Weight Loss in December

I could just just bust with pride over the weight loss I've experienced so far this month. I really need to dig my heels in though. Going to my parents house for Christmas.

OH, Here comes the tough part. My mother, who has been 'on a diet' all of her life does not want me to lose any more weight.  A week ago she saw me in my wedding dress and was shocked by how much weight I'd lost. 

I believe the woman is terrified of weight loss. I'm still overweight according to doctors charts. Yet, "Don't lose anymore weight!" is what Mom says to me. I don't want to ruin Christmas, I don't want this to turn into a therapist's couch trip ... I need to get myself together before I go home. I need a polite way to say, "I promise not to lose another pound if you can name one person in our family who has had health complications as a result of being too thin."

Everyone in my mother's family dies from lifestyle. Either heart, stroke or Diabetes (Type II, of course!).

I want to say, "I'm sorry, I didn't realize I looked so sickly and unattractive." (Baby, I'm 125lbs of pure muscle, curves and colour. My eyes are shining, my hair is healthy, my energy knows no bounds and I'm RIPPED!)

Why is my mother afraid that I'll look good and not have her diabetes issues? Why do I need to pad my internal organs with fat to make her happy? WHY can't I say this to her and get away with it?

I can't change my mother. I can change only the way I react to my mother. OH I JUST WANT TO KICK MY MOTHER in the PANTS! And my brother,too, while I'm at it! 

But those are fantasies. I must control m urges. I'm going to be in my mother's house for only 4 days. I can do this. I can steer the conversation away from food. I can lure my Mother from the kitchen with other activities. I will give Mom the same Christmas gift I've given myself. A new Rhonda. (Of course, her "new Rhonda" will be a fake and for display purposes only ...)

I'll be back many times over the next week or two...