Last day of February

I can't believe it'll be March tomorrow...this year is going by a little too fast for my taste. 

Things are good.  Work is going great, so I'm not doing as much stress eating...especially at work.  I'm keeping busy and I'm slowly losing weight.  Can't beat that.

My daughter had her first session with the therapist last week and she loved it.  She's really looking forward to her session tomorrow and keeps telling me when it is...so I don't forget.  LOL 

In two weeks my husband starts his new job at Delta and I can't wait for that.  We need the money and he needs to get out of the house...I need my alone time too. 

I hope everyone is doing great. 

Jenn

Lots of walking today!!

I got to work at 7 am and sat down for the first time at 2:45 to listen to a presenter.  My feet, back and legs are KILLING me, but it felt GREAT to be so active and get so much done. 

My eating wasn't good, but at least I remembered to eat this time around.  Last training I forgot to eat and by the afternoon I was sick.  Today we had pizza, chicken and salad for lunch...I grabbed a piece of pizza on the run and a piece of chicken later.  I should have had the salad, but I didn't have time to grab a bowl and sit and eat.  Tomorrow won't be much better. I ordered Chinese food for everyone and that's our lunch. 

I just hope my eating was cancelled out by all the walking, pushing and stair climbing I did...I hope to see a loss on the scale...eventually.

I didn't leave work until 6 pm, so I'm racking up those comp. time hours.  One of these days I may actually have to take the day off.  11 hours of work in one day is a lot when you're used to only working 6 a day. 

Have a great night.

Jenn

I said NO!

It felt GREAT!!!  I'm normally a YES woman.  I try to please everyone.  It's amazing what a little exercise and some self-esteem can do for a person.

I'm only scheduled to work from 8 to 2:30.  I work 30 hours a week...I like it.  I worked until 5:30 on Friday, I worked 4.5 hours on Saturday (I work Mon-Fri) and I'm going to be working from 7 am to about 4 or 5 tomorrow and the next day (I have another training session).  2:30 came and I was trying to get out of the office, my boss was in her office with 2 people who are supposed to be helping her get ready for the training, they kept telling me to do stuff for them.  Finally, at 2:45 I told them I was leaving and my boss has the nerve to say, "Whoa, I wanted you to stay, I have stuff for you to do."  I told her no.  Not once did she mention that she wanted me to stay, I had things to do, and I didn't feel bad about leaving. 

Ahhh, I feel so enpowered.  I'll see how she treats me tomorrow...I'm not worried.  I'm her last chance of having an assistant...she's never had one last a year, they all quit.  If I quit, she's on her own. 

I've become bossy!  Today on the way home from work I was sitting at a red light and I heard a loud bang and the squealing of tires and as I turned my head I saw a pickup truck fly across the street, hit a power line and land on it's side.  I immediately called 911 and reported the accident, I was then transfered over to medical emergency and because the power line was down and the pole was being held up by another power line the guy I was on the phone with told me to go to the truck, make sure the man stayed in the truck and to get people away from the power line...one idiot woman was straddling it...DUH!!!  So, I ran across traffic and told everyone to get away, and two men were trying to lift the man in the truck out of the door...the truck is on it's side...IDIOTS!!  I was bossy!!  I loved it.  LOL  I love the power.   The guy hurt his shoulder and they had to use the jaws of life to get him out, the woman he hit was fine.  The van had only a little damage, but he was going really fast.  He hit the woman and flew 1/2 a block...blocks here in SLC are 1/4 of a mile long. 

Sometimes, little things help us with motivation and self-esteem...I need all the help I can get. 

I've babbled enough, went off the topic of weight loss, but if you've read this far, I'm totally impressed. 

Have a great evening.

Jenn

Didn't make it today

I got up this morning really excited about going out for another walk.  I REALLY need to watch the news at night to check the weather.

IT'S SNOWING!! 

It was 60 degrees yesterday and it's snowing today.  I started thinking, "Oh, it's not that bad, I can still go walking."  Then I REALLY looked outside...there's about 4 inches.  My feet would freeze before I even left the yard. 

My alternate plan: Walk away the Pounds video's.  I can do that in the warmth of my own home, so that's the plan today.

I hope everyone has a great day and we all stay on track!

Jenn

Headed back in the right direction

I got up this morning and went for a walk.  I feel human again.  It's amazing what a little exercise can do for your mood.  I didn't walk for a long time, only 20 minutes and only walked a mile, but I feel great.  I'm going to do it again tonight.  My goal is to walk 4 miles a day, but if I can do half of that right now, I'm in a good spot. 

I got a new calendar and journal to track my weight, eating, and exercise. 

I have a new motivation to lose weight: Traveling.

My husband got a job with Delta Airlines this week.  I'm so happy.  The best benefit is being able to fly for free. I want to be able to just pick a day and go to the airport and fly someplace.  I don't want to feel self conscience and I want to fit comfortably in the seats.  I don't want anything (myself) to hold me back. 

I hope everyone has a great day. 

Jenn

It's official...

I am a stress eater.  I eat A LOT when I am under stress.  I finally became aware of this at work yesterday when at the end of the day I was STILL eating my lunch.  I don't think I stopped eating all day. 

