Loss

This has been a busy busy week so I'm sorry I haven't been around.  I managed to get to my WI yesterday and I lost 1.4 pounds this week!

The 4 day weekend that Mike and I took was great.  We were able to find some apartments that we plan to move into in Bellevue, WA.  We are still waiting for the paperwork to go through.

The night before last we found our ferret Penny looking really ill.  She was having convulsions so we figured she was going to die.  Luckily she pulled through the night and we got her into a vet.  It sounds like she may have a dehydration issue.  I had no idea that you could inject water right underneath the skin like that.  It was the strangest and grossest thing to see.  I hate needles, especially big giant ones.  She is sleeping a lot but she is looking better.

Anyhow, my loving fiance just gave me a shot and chaser and I'm starting to feel it so it's time to go.  Have a great weekend!

Results

118.6!  Yay!  That's a 1.6 pound loss for the week.  I did pretty well with eating, like I said before.  My concern had been that I was not fully on plan with the points.  I did manage to track everything (well, almost, except for the mini Reece's PB Cups I ate last night ).  In the end I was off-plan by about 20 points.  My conclusion is that I was eating a little too much ice cream for dessert every night.

Here are my goals for this week:

Drink at least 6 8oz glasses of water every day

Eat 5 servings of fruits/veggies every day

Eat only one serving of low-cal/low-fat ice cream each night instead of two

Do 3 days of exercise for 30 minutes each session

This will be my first week back on exercising so I want to start with something obtainable.

On the job-front I found out that I did not get considered for the job I interviewed for.  It sucks but it's ok.  It's my first time being rejected.  I am applying my guts out at every district in my area so something should work out by next fall.

Today is my "Friday" because I took a 4-day weekend.  We are supposed to be going camping but it's also supposed to be rainy so we are iffy on that idea!  At least we don't have to work either way!

Update

Hey it's Tuesday!  In two more days it will officially be my weekend.  Mike and I took Friday and Monday off work so we will have a fun 4-day camping weekend.  We're going to a large lake on the peninsula with a group of people.  It's a good thing because I think I'm mentally done with this school year.  I don't think my brain has the capacity to deal with all the stress because when I get home I don't exercise and instead have a couple glasses of wine.  We get out on the 25th.  3 more weeks, let's just get through 3 more weeks.

This past weekend was absolutely wonderful.  The weather was hot and sunny so we went out for a ride on the motorcycle.  Mike was thinking about selling his blue Suzuki M50 but I'm glad he didn't.  We went to the nearby motorcycle warehouse and bought some nice new leathers.  I was so excited because mine is white and light blue and I got a matching helmet.  It's the light blue one to match the jacket.  Yay!  So we went riding for both days, visited my sister and looked at some apartments.  We also played some Guitar Hero and Bocce Ball.  

I am making note of all this stuff because our normal routine is to sit on the couch or at our computers all day.  It was a refreshing change.

I weigh in on Thursday and I'm a little bit off-plan.  I will work harder next week but overall I feel like I've been good.  No binging or overeating.  The no exercise thing might be a problem, though.  I bought some new workout outfits to encourage myself to get up and move.

I hope everyone is doing well this week!

Interview

The interview went OK, I think.  I'm not sure whether or not a did well because I was really nervous and I know it showed.  I felt like I answered a lot of the questions very well but locked up on a couple.  They will be getting back to me in a week and I don't know if I can wait that long!  I guess there's no choice in the matter.

I'm doing well with food.  I put myself on 18 points per day and eating when I'm hungry, aside from a little frozen yogurt at the end of the night.  I've delved into the flex points over the past two days because 18 points is not much at all and it's very hard not to feel hungry a lot of the time.  My stomach also needs to "shrink back down" a little bit more from last week.

Results

I was pleasantly surprised when I stepped on the scale at WW this afternoon and it said 120.2.  Yes, it is 10 pounds more than I used to be and 5 pounds more than the last time I officially weighed in.  I am happy because I ate so much food that I was sure I would be around 128-130 or so.  That was my guess and I did not feel that it was unrealistic because my clothes are now tight on me rather than loose.

Anyhow, I have 10 pounds to lose and am excited to get working on this!  My new meeting was very very small which I am not used to, but it's fine with me.  The leader is really nice and I was especially happy with the fact that he tells us that he has struggles, too.  My last leader didn't talk about her own struggles much, at least not in the way this guy did.  He was more than happy to admit that he is an emotional eater and the types of things he has eaten, including full pints of Ben and Jerry's frozen yogurt.  It made me feel like I could relate.

Hope everyone is having a good week.  I have an interview for a resource teaching job tomorrow afternoon so wish me luck!

Square Two?

Time to get real.  I spent over a whole week eating crap, crap and more crap.  My conclusion in the end is that it wasn't just stress but it had to be something else.  I was going out of my way to eat fast food every day.  I reverted to the old Leanne who was nearly 190 pounds, eating pizza and french fries and ice cream.  Once last week I ate so much I literally burst.  My stomach couldn't hold all the food I had shoved into it.  Exercise?  Nonexistent.

