Bad weight week

 I can't seem to do this weight loss right.  I've been going to the gym, trying to eat lower carb but I still gained 5 lbs. this week.  I'm beyond frustrated right now.  I'm seeing my Dr. today and I'm seeing a nutritionist tomorrow, so I'm hoping to get some answers.  I'm sick of being fat, but I'm also sick of trying and failing diets (way of eating).  I also thought exercise was supposed to help my blood sugars go down and that's not happening either, my morning fasting blood sugars have been in the 200's and that's with insulin.  I know I just need to give my body time to get used to all the changes, but it's hard. 

OK, I'm done with my pity party.  I'll update after I get home from my appointments today, I really need to plan better.  I have my Dr. appointment this afternoon and my eye appointment this evening.  I need to get a planner. 

Have a great day.

Jenn

I feel good!!

But dang, I'm tired.  I went to the gym...all by myself.  It's not that big of a deal, but I like going with someone else, it's just more fun.  I put in my 2.5 miles and came home.  It only takes me 10 minutes to drive into the next town to go to the gym, so I don't really have any excuse not to do it at least 5 times a week.  That is my goal.  Monday-Thursday and either Saturday or Sunday morning. 

Oh, and I've added a couple of pictures...peek at your own risk!!! 

Have a good night.

Jenn

A good day!

Today went very well at work, especially when it came to eating.  I had oatmeal for breakfast...I eat at work, it's just a lot easier for me to sit down and actually eat.  If I try to eat at home I only get a couple of bites down before one of my kids needs help getting dressed, backpack together for school (no matter how prepared we are the night before something always goes awry) or some last minute homework finished.  I had a salad and some strawberries for lunch.  I love the breakroom, everyone is either reading or sleeping on one of the couches, so it's quiet and I can listen to my iPod and read without someone bugging me.  I'm a very social person (I can talk a mile a minute and I'll talk to anyone and everyone, no one believes that I used to be VERY shy and quiet during my school days and in my 20's) but I love that half hour a day that I can be by myself and not have to entertain someone. 

Dinner, well, that's another story.  I had a hamburger, not the wisest choice, but I only had one.  I'm planning on hitting the gym tonight.  I've decided that I can't wait for my friend to go with me, she's a little wishy-washy when it comes to going to the gym...she joined in October and when we went to the gym to exercise the other night, it was her first time actually using the gym.  However, I talked to another mom at my girls school and she goes to the same gym.  We planned on going each night at 9pm and if we're there, we're there, we aren't going to "meet" each other there, but we'll work out together if we're there together.  Does that make sense?  I hope so.  It works out in my brain, but that's not saying much. 

I've loaded my iPod with a lot of upbeat and fast music for the gym.  I love to watch TV at the gym, but I don't work out as hard, but if I'm listening to fast, loud music my pace goes up and I get a really good workout.  Watching the hot guys working out downstairs on the weights helps too.     I hope my husband doesn't read this. 

Have a great evening!!! 

Jenn

I need to stop planning

Every single time I plan, seriously, to go to the gym something comes up or some obstacle blocks me.  I REALLY planned on getting up this morning at 5:15 so I could be to the gym when it opened at 6.  Well, unexpectedly, last night our friends dropped by and we ended up playing card games until 2 this morning.  There was NO WAY my body, or my eyes, would let me get up that early and then function normally the rest of the day.  I might have still gotten up early on that little amount of sleep if I didn't aready have plans to go to the Diabetes Expo with my mom and family today...I could have just gone to the gym and then came home and went back to bed.  If I was single, it wouldn't be bad to go a day with little sleep...I did it when I was younger...but with kids and a husband who have to deal with me, I'm sure they appreciate me better if I'm "sane". 

I'm looking forward to the Diabete's Expo, I get a lot of really good information when I go.  My insurance has JUST kicked in and I can go and find out what diabetes programs they will cover...my last insurance plan just paid for me to see a nutritionist and all she told me was to go on the "South Beach" diet.  I was so frustrated with the nutritionist that it totally turned me off "South Beach" and I refused to do it.  There have GOT to be better ways of dealing with diabetes.  I plan on finding out today. 

