HEAT

Jeebus, it shouldn't be allowed to be this hot in Washington!  Ever!  This is crazy stuff, man.  According to the weather online it's only 92 degrees and rising.  It's supposed to be 100 and breaking the record for Seattle.  Maybe I'll just sweat off the last 7 pounds.   One can dream.

I had an emotional brain burst yesterday and went off plan.  I was so internally stressed that I got home at 5pm with a friend and immediately started making mixed drinks.  Just me getting drunk, not our friend.  By the time Mike got home I was pretty trashed and then I was like, "We should all go out and get Ben and Jerry's!" and Mike was like, "Yeah, and order pizza!"  We ordered the pizza and just ended up eating whatever ice cream we had in the freezer.  Not a good night for me.

This morning I woke up hungover and feeling like crap from the food.  Naturally I felt guilty for being "bad".  I went to the Alli website for what seems like the 50th time because I was desperate to see if it could just get the stupid weight off.  Every time I read the facts about it and read the testimonials it makes me wonder why I would ever think about trying it.

No offense to anyone who is on it.  If it is helping you then total kudos to you, seriously.  I just don't think I could do it.  I need some days where I can splurge on high fat foods without getting oily discharge or uncontrollable poopie.

For a while this morning (before going to the website) I just wanted something that would help me lose the weight faster and didn't care about the treatment effects.  But aside from the treatment effects I learned a little about how the program works.  I don't think I consume enough fat on a meal to meal basis for it to be useful.  My meals usually have less than 5 grams of fat in them.  I don't even eat meals, I eat small things all day long.  An apple and a nonfat yogurt here, a mini bag of popcorn there...

That's just my personal situation, though.  My problem is that there's always this little part of me, sitting in the back of my brain, curious to see what would happen if I tried it.

Anyway, I'm still not going to try Alli.  I'm not overweight.  I don't need the extra boost.  I just need to strengthen my willpower!

Have a great SCORCHIN' week, talk to you again tomorrow!

Last night

Sounds like fun.  Maybe just the stress reliever you were needing.  I think if you just don't make it a habit, you'll be fine.  And you don't need Alli.  Look how far you've come on your own.  You can do it.  You're right, you're not overweight.  You can do this!

Thats so good

I thinks that is good that you got to experience the 'nasty'  food hangover!  BTW~ I had pizza for dinner!  LOL~~Kimby~

I agree

I so totally agree with you about the Alli.  I have been sitting on the fence with it since it came out, what... a month ago??  Kudos and good luck to the members that are taking it - keep up the great work!

Looking still at 110 lbs to go, I would kill to accelerate the loss, but then I think.... but what about those times I just "HAVE" to have pizza, ice cream, etc??

Something is working and until it isn't, I am very hesistant (sp?) to make that change.

Hang in there hon - whatever you are going through stress-wise, etc will pass.  Just keep trying!!

(( Hugs ))

Kelly