Updates on Me

I broke 170!  I've lost 18 lbs since the beginning of the year.  Very cool, and its not even March yet! 

We got our grade for our group project that I ranted about, where someone *cough*cough* didn't do anything.  She lowered ALL of our grades because of it.  Wth, seriously.  I've already ranted a lot on it, and I'm going to write a letter to both my teacher & the "slacker" this week.  Of course, she wasn't in my AM class with me, AGAIN. 

Got my taxes done & FAFSA filled out yesterday.  I'm a few short months away from knocking off my next-to-last bill!  After that I get to work harder on the *big* hospital bill (I've been slowly cracking away at it), my goal is to have only my student loans as debt by the time I graduate!

Wooo!

In the words of the Nature Boy:  WOOOOO!

Had to dress up for a presentation for intro to design today, so we went out of town and I went to Bergners and got some sweet deals on stuff.  I got a lilac shell for like $5, a Blazer (SIZE 10 BITCHAZ!!!  I don't remember the last I bought a size 10 I've been wearing the same size clothes for so long ;x) for $18, and some cute ankle boots that were on sale for $30 <3  I had to throw out my old black dress shoes, and these felt the best on my feet out of the 3 pairs of shoes I tried on, so they won!

Did my presentation on Heraldry today, very cool.  Unfortunately a lot of them were bor*yawn*ing.  Our teacher was even getting bored with some of them!  

I meet with my advisor tomorrow, and I get to go talk to our HRM professor about our debate.  Remember that slacker I mentioned?  Well the other group members decided that they felt the same way I do and told the teacher!  Serves her right, seriously!  I mean, you don't contribute in ANY way to the preparation process, we're attempting to refine it and you show up for like AN HOUR on the DAY OF the debate and keep dicking around and taling about stupid crap that nobody wanted to hear that we TOLD you we didn't want to hear and TRIED to get you to work JUST BECAUSE YOU LIKE TO HEAR THE SOUND OF YOUR OWN VOICE?  Perhaps.  So she comes to the debate.  What a slap in the face, right?  You're going to be a total slacker and not help out AT ALL and you have the NERVE to show up on debate day?  (Especially after all of the other times you missed out on class - what's one more going to hurt?)  She still is trying to act all buddy-buddy with me after she slacked off and basically left us hanging. 

Did measurements today, I knew I was down, but I thought I'd check them out anyways.  Lost around 1" or so in the past month in the "major areas" and .5" or so in the "minor areas."  I just love that my clothes are starting to be too loose!  Seriously, I need to get out a hammer, nail, and 2x4 & put new holes in my belt =) Or I suppose I could just buy a new belt?

We ordered WWE No Way Out last night, the first PPV event I've ever ordered - it was kinda disappointing.  The cage matches went the way we figured they would, but none of the titles changed hands and Ric Flair is still a Pro Wrestler.  So basically, no change.  The Undertaker & Tripel H are still the non-title Kings, and uhm - RKO is a CHUMP!  I would have loved for Jeff Hardy to win (can I have your lovechild?) or Sexy Boy HBK, but RKO has a lesson to learn and Hardy can't deliver it like Triple H can! 

Speaking of WWE, RAW is about to start!  Laterz!

I hate group projects!

I have two group projects due this week and they've been nightmares.

Introduction to Design:  We have a mannequin due tomorrow.  Someone presents every Wednesday so we arranged to get together Friday.  Well one girl went out of town and couldn't come, and another girl didn't show up!  On the plus side, we did get it done and are presenting tomorrow.  It should be super cute!  I need to remember to take a camera so we can have pictures =)

Human Resource Management:  We have to have 10 articles (4 can be internet) on our topic.  We have 4 group members.  We had to post at least 4 of our articles for the rest of the class to read, so a few weeks ago I asked everyone involved to find two articles.  Well, last Friday was the last day to post the articles, and I had found 2, another girl had found 1 and neither one of our other group members had found ANYTHING.  Now I found 2 good ones in less than an hour, so you can't tell me they aren't out there.  I had to go out of town too, so I was freaking out.  Luckily, one of the other group members found an article and posted it.  For some stupid reason, this SUPER SLACKER thats in like 4 of my classes (I'll cut to a rant afterwards) posted one SUNDAY (2 days after they were due) even though we already had 4.  WTF was the point in that?  Anyways, our debate is on FRIDAY and apparently nobody can take time out of their busy schedules to get together until THURSDAY, but we can only all meet for like 2 hours.  That is NOT how I wanted to spend my Valentine's Day!  So I sent everybody an e-mail with a list of things they need to bring to the meet:

A) 4x copies of 3 seperate articles, only 1 of which can be purely internet.  (If we have no duplicates, we'll have 12 articles, 2 more than our minimum.  We're only allowed 4 pure internet ones, so I limited it 1 per person.)