I know where my stress is coming from, that's obvious.  I think I'm also feeling the stress that my daughter is feeling.  We just found out, the day before yeseterday, that this summer my daughter was over at her friends house (the house of the Trolley Square shooter) and she saw him (the shooter) pull a knife on his mom and try to stab her and then watched her friend try to get in the middle of it to stop him.  She didn't tell any of this to us, but has been talking to her teacher at school (she's almost 9).  She's seeing a counselor next week.  We didn't realize this event was affecting her like this, she isn't saying a word about it to us. 

Things in life happen that I can't control...BUT, I can control my eating and I need to figure out how to do that. 

I do feel bad that I said I'm glad they killed the shooter.  I guess I should say I'm glad they stopped him from shooting and killing more people.  His family is not to blame for this and I can't even imagine the pain they are feeling.  No one deserves to go through this. 

Well, I'm off...I get/have to work today...a beautiful Saturday.  I'm VERY HAPPY that we have Monday off.  Happy Presidents day to everyone!!! 

Jenn

Totally off the subject of weight loss....

I'm not sure how many have heard about the shooting at the mall here in Salt Lake City, but I just found out the shooter lives/lived 2 houses down.  I didn't even know he lived in the house, his 3 little sisters are in my yard playing with my girls all the time, especially in the summer.  I'm a tad freaked out about it all.  I just can't believe that someone would do something like that, but then I think that if he did that in a crowded mall...he could have just started shooting here in the neighborhood.  We live a block from the Utah State Fair Park and he could have just opened fire during a big event...everyone parks on our street so there are a lot of people all the time. 

The sad part...I'm glad they killed him. 

Jenn

I've been thinking

I joined the gym a couple of weeks ago, I enjoy going, but I'd REALLY like to go more often, like twice a day.  In reality, that's not possible. 

So, I've been thinking about quiting the gym (I'm still in the 30 day money back if not satisfied time frame) and buying a treadmill instead.  The only thing I do at the gym is the treadmill. 

However, I'm afraid that if I quit the gym I'll get to the point that I'll want to do other things besides the treadmill.  So, I'm debating with myself on what to do. 

Decisions, decisions.

Good Morning!!

I hope everyone is having a great weekend.  I know I am.  I have really been enjoying our warmer weather, it was almost 60 degrees yesterday and my kids were able to play outside most of the day.  They got their exercise in, that's for sure, they spent most of their time outside jumping on the trampoline. 

I didn't get a chance to go to the gym yesterday, but I think I got a pretty good workout doing housework. 

What I'm VERY happy about is my fasting glucose  number today.  Usually I'm above 200, but I guess my medication changes have started working and this morning my fasting blood glucose was 96.  YIPPEEE!!!!!! 

I hope everyone has a great and productive day.  I'm off to get my blood work done at the lab...I love that my clinic is open 7 days a week. 

Enjoy your Sunday,

Jenn

Doctor appointment went well

I'm very happy to report that everything is good.  According to the scale in the doctors office I am down 20 lbs since June.  That makes me VERY happy!  It gave me the little push of motivation I needed this week after a disappointing last few days of weight gain.  Even though my bs has been sitting in the 200's I don't have to add insulin with my meals, but the dr. upped my oral meds...I think I'd rather take more pills than more shots.    She's pretty happy with my overall health, thank goodness. 

I also had my diabetic eye exam yesterday evening and all is great on that front also.  I just HATE the part that they put the numbing drops in and then the dialating eye drops.  Driving down the road afterwards was a HUGE joy...NOT.  Every headlight looked like a starburst and it was bugging me, my kids got a huge kick out of it though.  At least I was entertaining. 

Today, my final appointment...I see the nutritionist.  I hope she can give me better advice than, "Go on the South Beach Diet". 

I'm so happy to go to work today...I have new contacts, so I can see, AND my boss is at an all day conference out of the building.  I can actually get my work done.  I have spent the last 2 days doing the work of someone else and I didn't even finish that...I let her take the fall for her own mistake.  If you don't want to read about my complaint, don't go further....

So, the coordinator, for one of the programs that we're in charge of in my deptartment, had a training last night for over 125 people.  She comes into my office on Thursday (1/2 before it's time for me to leave) with a huge pile of papers (most of which have not yet been copied) to put together in a folder for each participant.  She says she needs some help getting some of the copies made...no problem I can do a couple pages before I leave, but only if I finish up with another project that I'm working on...something else she should have done, but didn't.  I didn't have time to do her copying that night because I was still working on the other project, so I told her that I could put together whatever packets she wasn't able to finish that night.  I come in yesterday morning...NONE of the packets had been put together and NONE of the photo copying had been done...so I start on them because it's going to take me all day to get these done...and that's if I have help.  So, I start on it, then get a call from my boss that she wanted more information about the students for their confence today.  That was my first priority and the other stuff can get worked on when the coordinator comes it.  Guess what...she called in sick.   So, I ended up rushing around to get the supplies she needed for the training, plus the paperwork for the conference today and finally the photocopying done for the packets.  I put 10 packets out of the 125 and left the rest for the coordinator to do, she said she was going to come in later in the day to make sure I had all of her supplies together.  I hope that shows her that I have my own work to do and I'm not her secretary...I'm not anyone's secretary.  She was hired to do the things for her program. 

Ok,  I'm off my rant and feel much better.  I'm off to work and promise that I won't hurt anyone. 

Jenn