Carpe DIEM!

OK ... Fine! I'm positing this puppy and editing as I go. How clever am I??? I've just accidentally deleted my posting for the last  time!

Right - As I was typing before I so rudely deleted myself - I'm quitting therapy and I swear it's not because of Tony Soprano. It really is a fast train to no place and you know what it does? I'll tell ya ... I love my doc... right to pieces. GREAT guy to talk to. But it makes me dwell on crap and forget to live life. No time for this dwelling stuff. Everytime I dwell on my inner self or any of that jazz, it just leads to depression and compulsion - suddenly I have no nails, I can't sleep and my clothes don't fit right any more. Or wait - was that the reason I was in therapy in the first place?

From now on, I can think on the trails. Or while I'm completing my job jar tasks. But I am going to complete and produce and revel in the beauty of my accomplishments! No more of this backpedalling. No more self doubt. "Am I on the right track?" HELL NO! Who is on the right track anyway? Am I moving? Yes? Then good.

I don't care that I haven't found my calling ANY MORE. If I was meant for something great, I'm sure I'll find it just as easily out there living instead of in here THINKING THINKING THINKING! HAHA!!!!!!

I seem to have gained 3lbs and it's ticking me off. Training for a sprint race (some 3K in Maine on July 4th). This will help me improve speed for my usual longer runs. A sprinter I am NOT! But this will be a good perspective deepening experience for my training overall. I hope my friend that signed me up for this crap doesn't blow my doors off. She's 11 yrs older than me and pretending not to train. Hmmm.... did I mention she's incredibly competitive?