This is going to be short and sweet but I feel if I don't check in, I will start to lose focus. Today I am feeling off. I'm not sure if it is because of TOM or my 40th birthday, or economic stress, but I am just not myself. I hope I can get over this soon because this feeling is not good. My parents are coming for a visit this afternoon so I will put on my happy face, and maybe that will help my mood.
Sorry to be such a downer today. Everyone, keep up the good work.
I got back to excercising yesterday. I did the cardio blast from Hip Hop ABs and really do like it. Today I did Leslie Sansones 5 mile DVD (for the first 2 miles). The first time I lost my weight, I did 2 miles of the Leslie Sansone tape for 2 miles 5 days a week. Between that and JC I averaged about a 2 pound loss per week. I started getting bored doing the same thing everyday, so this time around I am alternating between Leslie and Hip Hop abs. Maybe after a while I will incorporate a third DVD. (As long as it runs between 25-30 minutes).
I am sore but not unbeably sore. It's the kind of sore that makes you feel like you have accomplished something. Day 4 on JC and day 2 of excercise. So far so good.
One thing I worry about is making excuses about not excercising. I have to get myself better organized so I don't have any reason not to excercie. I am a teacher and have found that if I excercise on my plan time I do a better job, but of course work must come first.
I weighed in yesterday and discoverd I have gained back forty of the sixty pounds I lost.
I could look at it in two ways.
1) I'm fat, a failure, and a loser so why bother or,
2) It's a good things I started back before I gained all my weight back.
I choose the second. Although I have doubt running through my thoughts, I need to reprogram my self talk. I can do this, I will do this.
My goal for this week is to follow the eating plan, increase water intake and get some excercise in. Next week I hope to have an excercise schedule that will work for me.
For those of us who have lost only to gain some back, we must remember that we have been successful and we will be again. We must remember why we lost the first time and avoid that which made us gain. We can do it !!!!!!!
It has been over a year since me last post. Needless to say, my mind was not on weight loss. I was looking at pictures of myself and realized that I had gained back some of the weight that I had lost which is really disappointing. I was doing great. Excercising, watching what I was eating and the came the three dollar + gas prices and I could no longer afford JC. I guess I used that as an excuse not to follow what I had been taught. At first it was a little over-indulgance here and there and then they became more frequent.
Today is the day I start again. Instead of wallowing in the shame of getting off track, I will celebrate the fact that I have the courage to try again. I will be successful and I will fail. It is my hope that success comes more often. This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it!!!!
I must admit, I read more than I write. Everyone's stories are a real inspiration to me. What a great community of people EP has.
I am doing better following the plan, although tonight will be a little tougher. We have Student Led Conferences tonight, so I will be here for about 12 hours. The PTO is providing dinner from the Pasta house and I think the desserts are from the chef at Ameristar. (He has a child that goes here). For those of you who do not know what Student Led Conferences, I will explain them. The students (I teach Middle School) have put together a portfoio with an example of work from each one of their classes. They also have a objective and activity map from each class to help explain what we did first quarter. There are about 10 conferences going on in the same large room at a time, with the students leading the discussion with the parents and the teachers roam so they can answer a quick question and to make sure what the students are saying is accurate. (The parent can schedule a conference with the teacher at a later time, if they would like). The purpose is two-fold 1) To hold the students responsible for what they learn and 2) To increase the number of parents that can come. (With so many working parents, it is hard for everyone to be scheduled for the evening. We have been doing it this way for the past 4 years and it has had a great response. (Part of the conference time, the parents answer a short survey about how they felt about confernces and what we could do to improve them). Anyway, enough about that.
My DH started JC last week and lost 13 lbs. That is not unusual for men to do when they first start. It should even out soon and he should be losing about 1 - 2 lbs a week. I lost 3 lbs so I was happy about that. I am glad we are doing this together, and that he decided to lose weight. I find him extremely sexy the way he is, but I want him around for a long time and he is starting to show symptoms of being over weight. (Sleep apnea, high blood pressure, etc.) Don't get me wrong, I will find him Ultra Sexy when the weight comes off, and I think he will have more confidence in himself as well.
It seems that I have rambled enough and there are other blogs for everyone to read. Go browsing and get inspired if you are not inspired already.