It was deprivation.  Not calorie-deprivation, just not feeling like I was ever going to be "allowed" to eat junk food and all the yummy stuff.  Sometimes it seems like it's all or nothing.  What a silly thing to think.  I know the real truth is that we can eat our favorite foods as long as it's in moderation.

I haven't been to Weight Watchers in over a month so I haven't been holding myself accountable for anything.  I stopped stepping on the scale altogether.  I have arranged to go to a Weight Watchers meeting on Thursdays that is 10 minutes away.  My normal meetings are an hour away (near where I work) so it's like the last place I ever want to go because it means I have to stay late at work and get home hours later.  Now it will be way more convenient and I will go every single week.  The home scale is going to continue to be stored away unused.

It's not really going back to Square 1 but more like Square 2 because I have the healthy eating habits within me and the experience I need to keep moving forward.  I don't plan to start back up with exercise for a while until I can get the eating under control.  This week the focus is listening to my stomach and only eating when I am hungry.  No more snacking all day long.  It will just be eating small meals when hungry and a couple snacks in between.  It seems like the right thing to do.  Ocasionally a yummy treat in moderation is also part of the plan.

A New Week

Hello!  How is the EP world doing?  Life is ok here.  I can't wait for school to get out but we still have another month left.  The kids are great but I am having problems with the staff. 

I am getting tidbits of information indirectly through passive-aggressive means where no one is actually telling me what the deal is but are making passing comments and it's just plain immature.  It's downright junior-high-level.  Maybe it's because we work in a junior high school.

There is this clique of special education paras and teachers that get together often, like every day, and chat as friends.  I had always hoped I wouldn't end up being the topic of conversation for any reason but it's sounding more and more like my own para has a problem and she won't even tell me what it is.  How am I supposed to operate my classroom if my own para can't tell me that she needs something from me?  Instead she goes and tells the "Old Ninnies Breakfast Club"?  It's frustrating to say the least.

It has left me so stressed out that I have been self-destructive with food so far this week.  Hopefully I will get out of this slump soon and get back to it but for now I am just trying to go home and relax.  If relaxing means drinking a Mike-arita, eating Mac and Cheese and reading a book on the couch, so be it.

On the good side of things, Idol is on tonight!  I can't wait to find out who wins tomorrow.

Moody Friday

I'm glad it's Friday.  I'm moody as hell, though.  It's that stupid scale.  It needs to be thrown away or pulled out no more than once a week.  I just want to throw it across the bathroom in the mornings.  Yesterday I was happy to see 112.4 instead of 114.5, but this morning it said 116.0.  TOM is just getting over with so I know it's not that.  I'm drinking all my water, exercising and being a perfect angel with food.  That is why I am so frusterated.  My body used to be predictable and now I feel like I have no control whatsoever.  Maybe being 110 pounds is no longer obtainable for my age...

For the next week my goal is to stop getting on the scale every morning and reduce it to once a week.  It is affecting my mood way too much. 

My 25th birthday is tomorrow and for some reason I am really not excited about it.  Birthdays used to be so much fun.  We don't get to celebrate tomorrow because my friend is getting married in the afternoon.  My family will celebrate on Sunday at Jimmy Mac's Roadhouse so there's more yummy food to break me apart.  I definitely don't want to celebrate my birthday with fruits and veggies.

Sorry for the venting!  I really do hope that all of you have a good weekend!

Sample

I tried this sample at Starbuck's this morning.  It's raspberry swirl bread.  It was heavenly.  So heavenly that I will never eat it again because I can't imagine what the nutrition facts could be.  It has this white frosting on top and wow it's so good...

Today was an incredibly stressful day.  You'd be surprised how much energy ONE kid can take out of you.  Out of every teacher who comes in contact with him, which is scary.  Think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts.

On the way home it took me an extra 20-30 minutes because of a bad traffic jam so by the time I made it home I was so stressed out that I decided not to exercise.  I will get it done over the next 3 days, especially because I want to rack up AP's to eat over the weekend.  I also know that exercise would have de-stressed me today but I am choosing to dwell.

It's Friday tomorrow!  Yay!

Where Did the Time Go?

How's it going?

I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while.  I haven't even checked up on anyone since the weekend.   Right now our weekends are jam-packed and during the week we have been gaming like crazy people.  My fiance and I are both video game addicts, we have been since long before we met each other.  I guess that's part of what makes us such a great match.  Not only have we been playing our PSP's, but we recently bought the new Lord of the Rings MMORPG.  Another new online game to obsess over.

On the EP-front, I've been doing great with food and exercise so far.  Not a single slip-up.  I also went out and bought some new fruits and potatoes.  Usually it's just apples and russet potatoes.  Now I have sweet potatoes which I microwave and sprinkle with cinnamon.  I also bought some grapes, raspberries and strawberries.  It's been so much better eating those than eating all that other processed stuff.  I'm disappointed that my weight isn't going anywhere, though.  It's a little discouraging but I'm still hopeful.  There isn't a single reason why my weight shouldn't be dropping right now.

Anyway, I hope everyone is having a great week and I hope to find time to check up on you after my workout today.  For now I have a parent meeting to attend.