Next trip Hilton Head, SC in July. (Planning on bringing my JC breakfast and lunches with me, so I stay on the plan better than the past 2 trips.)
My last GOOD WI was on 5/19. To my utter astonishment I had dropped 3 more pounds for a total of 30lb lost! I was really excited because my mom and sister were here to see that one!!!
...When I got back from Bermuda my scale at home was up some, but only 2-3 pounds. I did not officially go back to Jenny Craig until June 5th for another WI. I was in NYC for 2.5 days over the weekend and walked my tushy off!! It was in the 90's those two days and I retained A LOT of water... at my last WI I was up 7.4lbs 
. Not sure what happened becaue I did not over eat those few days... honestly we missed meals, but I didn't drink enough water during the day. My counselor seems to think I am holding a lot of water weight and I should see a drop at my next WI. I am not feeling as confident, so we'll see I guess.
I am back on the straight and narrow now, but have to say that I really enjoyed the break in dieting. I've been on this program for 6 months now and right before leaving for Bermuda needed a break from it all... These are the times in my life when I really question "why am I so different?" "How come I can't just live a "normal" life, without constantly being consumed by my weight?" ...well, I already know that genetically I am screwed! LOL!! But, in all honestly I have made poor choices in my life that have contributed to my weight issues. Undoing them is proving to be very difficult... my breaking points are more frequent and I am constantly having to reaffirm the reason I am doing Jenny Craig. It's really hard.. I'm seriously thinking of getting brain-washed into thinking thin!!! lol!!! Would that help?! ...kidding! I can do this!! I've done lots of things in my life and achieved a heck of a lot more that I ever thought I would!! So why is THIS my biggest hurtle?? ...It seems so easy a solution to overcome this, right? Healthy eating, portion control, exercise... what is so hard about that?! I dont know!! ...But its my Kryptonite!! ...where did I put my affirmation flash cards agian?! ...