I'm off (in more ways than one) and I hope to come back a more educated person.

Have a great day.

Jenn

I did it!!!

I went to the gym last night and exercised.  I only walked on the treadmill, but it was GREAT!!  I didn't overdo it like I did the last time I tried to join a gym.  I started slow, had a good pace in the middle and then did a slow warmdown.  I stayed on for a little over an hour and did a little over 2 miles. 

My goal is to go again today after I get off work.  I'm not going to feel bad if I don't make it, but I'm going to try.  It's so nice to go with a friend and that's what I did last night, but today I'll be going as a solo act.  My friend does't have as much to lose as I do, so she's not as committed as I am.  She does need to lose weight, but she had gastric bypass a couple of years ago and so she just needs to get back on track.  I'm hoping that we can support each other and get healthier.  We're on opposite ends of the spectrum.  She's trying to lose weight so she can have a baby and I'm now trying to lose weight because I'm DONE having babies and am ready to get my body back. 

Now, as for eating...all I can say is...UGH!!  It's so hard to get on track, however, I do feel like only eating good things now because I worked hard at the gym last night and I don't want to undo that work by eating junk.  I just need to try to hang on to that motivation/resolve all day.  It's going to be hard, we're having an office luncheon today for our "olympic" closing ceremonies, but there will probably be a lot of salad and I'm going to try to stick to that. 

I hope everyone has a great day. 

Jenn

I went to the gym

My friend and I went to the gym, had a tour and I signed up.  That's about as far as we got, but somehow it ended up that I didn't even get back home until midnight.  We talked so long to the guy that signed me up that we didn't have time to exercise, but we're going back again tonight and this time we WILL exercise.  I also have an appointment on the 9th with the nutritionist.  We'll see how that goes.  I also have to meet with a trainer, but I flat out told the guy that doing that was way beyond my comfort zone right now and he agreed to postpone that until I was ready.  My goal is to go and walk on the treadmill and do the arm exercise bike and that's all for now...oh, and relax in the hot tub.    It's a really nice gym and open 24 hrs. a day during the week and regular hours on the weekend, which is fine by me since I don't really plan on going during the weekends. 

For lunch today I packed a salad and some fruit.  I know I'm not supposd to eat fruit on low-carb, but I need the vitamin C and I don't have any vitamin c vitamins in the house right now.  Everyone is getting sick and that's the last thing I need right now.

Have a great day everyone,

Jenn

Going to the gym

Good evening all,

I'm going to the gym tonight and I'm actually excited.  My friend and I are going as soon as American Idol is over...we do have our priorities.    I'm not sure how lon'g we'll stay since my friend is in some pain, but I'd like to get SOME time in on the treadmill. 

I did have a talk with my boss today, I wanted to do it last week, but we were really busy and today was the first time we had a chance to go into her office, close the door and have a really good heart to heart.  It solved a lot of issues and I found out that she's really please with the work I do and when she acts like she's being a tyrant it's because she's focused on one thing and doesn't think about what is going on around her.  She told me that when she gets that way that I just need to tell her that I need a moment to talk to her in her office and that will be her cue that she needs to put herself in a time out.  LOL 

Work has been REALLY interesting this week.  We're having the "Olympics".  We had the running of the torch yesterday, each department had one person do a leg of the building...in costume.  No, I didn't volunteer myself.  There was no dignity in the position at all.  LOL  Today was the opening ceremony...the lighting of the bowl from the "torch" (a giant lighter) and the first olympic game...Name that tune.  My department got 2nd place, the silver.  Tomorrow is "curling", milk jugs filled with ice, and the "vertical luge", office chairs pushed down the hall.  This should be VERY interesting. 

We're doing this to start off a fitness/health program at work. 

My eating has been pretty good.  I've already warned my kids that as next Monday, when I go grocery shopping, we are all going to eat healthy.  No more junk food, except on special occasion, and snacks are from then on out going to be fruit and veggies.  No more candy, no more chips and no more junk in the house.  My girls are actually excited about it and that makes me happy. 

