I called The Firm people again today. I got a different story, but I believe this one! The guy this time was not a rude little bitch like the last lady so I guess I trust him more. Turns out my package has been on backorder most of the month and that they just sent it out yesterday!!! It is supposed to get here the day before I move. Grand.
For all you ladies interested in The Firm, DO NOT order it directly from the company! They never told me it was on backorder or that it would take a full month to get here. I feel like such a dumbass because I didn't even think about going to Amazon.com or Target or Wal-Mart or whoever else may carry the product. It's probably cheaper at those places.
Mike's best friend is staying with us for a while. He's in the process of moving back to the US after being in Europe for years in the US special forces. This is going to be a HUGEchallenge with food. It doesn't sound like they are going to buy him groceries and we sure don't have any real food here, so every meal is going to be out at restaurants. My plan is to ask them to leave me at home during mealtimes, except for maybe once this week so I can have my weekly splurge on something good.
Thank you for checking up on me, TatumsMom. :) I'm still here. I wasn't sure what I'd write about this week so I kept myself hidden until today's WI.
114.8! That's down 3 pounds from last week. :) I don't think I've ever lost that much in one week being under 120 pounds. Given a lot of it is water weight, it still feels damn good.
It pays to stay 100% on plan! I was considering going overboard this week because I had these cravings for burgers and fries. On Saturday we went to a BBQ and I managed to stay there for all 4 hours without eating a burger or cake. There was a lot of cake and I must have looked at the white frosted one with the pink flowers about 100 times with longing. I told Mike I wanted a piece but that it looked so pretty and no one was cutting it. I didn't want to be the first one! In the end all I had was a few light drinks and a chocolate cookie.
I am DYING to get my TransFIRMer and TheFirm stuff in the mail. It shipped on the 6th and the website says to allow 10-15 business days. Plus they don't give you a tracking code so you can't find out where your package is. I'm going to harass them if I don't get it soon. I tried on Monday and the lady was so rude to me I could have reached through the phone and slapped her.
I was woken up this morning by the loudest thunder I've ever heard. I was groggy and just lying there when, a few seconds later I saw a big flash and heard an even louder clap of thunder. It scared me right out of bed!
I was even more surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning. Today it said 116.0. Yesterday it said 117.8 which is what accounted for the 1 pound gain. Talk about fluctuation!
I gained a pound. Funny little trend I have going this summer. Lose over a pound, gain a pound, lose that pound, lose a little more, gain another pound... Gotta say this is a trend that I'm not used to. I'm used to being successful almost all of the time. That was the first year and a half of this journey!
This summer has been a challenge with food because I'm not working. I spend a lot of boredom time thinking about food and eating it because I spend so much time thinking about it. Then on the days when I am out and about I spend so much time not eating that by the time I have time to eat I'm starving and eat too much.
I've upped my points to 20 per day to make me feel less like I have to be anorexic. I commit to some kind of exercise this week but I'm not obligating myself to a certain amount of days or AP's. If I do earn AP's I do not plan to eat them. I have finished all my ice cream in the freezer and do not have plans to buy more because it is my downfall.
Mike had a really good ice cream suggestion, though. My biggest problem is scooping just one serving of ice cream out of the tub. I always go for more and end up eating at least twice as much. Mike suggested I buy several little Gladware/Ziplock containers and scoop out individual servings to store in the fridge. This would totally work because it worked when I just ate one little WW ice cream dessert every night. Not a bad idea at all.
Jeebus, it shouldn't be allowed to be this hot in Washington! Ever! This is crazy stuff, man. According to the weather online it's only 92 degrees and rising. It's supposed to be 100 and breaking the record for Seattle. Maybe I'll just sweat off the last 7 pounds. One can dream.
I had an emotional brain burst yesterday and went off plan. I was so internally stressed that I got home at 5pm with a friend and immediately started making mixed drinks. Just me getting drunk, not our friend. By the time Mike got home I was pretty trashed and then I was like, "We should all go out and get Ben and Jerry's!" and Mike was like, "Yeah, and order pizza!" We ordered the pizza and just ended up eating whatever ice cream we had in the freezer. Not a good night for me.
This morning I woke up hungover and feeling like crap from the food. Naturally I felt guilty for being "bad". I went to the Alli website for what seems like the 50th time because I was desperate to see if it could just get the stupid weight off. Every time I read the facts about it and read the testimonials it makes me wonder why I would ever think about trying it.
No offense to anyone who is on it. If it is helping you then total kudos to you, seriously. I just don't think I could do it. I need some days where I can splurge on high fat foods without getting oily discharge or uncontrollable poopie.
For a while this morning (before going to the website) I just wanted something that would help me lose the weight faster and didn't care about the treatment effects. But aside from the treatment effects I learned a little about how the program works. I don't think I consume enough fat on a meal to meal basis for it to be useful. My meals usually have less than 5 grams of fat in them. I don't even eat meals, I eat small things all day long. An apple and a nonfat yogurt here, a mini bag of popcorn there...
