Jeebus, it shouldn't be allowed to be this hot in Washington! Ever! This is crazy stuff, man. According to the weather online it's only 92 degrees and rising. It's supposed to be 100 and breaking the record for Seattle. Maybe I'll just sweat off the last 7 pounds. One can dream.
I had an emotional brain burst yesterday and went off plan. I was so internally stressed that I got home at 5pm with a friend and immediately started making mixed drinks. Just me getting drunk, not our friend. By the time Mike got home I was pretty trashed and then I was like, "We should all go out and get Ben and Jerry's!" and Mike was like, "Yeah, and order pizza!" We ordered the pizza and just ended up eating whatever ice cream we had in the freezer. Not a good night for me.
This morning I woke up hungover and feeling like crap from the food. Naturally I felt guilty for being "bad". I went to the Alli website for what seems like the 50th time because I was desperate to see if it could just get the stupid weight off. Every time I read the facts about it and read the testimonials it makes me wonder why I would ever think about trying it.
No offense to anyone who is on it. If it is helping you then total kudos to you, seriously. I just don't think I could do it. I need some days where I can splurge on high fat foods without getting oily discharge or uncontrollable poopie.
For a while this morning (before going to the website) I just wanted something that would help me lose the weight faster and didn't care about the treatment effects. But aside from the treatment effects I learned a little about how the program works. I don't think I consume enough fat on a meal to meal basis for it to be useful. My meals usually have less than 5 grams of fat in them. I don't even eat meals, I eat small things all day long. An apple and a nonfat yogurt here, a mini bag of popcorn there...
That's just my personal situation, though. My problem is that there's always this little part of me, sitting in the back of my brain, curious to see what would happen if I tried it.
Anyway, I'm still not going to try Alli. I'm not overweight. I don't need the extra boost. I just need to strengthen my willpower!
Have a great SCORCHIN' week, talk to you again tomorrow!
The title of this post describes how I feel right now. I am disappointed that I didn't lose one pound but I am not discouraged because I worked really hard this week and eventually it will pay off. I was an angel and 100% on plan. I fulfilled all my goals, too. The result was a .4 loss and at least it was a loss.
I have been PMSing like crazy this past week and the bloating has been the worst I've ever felt/seen. Jeans that fit me at 120lbs could barely button.
Next week's weigh-in will be better. Here are the goals for this week:
Drink 70 ounces of water
Exercise 4-5 days
Eat all required fruits/veggies and milk
Stay on plan
Hopefully these goals are enough to lose the last 7 pounds. Eating only 18 points a day isn't much but it's what Weight Watchers recommends for me.
On another note, how was everyone's 4th of July? We sat outside on the grass and watched a professional fireworks show on the water. They are always so impressive.
I also got hired last week as a high school teacher! I will be teaching the same reading program (Read Right) as my last school.
Well the hard work paid off and I lost 1.6. I lost what I had gained the previous week! Now I plan to keep the same focus. We don't have any plans these next 7 days except for looking at a wedding venue so there shouldn't be a problem.
This week I will keep the same goals I did last week because I was able to achieve them. 4 days of exercise, all fruits/veggies/dairy/water.
Time to go check on all of you. Hope you are having a good week!
The whole family on Mike's side (8 of us) went to Safeco Feild to see the Mariners. The Mariners won to the Reds by one point. Good for them because they've been sucking. It was mixed emotions here in Seattle because Griffey hit a couple homeruns for the Reds and Seattle couldn't help but cheer. haha It's funny because the only two points scored for his team were the homeruns that he hit.
I am so proud of myself thus far this week. On Saturday we went to a coach-pitch little kiddie baseball game and then went out to Thai food. I got half a plate of pad thai with tofu. Today at the Mariners game I ate a FiberOne chewy bar and 6 shelled peanuts. Go my team!!! I will still have 26 flex points left tomorrow!
I was frustrated at the Mariners game, though. I wanted to get one junky food item and couldn't make up my mind. I didn't get anything because I just couldn't think of anything I wanted that was worth the points.
Everyone else around me were eating burgers, garlic fries, personal pizzas and beer. It made me really upset that everyone else got to eat like crap and I didn't. It really put a damper on my mood for the entire game! Isn't that sad? It is so hard to control the emotions that go with me not getting my way in regards to food. I was so angry and jealous of all those other people. Mike brought up a really good point afterwards. He said I am paying for last week's gain right now. I am trying to lose weight unlike most of those other people at the game.
I had a gain but it was expected. Before I stepped on the scale I told my WW leader that I deserved whatever I got. So I gained 1.6 pounds.
I was not controlling my portion sizes at all. Ice cream played a big role in that one. Every night I had 3 scoops of ice cream. I would count three scoops as 2 points when I know that each scoop alone is really 2 points. Sometimes I even had 3 scoops and then went back for 2-3 more scoops in the same evening.
I really need to step it up. Seriously, guys. I am slacking off! This week I WILL -
Drink 70 ounces of water per day
Eat all my fruits and veggies
Eat all my dairy
Exercise 4 days this week
Stay on plan
Be honest about my points and portion sizes
I hope everyone is having a wonderful week! I am feeling positive and I know I can stop with the ice cream addiction!
