Rantings

Another First

Scale-o-phobia

I am sure that they have a real definition of being afraid of the scale, but I am too lazy to look for it.

I need to see the numbers so I can be realistic about what has happened to my body.  However, I know the second I see what is really going on, I am going to have to face it and that doesn't sound like a good time to me.

I read someone's post yesterday about going to therapy.  I am beginning to think that might not be a bad idea to me.  The only thing I wonder about is, where do you start?  What do you say when you get in there?  Hi, I'm Lee and I can't figure out why I can't stay on a diet/life change/etc for more than 3 months?

I also am a person that likes to take personal responsibility for my failures.  I am sure there are plenty of things I could blame on others like my mother, but I am ultimately the one putting the food in my mouth and it just shouldn't be this hard.

I am still working on starting.  I am almost in the right frame of mind.  I think I will try the therapy and just hope that this time everything sticks.

...plus some?

Breakdown cuz my appliances break down?

Okay.  So in the last two years I've bought some great appliances.  I bought a front loading washer/dryer set, side by side fridge, and a dishwasher.

Well the dishwasher is being fixed Wednesday, some motor problem tha LG discovered after they put out the unit.

My washing machine is having drainage problems.  I think that this is caused by the house plumbing.

I broke a drawer in the fridge and the icemaker quit working for some reason.

I'm through buying appliances.

I didn't eat really great this weekend.  I didn't eat bad stuff really, I just ate a lot.  The only thing bad I had was my husband and I shared a fried ice cream at a restaurant we met at almost 10 years ago.  It was yummy.  I haven't gained anything but a few ounces, but I haven't lost anything all week.  I am going to beg my man to help me get that recumbent bike upstairs tonight.  We have never gotten around to it.

He was great this weekend though.  He built me a box so that I could raise my washer and dryer.  Now I don't have to bend over to get anything in or out.  He also switched the washer and dryer cuz the doors used to open against each other.  It took him a long time bcuz he made it too big the first time and we had some other problems too.  But he got it done and I love him for it.  He made my life so much easier!!!!!!!

I had a lean pocket for breakfast.  It was okay.  I just wanted something hot that I didn't have to cook!  I am not into doing chores today.  My house is a HUGE PIT!  I didn't do much cleaning this weekend, and now I am paying the price for it!

I have gymnastics tonight (well my daughter does.)  And my 2nd grade daughter has a report on JFK due tomorrow.  I know how my evening is going to be spent...

Have a great day all of you!

It's been 9 years...

I forgot one of the most important events of the week. 

Happy 9th Anniversary to my husband!!!!

He was so sweet leaving me notes on my phone and email.  We are going to do something fun this weekend together. 

I love him even more today than the day we were married.  He is truly my soul mate!

Love you Babe!

Back on the computer....

Thanks Joy.  I do need to get back on here.

Well, I have had a long week.  Sunday we celebrated my daughters' bdays with the family at the Olive Garden.  I did really well.  I looked up the nutritional info before I left so I could make informed decisions on what I was eating.  I split up my meal and took it home to eat 1/2 for dinner.  The serving size worked better that way!

Monday was my father's bday.  Happy 62nd Dad!  I didn't make his favoite meal until Tues night.  Again, I did great with that.  I could see some of my plate when I filled it up.  Go me!

Thursday was my newly 8 year old's bday.  Of course I made her favorite meal, fettucine alfredo with broccoli and chicken.  Yummy.  We had an ice cream cake, a very tiny one, and I did have a piece of that.

Today is my newly 7 year old's bday and she wants chicken pot pie and mashed potatoes, her favorite.

Why is it that my kids like comfort food?  Oh yeah, cuz I do!

In the midst of all this eating, I've been painting all week.  I ripped down this old, dark wallpaper that was hanging in my foyer and then I painted it white.  I am going to paint it some other color eventually but I am going to wait and see what strikes me.  I should be painting now, but I don't really feel like it!  I will resume sometime this weekend I am sure!

I will be better about my blogging now.  Life gets in the way, you know?  But I am down 27 lbs.  At least I didn't quit my good eating habits!

Have a great day!

I hate to clean

There are some of you on here that enjoy cleaning. 

I am not one of them!

I really hate it.  But I do it cuz I love my family and living in filth will make them sick.  My kids' rooms are so spotless.  I am very happy.  My room looks awesome also!  I just had the steam cleaners here and they did a great job.  Well, from what I can tell...I don't want to walk on it yet so I haven't seen it all.

Here is the great news though...

I lost another 2 pounds!  Which is a damn miracle considering what I put in my mouth Valentine's Day.  My husband and I cooked a terrific dinner together which everyone enjoyed.  (My sis came over too...we had a great time!)  My sister was very helpful in that she took the rest of the cake home for us.  We couldn't have had that here.  I would have grabbed the bowl and a fork, and that would have been the end of that.

