I like this new design thing EP has done! So far so good.
I also changed a couple things.
First, I love you all! Ok, here it is. I decided to take down my friends list altogether because there's just too many and I wanted to clean up the look of the blog. I have been using my RSS feed to check up on you. So don't worry, I will keep popping onto your blogs just like normal.
Second, check out my new pics! I have 2 albums now so I added some stuff.
Today was a half-day at school so I went out to Applebees for lunch with the special ed department. I ordered the grilled shrimp skewer salad like a good little girl! I'm still 100% on plan this week and feeling really good about everything I've been doing.
I've officially chosen to only go to WW meetings once or twice a month. I will still be going to stay accountable, just not as often to save myself the boredom and lost time.
This last week and weekend I re-experienced what it was like before learning to eat better. It started with my 35 flex points and turned into almost 100. I'm not really worried about what it will do to my body, but I do want to get it all out on my blog like some kind of confession just to get it off my back!
Here is what happened last week:
Wednesday - I used all of my weekly flex points on 1/2 a cheese stuffed crust Digiorno pepperoni pizza and a whole pint of Ben & Jerry's Phish Food frozen yogurt.
Thursday - I had 3 1/2 home-made soft tacos with beef, reduced fat cheese and refried beans, then ate a whole other pint of Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia frozen yogurt. No flex points were left for any of this in the first place.
Saturday - Shared a Rajun Cajun chicken burger (deep fried chicken smothered in buffalo sauce, topped with pepperjack cheese) with steak fries from Red Robin. Had a Tropical Mai Thai with that! Then we went next door to Cold Stone Ice Cream where my boyfriend watched me eat a whole Love It sized Cake Batter ice cream filled with M&M's and gummi bears. It was HUGE and I ate every last bite.
On top of all that I ate my 20 points a day as well as some other extras on top of that. It was bad because I went back to not really watching what I ate. I figured since I already used all my flex points why not just eat whatever I wanted the rest of the week? I did write down everything, however. That is what helped me realize exactly how much I needed to get back on track.
So there it is and I'm putting it behind me!!!
This is truly a new week and I have been doing flawlessly today. So far it's 6:30pm and I've exercised worth 3 activity points, drank over 100 oz. of water and still have 10 points left for the evening.
Serious goal for the week: Keep my hands out of the candy drawer at school! That's enough of those mini bags of M&M's and bite-sized Twix bars.
Ever since last Monday's WW meeting I've been seriously considering only going when my mom does. She only goes about once a month because she travels for work and I feel that the only time I enjoy it is when she's there. When she's not I'm just bored and feeling awkward all alone. Sure, there are a few other people there who I know, but they aren't always at every meeting.
I've also seen all these meetings last year. At the beginning of the year they just start the same exact classes over again so there's very little orginality, plus the Lifetime members don't have much to work with in the first place. The best we get is that every meeting our leader eventually says, "Stand up if you're Lifetime and at goal!" Then we all stand up awkwardly and people clap for us.
It's fun to be praised every once and a while, especially when they ask us questions and want to know what has worked for us. But the most that ever happens anymore is she has us stand up every single week and that's kind of annoying and not really useful for the rest of the group. There's no input for those who are still losing weight and no input for how Lifetime members can continue to be successful, either.
I'm finding that using this blog has been helping me far more because I can literally talk about ALL of my weight-woes and weight-successes and get real feedback. I think I will back off from the WW meetings except for the once a month weigh-in and see how things go.
I have a question for anyone out there, be it experts or those who have researched this. What should my target heart rate range be? My Polar F4 monitor says it should be between 127 and 167. I just want to be as accurate as possible. Often times I work at a "high intensity" and am in the 170's. Should I be concerned about my heart by doing this? Any help with this would be awesome.
If you need any extra info about me let me know. I am pretty sure my resting heart rate is 69-70 on average. I am 110.2 pounds and in shape.
Ok, I just finished eating a whole Butterfinger and just had to say it was GLORIOUS! I haven't eaten a candy bar in years. For such a rare occasion, 6 points seems very reasonable for it. One of my students was so sweet as to hand it to me in the beginning of 3rd period today. I don't normally eat foods that kids give me at school, but it's a wrapped candy bar.
Neato, I decided to step on the scale at Weight Watchers this afternoon and it's a 2.6 pound loss! That's after 3 weeks or so. I got my 75-pound milestone at my meeting today!!! That felt good. The lady who weighed me in got confused when she saw 110.2 on the scale and 137 as my official goal weight. I had to explain that 137 was the highest healthy weight and I was aiming for the lower end.
This is off-topic. Yesterday we went to the mall to get Mike a nice new pair of shades. I've never spent more than $12 on a pair for myself, but fell in LOVE with this pair of Versaces. So after taking a long time to think about it I splurged and bought them. I guess Halle Barry wore them, pretty neato. Check them out!
I have a confession to make. I haven't been fully truthful with myself or my journal every day. It's only the difference of a few points but still.
Almost every day I eat a baked potato and an apple. According to the WW food book an apple is usually 1 point. That's for a small apple, but the apples I eat are twice as large and my WW food scale says they're worth 2 points. I've been counting them as 1, even though I have always known that they are worth 2 points.
Also with the potato. The WW food book says a small potato is worth about 3 points. A baked potato on the WW food scale says mine are worth 5 points. Well duh, considering they are also twice the size of the average potato. These things are BIG. One will fill me up for the night.
While I'm in the confession booth, I might as well mention that I may not always be accurate when counting out a serving of chips or a serving of dry cereal. I usually add a few extra chips and overflow the cereal in the cup.
The point is, it's time to be more honest with myself. I feel like I'm doing myself a disservice by not counting these extra 5 or 6 points a day. My weight is not suffering but in the end it's better not to cheat while doing the program.
I'm feeling much better in mood today but am still disappointed with the fluctuations I've been seeing on the scale, only because I've never seen my body fluctuate to this extent. Since TOM began I've gained 3 pounds (which is a lot for me) and it's been raising on a daily basis, not going down and up and down and up. I'm hoping it is just water because I have been feeling like a bloated cow.
Tonight I am just going to try something new just to see how it goes. I usually eat food all the way up to the time my head hits the pillow at night. Tonight I'm going to stop eating 2 hours before bed. So when American Idol starts, no more food. If I don't like it or get too hungry then I'll just stop doing it. Experimenting is good occasionally, right?
I would venture to say that this is the worst case of PMS I've ever had in my life. I've never had it bad at all, just minor cramps. Since the weekend I've been Miss UberBitch. I am being such a bitch and it's like I can't stop myself. I've had worse cramps, cravings and headaches. Today I was supposed to go to my WW meeting but decided not to because I'm feeling so pissy. Even though I don't usually work out on Mondays because of my WW meeting, I made the excuse that I shouldn't have to exercise because I'm so pissy. lol Rar. I can't wait for next week because I am not myself right now.
I hope no one else is going through the same hell.
I had to explain that 137 was the highest healthy weight and I was aiming for the lower end.
I've had worse cramps, cravings and headaches. Today I was supposed to go to my WW meeting but decided not to because I'm feeling so pissy. Even though I don't usually work out on Mondays because of my WW meeting, I made the excuse that I shouldn't have to exercise because I'm so pissy. lol Rar. I can't wait for next week because I am not myself right now.