I've Fallen and I can't get up ... On the Wagon that is
This month has been horrible with my diet. I have eaten rebelliously and am lucky I have not ballooned up. This week alone I have had a shake, 3 white castle cheeseburgers, at least 3 peanut butter cups, pbj sandwich, toast and I am sure there are other things. This is ON TOP of what I should be eating. Excercise, forget about it. I'm sure it is stress, but it is like I don't care enough about my weight. I wish I could pin point why my attitude has changed so I can deal with it and go on. I wish I could find my motivation again. Hopefully soon, so I don't undo all of the work I have put into it.
I did have one victory. I really wanted to go to the cafeteria and buy my lunch and not eat what I brought, but insted, I got on here, and read for inspiration. Keep up the good work.
Last week I was so good at sticking to the plan. Then my DH and I went on an "adventure day". He had no idea where we were going. Our day started out with a picnic, followed by a tour and boat ride at Meramec Caverns. We did a lot of walking, but we had KFC for lunch, ice cream cones after the tour and bought fudge for the "kids". (I think I ate most of it). After that we went to a place called Caveman Barbeque. The food was so-so, but it went with our cave themed day. The owners found this cave and when they did some digging found a dance floor in the cave. (I wonder if it used to be a speakeasy). They renovated it into a resturant. Anyway, since then, I have been eating like there was no tomorrow. Bad stuff too. Fudge, chips, cheese. It seems that if it is fattening, I am craving it and have no control. I am hoping this will pass soon. TOM came last Friday, and I hope is leaving soon.
I hope you all are doing better than I have this week.
Wow! It has been over 2 months since I have blogged. Let me start by saying, this summer was HELL!!! My new boss at the park and I have 2 totally different styles and personalities, and I could not stand being there. It ended up being so bad, that my doctor had to increase my depression medication, and wanted me to quit working there. I ended up working just a few days after that and am on "sabatical" until October. Anyway, it's not my career. Teaching is my career so it is time for me to move on.
With all of the stress of the summer, I was still able to lose about 20 lbs, so I am down almost 60lbs. I am feeling so much better, and much more confidant too. I start my Masters this Tuesday and can hardly wait. I also notice that since I have lost weight, I take better care of myself in other ways too. For example, I just refinanced our house. (I say I because I do all the bills. He does so much more around the house than I do, and is the best husband ever, so this arrangement works for us). I never would have had the confidence to go through such a process. I signed up for Adult Ballet, Jazz and Hip-Hop at my daughters dance studio. I also am doing little things like wearing earrings everyday. It makes me feel pretty, which is something I haven't felt in a long time.
I have been visiting other blogs for inspiration this week. Welcome to the new members. You will love this site. Take care all. I hope to blog more often.
I really miss having the time to check in everyday. Work is kicking my butt. (12 and a half hour day yesterday alone). I am still trying to get used to my new boss. At times she can be really nice and happy with the work we are doing, but most times, she doesn't even smile. She has a lot on her plate (some of which she could give to her supervisors) but since she is at the top, she sets the tone (And the tone is watch your back). I'm not really having as much fun this year and that makes me really sad. Part of that is her, and part of that is I miss my friends that I worked with in the office last year. One has a new job and I still get to see her at our daughters dance studio. The other was cast in one of our shows and that is what he needs to be doing. He was a great supervisor, but he is an amazing performer and I am so happy for him. I get to see him when I go check in on the cast but this year is just not the same. It makes me sad but that is the way life goes. Diet wise it has been so-so this week. My friend in the show came over on Wednesday and we drank way to much. (46 lbs makes a big difference whe you don't drink that much). Another challenge has been remembering to take my thyroid medicine everytime I eat at work which of course slows down my metabolism. I'm hoping the miles I walk each day will help offset that. Maybe if I leave notes all over the office, I will remember. My water intake is still not what I want it to be, but it is better than I thought it would be. I would like to lose 4 more pounds by June 21st. I leave for Florida that day. "Fifty by Florida" has a nice ring to it. I hope everyone out there is doing well. Drop my a line. Remember we are strong and we can do this.
With the end of the school year and the start of working full time at my other job, I have been major busy and extremely tired. My body aches from the waist down from all of the walking I am doing, so I hope I see some weight loss tomorrow at WI. I'm still trying to get on a schedule with my food and water at the new job and have done pretty well except for remebering my medicine. Hopefully, that will work itself out. I hope everyone is doing well. Hopefully I'll be able to check in a little more.
Bad stuff too. Fudge, chips, cheese. It seems that if it is fattening, I am craving it and have no control. I am hoping this will pass soon. TOM came last Friday, and I hope is leaving soon.