B) A list of arguments for our side of the debate based on your own personal 3 sources.

C) A copy of each of the 4 articles posted by the opposing teams.

D) A list of arguments which may be presented by the opposing side based on the articles in C.

E) Ideas for rebuttals based on the arguments suggested in D.

Now, *hopefully* I'll be pleasantly suprised!  But I doubt it.  I talked with J about it, and he posed a few different ideas:  That there might be an assignment within the assignment, to see how well we work together.  -but- I'm not in college to make friends, so if there are people who aren't there to learn and excel, that I shouldn't just drag them along without them having to deal with the consequences of it.

Well, at least *I* have found my 3 articles.  Everyone else has found one.  That gives us 6 thusfar.  This project is a complete nightmare!  I hate that they're both due the same week.  Hate it, hate it, hate it!

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Anyways, back to the slacker.  When we met I thought it was super cool because we're into a lot of the same stuff.  WELL - she doesn't show up to class half of the time, and she says she sleeps in (although she claims she has insomnia) or that she's sick (but she doesn't go to the on-campus health clinic, a 2 minute bus ride from her dorm).  She missed a TEST and won't get to retake it because she said she was sick.  I asked her if she went to the clinic and she said no, because everytime she got up she threw up and I was thinking "sounds like a good reason to go to the clinic to me." 

I have 5 of the same classes as her, we're in 4 of them together.  I have seen her turn in ONE homework assignment out of ALL FOUR classes. I don't even think she's bought all of her books yet!  First she said she was going to buy them on-line because they'd be cheaper, but she never did.  They were sold out of like half of her books, but she was too lazy to take the bus 2 minutes from her dorm (if that) to go to the off-campus bookstore across the street to purchase the rest of the books.  She said that she wanted to save money for a laptop, but she hasn't bought one of those yet either.  Apparently she needs some super-expensive one - because she wants one that does everything that her desktop is capable of, which is just ridiculous at this point.  She didn't even pick it out though, her *boyfriend* did!  UGH.  I'm so pissed at her for not doing anything on our project.  Its one thing if she wants to fail, its another thing to bring other people down with her!  I am NOT her babysitter.  I am going to be SO glad when this week is over.  It'll be even better when the semester's over, because she tries to act friendly and I sit next to her in ALL FOUR of our classes together (it started as a same-major thing, then they expect you to sit in the same place after a while).  //rant

woohoo!

Looks like me forcing food down my throat 6x per day is finally paying off, I did my regular weigh-in this morning (always wearing the same, give or take jewelry, and at the same time on the same day every week) and I lost 5 lbs from last week!  I'm guessing I finally got my metabolism back into shape after its years of the 'normal' starve/binge method.  VERY COOL.  Now if only I could actually stick to my goals =(

I started on a new BC method on Friday and "weight fluctuation is typical", I guess some people go up or down - I really hope I go down... either that, or because I was on a different type of BC, perhaps I've already undergone the evil symptoms?  I hope so.

I love J.  I get a little needy sometimes, especially right after he has his kids (he's a lot less affectionate towards me when they're around) and we both know it.  So last night I wanted to snuggle because I was tired but wanted to spend time with him, but he's been sick (I just got over it a few days ago, so hopefully he'll follow suit) and didn't feel like snuggling so I pouted and took a nap on the fouton during the last quarter of the game.  But he got up and kissed me on the head and put another blanket over me while I was sleeping =)  I didn't notice until a few minutes after I'd woken up, but it made me smile.

Yay!  Five pounds!

Ronja & Jen can go to Anime St. L, I think we're staying at another hotel b/c its like half the cost and less than a block away.  Need to call them today.  Waiting on overflow information for ACen, the Hyatt blows =P so we decided a few months back we didn't want to stay there again (we've stayed at the Hyatt ever year we've gone that they've been there and its progressively gotten worse.)

<Insert rant about ep's dumb preview mode and me losing EVERYTHING I had written past this point.  Attempt at a less-enthusiastic re-type to follow>

Not enough models for the fashion show, so I'll just be focusing on cosplay instead (I am NOT going to spend all of that time & cash on a garment to put on a complete stranger!).  Celes & Esper Terra for myself, Relm for Jen & Terra for Ronja.  <3 Cosplay <3  Its the first time since we all went together to a convention since Anime Iowa 2003.  Very psyched!