Well, AI is almost over (I'm blogging during the commercial breaks) so I'm going to sign out.

Have a great evening,

Jenn

Down again

Whooooohoooooo.

My weight is down to 260.8, the lowest it's been since I had my son in 2002.  I'm a happy camper!!!

Yesterday was GREAT...up until the late afternoon when I found out my husband lost his job  .  I didn't eat my way through the stress and frustration, but I did do a lot of yelling. 

I'm better this morning and back in a good mood.  We're just going to have to live off my income until he can either get his job back (still working on that) or find another one (not something I'm looking forward to since our schedules are so sync'd).  It'll all work out.

I'm really hoping I can keep my eating under control today.  Not sure I can do 100% low carb, but I'll try my best.  I have an all day training and they provide the food.  I'll let you know how I do.

Have a great Saturday.

Jenn

Doing good!

Good Morning...well, it's morning anyways. 

Things are going good and I'm pretty proud of myself.  I've had to make the decison to go low-carb...not my favorite way to eat, but my blood sugars have been sitting at around 200 and the other night it was almost 300...time for a change.  I started it yesterday and in that short amount of time my blood sugar went down to 130.  So, I'm sticking to it.  I almost caved yesterday at work, but I checked my blood sugars and saw that they were in a lower range, so I patted myself on the back and didn't take the soup and breadbowl for lunch.  Believe me, that soup and breadbowl is wonderful, but the salad was good and I felt satisfied and didn't care that everyone else around me was eating a ton of carbs. 

Today is day 2 and so far, so good...OK, so it's only 7 am, but hey, I'll take whatever accomplishment I can. 

Exercise still hasn't happened, but Monday I'm joining the gym and my friend and I have already committed to each other that we are going to go a minimum of 3 times a week.  We would have gone this week, but we were both having a stressful work week (yes, exercising probably would have worked out some of the stress) and we just wanted to go home and relax. 

I'm going to go into work today and have a talk with my boss.  She has been treating me like her slave and I'm sick of it.  When she has a question or is questioning something I'm doing, she is so accusatory and it's making me NOT want to go to work.  I enjoy my job, I love working with the teachers and doing what I can to get them the supplies they need for their classrooms, but this last week has put me over the edge.  I'm going to ask her if she's happy with the work I'm doing.  She says she's HUGE on communication, yet, she has NO interpersonnal communication skills.  It's just amazing.  The only way to describe her...a female Hagrid.  She's rough on the outside...but can be very nice and generous, if the mood strikes her.  If I can resolve some of the the issues at work, then I can let go of some of the stress and feel like I actually want to go back to work each day. 

I'll let you know how it goes.   I'm going to keep my carbs low and avoid the cake, cookies and other junk food that everyone sits on the counter by my desk.  I look at that crap all day long.  Working at the Dept. of Education is about as bad as working for a Health Clinic...food everywhere. I know, I've worked both. 

Have a great day.

Jenn

WHY????

Why, why, why is it that children decide not to tell you they are in pain and sick until the middle of the night? 

Spent last night in the E.R. with my 8 year old who decided LATE last night to tell me that her side hurts and it hurts when she pee's.  Normally, if she wasn't in a lot of pain I would have waited until morning to take her to her regular doctor, but since she just got over a kidney infection a couple of months ago we called the on-call Dr. and she said she wanted her to be brought to the E.R. to get it all checked out.  Yep, kidney infection is back.  So I'm home from work today so we can both get some sleep. 

I have decided one thing...my attitued needs to change about weight loss.  I need to be more positive and not look at dieting and exercise as a bad thing.  I need to think of it as good...good at getting my health back where it should be, good at giving me more energy, good at prolonging my life so I can be around for my kids, good for my sex life.  GOOD!!! 

Today is a new day, I'm home from work and I can plan what I'm going to do with my new attitude. 

I WILL DO THIS!  2007 is my year to get healthy, happy and get my life back.