Since I already bought myself the Dyson (excellent vacuum by the way, almost as good as my Kirby) I didn't get a big gift, but my husband did surprise me with a couple of things.  He stopped at the store on his way home from work to get me some cream and when he walked in he was carrying that and his new bluetooth.  I was a little disappointed cuz I expected a card at least.  He went back outside and came back in with the most beautiful bouquet of roses.  I still love to look at them!  The other thing he did was tape a video message on his phone before work and send it to my inbox.  Isn't he wonderful????

Oh, and he fixed the back door.  What more can I ask for?

Here I am!

I gotta start exercising again.  I quit cuz of my foot and never restarted.

Shame on me. 

I didn't eat that great over the weekend.  Saturday I had a ChuckECheese party for my son's friend (I had 2 slices of pizza) and then I had a SmartOnes when I got home.  My daughters had a bday party for a neighbor and then I took them to the Hannah Montana 3-D movie at 8.  By the time I got out of there, I was STARVING!  I stopped and got pizza from Little Caesar's and ate 3 pieces!  At night!  Bob Greene would kill me.  I felt really bad when I was done, but that didn't stop me Sunday from watching portions and calories.  I have stayed the same all week, except that I keep weighing about 4 oz less that my last weigh in.  My husband just asked me when I was going to start exercising again, and I told him I will when I can get my recumbant bike brought back in.  The treadmill is not helping with healing my foot.

Okay.  Hannah Montana.  That little Miley Cyrus is the cutest thing imaginable.  I really hope that she stays the same.  I actually enjoyed the movie.  Disney really knows how to shell out money on 3-D.  My eldest daughter couldn't stay in her chair.  She sang the whole time and by the time it was over, she was standing and dancing.  It really upset me in a way, cuz I was one of those parents that was shafted by the scalpers who bought up all the tickets and sold them for ridiculous prices.  The only good thing that came out of that experience was that I toolk my girls to Chicago to go see "Wicked" instead.  Way cheaper, and now they are obsessed with that also.    All in all, I loved the Hannah Montana movie (my 4 yr old son sang along too) and I'm really glad I took them.  It really made them happy.

Valentine's Day is tomorrow.  Unfortunately, I won't be getting a gift because I already bought myself a Dyson this week.  It was on clearance at Target and I couldn't resist.  I almost bought the most expensive one (I paid for it at Kohl's only to find out they had to return my money cuz they didn't have one in the stockroom) but I'm glad I didn't.  The one I bought works AWESOME and I now don't feel silly for overpaying.  My husband had a point when I was going to spend $600 on a new vacuum (our old $1200 one is still good-a Kirby.  I just need one for the other floor of our house) that if it is a Dyson it is probably good!

Oh, and speaking of VDay, I am going to attempt to make steak au-poivre.  My husband requested it, but I will have a pizza coupon nearby if it doesn't work!  I bought small gifts for the kids and some No-Pudge brownies.  I hope to write Friday that it all went swimmingly!

Okay, I have to take my daughter to gymnastics soon.  I need to find her leotard before she gets home cuz we will have to leave right away.  I hope everyone has a love-filled Valentine's Day!

Another pound down

Another Banner Day!

I lost another pound. 

I think I've transferred my food addiction to a blogging/weighing myself addiction!  I will stop the every day weighing soon, but it just yields results it seems.

My girls seemed really happy for me this morning.  I was thinking of calling my mom and telling her too.  She will be happy also.

I was really proud of myself last night.  I made taco salad with extra lean turkey, nonfat sour cream, baked chips (I was only allotted 30 small ones!)  I even had nonfat refried beans with it.  I skipped the cheese (even though I could have a little if I wanted to.)  I only ate one helping, and that is the meal I normally eat until I can't get up.  My husband hugged me after I got up from the table and told me how proud of me he is.  I should note that he too is doing well.  I think he's lost like 10 pounds.

I took my son to the park yesterday.  I didn't really run around much.  I just sat on the bench and read my book.  Or talked on my cell.  (Reading is one of my favorite pasttimes I seemed to have to almost give up after I had kids!)   He had a great time due in part to one of the kids we saw there.  He found one of his friends from preschool and they played hard!  2 brothers, another boy and my son ran around kicking a soccer ball for quite a while.  My son was all red!  I love watching them get exercise.  To be honest with you all, I feel best about myself as a mother when I see my kids playing outside and having a good time.  I was thinking of pulling my girls out of school yesterday and letting them play too but I decided not to.  But then my husband called me around 3 as he was getting home and offered to yank them out then and bring them to play.  It was the most gorgeous day and we had a great time.  My daughters found some girl to play with and my youngest girl did one of her best cartwheels and handstands yet.  All in all, a wonderful afternoon.  We didn't even leave until after 4:30! 

This weekend coming up is going to be soooo busy.  I have to drive my father to Richmond, meet my husband at my daughter's soccer camp, take my kids to a ChuckECheese party and then back home to a neighbor's bday party.  Wow, and that is just Saturday.

I hear my dog calling me (or should I say barking uncontrollably) from outside.  She cannot believe I dared to leave her outside so long.  I like to annoy her as much as I can.  I love her, but she has been the bane of my existence for her whole life.  Someday when I have nothing to write about I will share with you the tales of the devil-dog.