I need to do a time budgeting sheet!  Take a look at my syllabi and map out the next 2 months, also take a look at the Rec center group workout schedule and some of the kids activities.  I also need to take an inventory of what I've got in the basement so I can know what I'll need to dye/buy.  Wish me luck =)

I'm so glad I have Spring Break coming up!  Jen's is the week after mine, so maybe she can come down for a day or something during the week and we can do her fitting.  Ronja's coming down the Thursday before the convention so we'll be able to do her fitting then.  If we can't do Jen, its not a huge deal because Relm's outfit has to be close, not perfect (stretchy top, elastic waist pants!) 

Yay I'm so excited!  Conventions!  Cosplay! Sewing! 5 lbs!

Busy, Busy, Busy!

Club:  So I guess they got registered on Wednesday of last week for the type of club I was going to start.  Their meetings are 7-9 on Tuesdays, but I get out of class at 11 and don't particularly feel like waiting around for an extra 8 hours on campus!  Perhaps if they have some other type of activities.  I went to the activities fair, I'm considering joining my major's club and looking into their sorority.  Problem is, I don't know what my GPA is here since I transferred, I can't find it anywhere on our records system.  I guess I'll have to figure it up manually.  Unfortunately, I don't think my GPA will be high enough to join, after my little stint of not wanting to go to college while I went to CC.  Very sad, but we have to pay for our mistakes, right?

Fashion Show:  Still waiting to hear back from my models if they can make it or not.  I hope so, it would be a TON of fun to participate in.  If nothing else, I'll just have that much more time and money to put into my Celes Chere opera gown.

School:  Is going good.  I've made it to every class on time even commuting in the junky weather here.  My basic day I wake up, go to school, come home, do homework & go to bed.  My only real relaxation time is on Wednesdays, where I force myself to stop for an hour to watch Project Runway!  I picked up some free books from a table in the hallway that I'm guessing were old textbooks for the major, they should be very informative!  Unfortunately I haven't had time to exercise, but I'm walking everywhere at school instead of taking the buses.  Today was the first I took the bus and that was from completely across campus because the WCF made it like -20 or -30 outside.  And I only took it one way!

I should get pleanty of exercise and cold this weekend, however.  Going to NERO.  I'm going to be sure to take water & flavor packets with me, some of my shakes and bars.  I might take a few bags of the pretzels that J and I like so we can share them, if I'm not going to be eating "real food" then I might as well spoil myself while I'm there, right?  So I'll get to run around the woods in the cold all weekend.  That reminds me, I need to pack tonight.

Its been a while!

I know, I haven't posted in a while ;x  sorry about that!  I lost another 2 lbs this week =)  I'm sure I would have lost more, but I didn't exercise as much as I should have and I ate out a few times.

I'm still sticking to the shakes, bars, & small snacks with 1 other meal plan.  I'm not a big fan of the cappucino shakes, I've decided, so I'm going to try to use those up so they're gone (at least 1/day until they've disappeared).  I try to keep some variety in them, because I don't want to get too bored with the diet.

I'm back at school, and have realized just how *wonderful* this diet is for that.  I quick bite/shake between classes is just a godsend.  That, and I'm not spending ridiculous amounts of cash on food in the Union everyday for lunch =)

Looking at organizing a club, I'll let you know how that goes.  Trying to get a group of people to go to Anime St. Louis.  They have an Artist's Alley, a Costume Contest, and a Fashion Show which I'm considering entering all three ;)  I've got 2 months to work on things, so as long as I can keep up on my homework I'm probably going to go for it!  I just need to know how many hotel rooms I need to reserve (I'm shooting for two, I love big groups!) 

Much love!  I've got homework to do, looks to plan, etc. =)

The weekend

Not going to NERO this weekend.  Its supposed to be really windy up there with a high of like 3!  EWWW.

I had a blast at Pokettokon.  I even joined staff =)  I sold fluffy cat ears in the Artists's Alley and made a profit (even with gas prices the way they are!).  Met a lot of new friends with similar interests.  I wish J could have come, but he had the kids this weekend.  Perhaps next year!

I stuck to simple snacks & 2x slim fast shakes over the weekend, but I was a little more loose with dinners since I was out of town and my bland turkey sandwiches didn't really do it.  I was good though, I ate a salad BEFORE anything else (and a little more later).  Yay greens!  I lost 1.5 lbs this week, I probably would have lost more if it weren't for my splurge over the weekend, but I'm okay with that.  Its all about moderation, and losing weight slowly is the key to keeping it off.  If I starve and deny myself now there will be a greater chance that I'll go overboard in the future.

I'm so TIRED!  I'm going to bed super soon, so goodnight =)  I get to get back up at 6 a.m. to go to class again.  Adieu!

Kmart: New Day Your Way WLC!

http://www.kmart.com/newday

I found this in someone else's blog and thought I'd share with all of you!  I can't do it because I'm ineligible due to immediate family working for at least one of the sponsors (d'oh!) but I encourage you all to join in!