That's just my personal situation, though. My problem is that there's always this little part of me, sitting in the back of my brain, curious to see what would happen if I tried it.
Anyway, I'm still not going to try Alli. I'm not overweight. I don't need the extra boost. I just need to strengthen my willpower!
Have a great SCORCHIN' week, talk to you again tomorrow!
The title of this post describes how I feel right now. I am disappointed that I didn't lose one pound but I am not discouraged because I worked really hard this week and eventually it will pay off. I was an angel and 100% on plan. I fulfilled all my goals, too. The result was a .4 loss and at least it was a loss.
I have been PMSing like crazy this past week and the bloating has been the worst I've ever felt/seen. Jeans that fit me at 120lbs could barely button.
Next week's weigh-in will be better. Here are the goals for this week:
Drink 70 ounces of water
Exercise 4-5 days
Eat all required fruits/veggies and milk
Stay on plan
Hopefully these goals are enough to lose the last 7 pounds. Eating only 18 points a day isn't much but it's what Weight Watchers recommends for me.
On another note, how was everyone's 4th of July? We sat outside on the grass and watched a professional fireworks show on the water. They are always so impressive.
I also got hired last week as a high school teacher! I will be teaching the same reading program (Read Right) as my last school.
Well the hard work paid off and I lost 1.6. I lost what I had gained the previous week! Now I plan to keep the same focus. We don't have any plans these next 7 days except for looking at a wedding venue so there shouldn't be a problem.
This week I will keep the same goals I did last week because I was able to achieve them. 4 days of exercise, all fruits/veggies/dairy/water.
Time to go check on all of you. Hope you are having a good week!
The whole family on Mike's side (8 of us) went to Safeco Feild to see the Mariners. The Mariners won to the Reds by one point. Good for them because they've been sucking. It was mixed emotions here in Seattle because Griffey hit a couple homeruns for the Reds and Seattle couldn't help but cheer. haha It's funny because the only two points scored for his team were the homeruns that he hit.
I am so proud of myself thus far this week. On Saturday we went to a coach-pitch little kiddie baseball game and then went out to Thai food. I got half a plate of pad thai with tofu. Today at the Mariners game I ate a FiberOne chewy bar and 6 shelled peanuts. Go my team!!! I will still have 26 flex points left tomorrow!
I was frustrated at the Mariners game, though. I wanted to get one junky food item and couldn't make up my mind. I didn't get anything because I just couldn't think of anything I wanted that was worth the points.
Everyone else around me were eating burgers, garlic fries, personal pizzas and beer. It made me really upset that everyone else got to eat like crap and I didn't. It really put a damper on my mood for the entire game! Isn't that sad? It is so hard to control the emotions that go with me not getting my way in regards to food. I was so angry and jealous of all those other people. Mike brought up a really good point afterwards. He said I am paying for last week's gain right now. I am trying to lose weight unlike most of those other people at the game.
I had a gain but it was expected. Before I stepped on the scale I told my WW leader that I deserved whatever I got. So I gained 1.6 pounds.
I was not controlling my portion sizes at all. Ice cream played a big role in that one. Every night I had 3 scoops of ice cream. I would count three scoops as 2 points when I know that each scoop alone is really 2 points. Sometimes I even had 3 scoops and then went back for 2-3 more scoops in the same evening.
I really need to step it up. Seriously, guys. I am slacking off! This week I WILL -
Drink 70 ounces of water per day
Eat all my fruits and veggies
Eat all my dairy
Exercise 4 days this week
Stay on plan
Be honest about my points and portion sizes
I hope everyone is having a wonderful week! I am feeling positive and I know I can stop with the ice cream addiction!
Yes, this is now the middle of my week for food. It's time to be a little more accountable. I haven't been all that good this week. For the last two weeks I will tell you that I have not stayed 100% on plan with eating. I have delved into my flex points by almost 50 points rather than the allowed 35. This week isn't any different but I'm hoping by writing this I will stay accountable and work harder to eat when I'm hungry instead of eating when I'm BORED.
I do have to say things have been so much better since I stopped using my home scale. No more stress about weight! Also, the official weigh-in at Weight Watchers is so much more exciting because it's the only time I ever see my weight.
This is the last full week of school! Then we have a half-day on Monday and it will be time for a break. Many people who aren't teachers complain about us getting summer break, but what they don't understand is that we will have a mental breakdown if we don't. In fact, several of my college friends who are special education teachers are not even sure they want to do this anymore. One of them already had a real breakdown and had to resign early. The interesting thing is that the general education teachers who I am friends with seem to be doing pretty well when it comes to their mental health. *sigh* Ok, enough about that.
Penny is doing really well. She's at about 90% health. Poor baby, I'm just glad she's alive and well.
One can dream.
The interesting thing is that the general education teachers who I am friends with seem to be doing pretty well when it comes to their mental health. *sigh* Ok, enough about that.