struggling...

Well, it certainly has been a long time since I have written. I actually couldn't believe it when I saw that my last post dated back to June. I definitely fell off the wagon here....That goes for pretty much all things-I'm a bit of a mess. I don't have rent, I haven't been watching what I eat or excercising and my computer and car both just died. I feel like being dramatic when I say, "my life is spiraling out of control". I guess the good news is that I know that I have no other option at this point. I mean, I am persuing what I want and even if I could have the stable job/stable income thing I wouldn't want it. This is definitely the downside of the choice I have made though. Not having money for the basics really wears on a person. But things should lighten up in a few weeks. Once the rehearsal process for the play I am in is over (THIS FRIDAY!), I should be able to balance my finances again and get back into my usual, more healthy routine.

But there have been so many changes...Naumy is up in SF now and so far I think I have been fine. Once the initial body shock wore off, I was too busy to even think about anything other than what I needed to get done next. I have been quite productive but also feel like I don't get a chance to breathe.

Regarding health, I know that exercise would do me wonders right now but have been terrible about the gym. I honestly don't know when the last time I went was. I think it was about a month ago and even then I was being very sporadic. It's strange how we slip out of the routines that serve us best. The kind of good news is that I have managed to not really gain any weight. I have been staying steady at about 123 even though I feel like I should be in the teens by now-I don't eat all that much and I am going till the late hours of the night. I truly think my body is really comfy at this stage. (note to self: write about the body consciousness you have experienced with this play). I feel out of touch with my sense of health as I have to go to all means necessary to stay awake and alert through this grueling schedule. I also started a new class at the community college. Been fine so far but this is only the first week.

Allrighty, I'm gonna try and turn in or something.

hope to write more soon,

Juni