Its a 12 wk WLC beginning tomorrow, Jan 12 and your subsequent weigh in days are Jan 26, Feb 9, Feb 23, Mar 8, Mar 22, and Apr 5!

All 5 winners recieve:
Photoshoot & possible publicity event, a trip for 2 to NYC 4 days/3 nights, a Makeover at John Freida & $200 towards a local spa in NYC.
$250 John Frieda/KAO Gift Basket
$250 L'Oreal Gift Basket
Bally's Mini-Stepper
$200 Slim-Fast Gift Basket
Active Series 20 by Schwinn Recumbent Bike
Vanity Fair Racerback Double Santoni V nick Crop Sports bra & 2-ply front close Sports Bra.

In addition, 4th Runner up recieves $1k, $100 KMart Gift Crad & a Cadence 55 Treadmill

3rd Runner up recieves $2k, $200 KMart Gift Card & a Momentum 610 Elliptical

2nd Runner up recieves $3k, $300 Kmart gift card, & a Momentum 635 Elliptical

1st Runner up recieves $5k, $500 Kmart gift card, & a Fit Body Elliptical Bundle

Grand Prize recieves $10k, $1k Kmart gift card, & a Weslo 60CT Treadmill

Happy Weight Loss =)

Ugh =(

My abs are super sore from pilates yesterday, and I've got a bruise on my chin from my wrestling match so I decided to make this my day off from wrestling.

I hit a creative streak today.  I made super cute cat-eats to sell at the con this weekend.  I need to go to JoAnns tomorrow and pick up some more supplies for different colored ears & tophats, as well as some more fabric glue =)  (did I mention super cute?). 

So calories were good.  I hate  shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch and no snacks.  Dinner was corn dogs & cheese curls which put me at 970 calories.

I'm assuming it has something to do with my current diet/activity/water consumation levels but I feel totally BLEH.  So I did cheat on my 1k silent goal (not an "official" goal for this week, but I was trying to stay down) and have some crackers & a little bit of light butter to ease my stomach down a litlte bit.  I haven't decided if it worked yet, but *shrug*  I've still got a lot of water to drink, I'm debating, because I think it would just make my stomach feel worse =(

Feeling sick sucks!

End of Day 3

Finished off the day allright.  Had a few hotdogs w/mustard & a handful of pringles for dinner.  No snacking today so I was just under 1000 calories again.  So dietwise, my day was good.

Other than that: Oh my gosh horrible!

I know part of it is just me being dramatic, but STILL.

Jeremy teases me, and sometimes its hard for me to tell if he's teasing or not.

This afternoon I was stressing out about school - my loan this semester is unsubsidized which makes *NO* sense considering I'm commuting, its a public university (more expensive) and I'm taking more hours, but last semester I got a subsidized loan?  Wtf.  But anyways, Jeremy makes some comment about me spending all afternoon on the computer, and it totally crashes my mood.

Later, his son comes over and wants to play video games all night (per usual), so I go downstairs in the gloomy basement, dig out patterns and start working on a mock-up for a dress I want to wear this weekend to the anime convention.  He comes downstairs and makes an "anti-social" comment.  So I go backupstairs and he makes some comment about how I can go downstairs if that's where I'd rather be *UGH*

So he finally gets off the playstation and they play Monopoly Jr. and then start wrestling.  His son opts to stay home with me while he goes and gets his daughter from basketball practice, and we wrestle for a while.  Well, he pulls my hair so I pinch at his back, and he FREAKS OUT.  He starts crying and won't talk to me, and I do something completely against what I though I should do at the moment.  Now, if I was on the outside looking in, I'd say that its a great way for him to learn the "do unto others", which I know he's been taught before with other negative physical behavior.  Nothing hard, just to know that if he gets "abusive" its not going to be put up with, and to teach him that it doesn't feel good when people do that to each other.  But he hides under the bed and won't come out or talk to me.  So, I do something which I KNOW I shouldn't have done, I begged and pleaded and apologized profusely.  The "me on the outside" would have said an explaination and an apology would be better for the lesson, but I was devastated that he was going to hate me for like, the rest of our natural lives.  I didn't know what to do, and opted to call J, but just as I went to he walked in the door.  They didn't leave until right before he had to leave for work so I didn't get to talk to him about it.  I know that when J asked him if he pulled my hair first he said no, so I don't know if he honestly forgot or was just lying (he's at that age).  I'm so stressed, I feel like the worst parent in the world and my mood has just rock bottomed!  I don't even feel like working on things for this weekend, but I almost feel like I should go just to escape so his son doesn't have to be like, haunted by my presence all weekend.  I mean, he let me help him with his coat, and he talked to me, and he made jokes about me later, but I still can't help but be a royal mess about it.  Ugh!