Yes, this is now the middle of my week for food. It's time to be a little more accountable. I haven't been all that good this week. For the last two weeks I will tell you that I have not stayed 100% on plan with eating. I have delved into my flex points by almost 50 points rather than the allowed 35. This week isn't any different but I'm hoping by writing this I will stay accountable and work harder to eat when I'm hungry instead of eating when I'm BORED.
I do have to say things have been so much better since I stopped using my home scale. No more stress about weight! Also, the official weigh-in at Weight Watchers is so much more exciting because it's the only time I ever see my weight.
This is the last full week of school! Then we have a half-day on Monday and it will be time for a break. Many people who aren't teachers complain about us getting summer break, but what they don't understand is that we will have a mental breakdown if we don't. In fact, several of my college friends who are special education teachers are not even sure they want to do this anymore. One of them already had a real breakdown and had to resign early. The interesting thing is that the general education teachers who I am friends with seem to be doing pretty well when it comes to their mental health. *sigh* Ok, enough about that.
Penny is doing really well. She's at about 90% health. Poor baby, I'm just glad she's alive and well.
This has been a busy busy week so I'm sorry I haven't been around. I managed to get to my WI yesterday and I lost 1.4 pounds this week!
The 4 day weekend that Mike and I took was great. We were able to find some apartments that we plan to move into in Bellevue, WA. We are still waiting for the paperwork to go through.
The night before last we found our ferret Penny looking really ill. She was having convulsions so we figured she was going to die. Luckily she pulled through the night and we got her into a vet. It sounds like she may have a dehydration issue. I had no idea that you could inject water right underneath the skin like that. It was the strangest and grossest thing to see. I hate needles, especially big giant ones. She is sleeping a lot but she is looking better.
Anyhow, my loving fiance just gave me a shot and chaser and I'm starting to feel it so it's time to go. Have a great weekend!
118.6! Yay! That's a 1.6 pound loss for the week. I did pretty well with eating, like I said before. My concern had been that I was not fully on plan with the points. I did manage to track everything (well, almost, except for the mini Reece's PB Cups I ate last night ). In the end I was off-plan by about 20 points. My conclusion is that I was eating a little too much ice cream for dessert every night.
Here are my goals for this week:
Drink at least 6 8oz glasses of water every day
Eat 5 servings of fruits/veggies every day
Eat only one serving of low-cal/low-fat ice cream each night instead of two
Do 3 days of exercise for 30 minutes each session
This will be my first week back on exercising so I want to start with something obtainable.
On the job-front I found out that I did not get considered for the job I interviewed for. It sucks but it's ok. It's my first time being rejected. I am applying my guts out at every district in my area so something should work out by next fall.
Today is my "Friday" because I took a 4-day weekend. We are supposed to be going camping but it's also supposed to be rainy so we are iffy on that idea! At least we don't have to work either way!
Hey it's Tuesday! In two more days it will officially be my weekend. Mike and I took Friday and Monday off work so we will have a fun 4-day camping weekend. We're going to a large lake on the peninsula with a group of people. It's a good thing because I think I'm mentally done with this school year. I don't think my brain has the capacity to deal with all the stress because when I get home I don't exercise and instead have a couple glasses of wine. We get out on the 25th. 3 more weeks, let's just get through 3 more weeks.
This past weekend was absolutely wonderful. The weather was hot and sunny so we went out for a ride on the motorcycle. Mike was thinking about selling his blue Suzuki M50 but I'm glad he didn't. We went to the nearby motorcycle warehouse and bought some nice new leathers. I was so excited because mine is white and light blue and I got a matching helmet. It's the light blue one to match the jacket. Yay! So we went riding for both days, visited my sister and looked at some apartments. We also played some Guitar Hero and Bocce Ball.
I am making note of all this stuff because our normal routine is to sit on the couch or at our computers all day. It was a refreshing change.
I weigh in on Thursday and I'm a little bit off-plan. I will work harder next week but overall I feel like I've been good. No binging or overeating. The no exercise thing might be a problem, though. I bought some new workout outfits to encourage myself to get up and move.
The interview went OK, I think. I'm not sure whether or not a did well because I was really nervous and I know it showed. I felt like I answered a lot of the questions very well but locked up on a couple. They will be getting back to me in a week and I don't know if I can wait that long! I guess there's no choice in the matter.
I'm doing well with food. I put myself on 18 points per day and eating when I'm hungry, aside from a little frozen yogurt at the end of the night. I've delved into the flex points over the past two days because 18 points is not much at all and it's very hard not to feel hungry a lot of the time. My stomach also needs to "shrink back down" a little bit more from last week.
One can dream.
The interesting thing is that the general education teachers who I am friends with seem to be doing pretty well when it comes to their mental health. *sigh* Ok, enough about that.
). In the end I was off-plan by about 20 points. My conclusion is that I was eating a little too much ice cream for dessert every night.