I really do miss being able to update my blog every day. As a consequence of not having my own laptop at the moment, I'm also struggling to follow my Tesco Diets too. I'm so sad and miserable at the moment. I'm worried about Christmas because I have no money to buy presents due to being burgled. I'm not loving my job at the moment either. Nothing feels right at the moment.
As is usually the case when I feel down, I eat junk. This then makes me even more miserable so I have no idea why I actually do it. I also only managed 2 days of The Shred this month which is feeble.
My friend is getting married next year and is feeling a bit down about her weight and I hate to see people having the same hurrendous feelings of self loathing that I do, especially one of my best friends. I'm really struggling at the moment so I figured distracting myself helping her will be a solution.
I went on a nice shopping mission yesterday and bought a nice suede notebook which I then customised with my friends name on the front and nice little charm. This will be my friends new diary of her weight loss for her to write her thoughts and feelings, stick in pictures, anything she wants. If only I put as much effort into my own weight loss eh? Once I get past this damn 14 stone hurdle I think I will be well on my way though. One day. I just have no will power at the moment.
Yes, I admit I have neglected my readers and to be honest, my actual diet. I've done nothing but eat complete junk, I haven't exercised and I certainly haven't spared any thought what this may do to me. However, I have still managed to lose a pound which is ironic.
You will be pleased to know that the Plum (my car) was found and I have been and collected her. I had to pay £150 for the privilege though which is disgraceful! Still no closer to finding the people that did it though.
I only managed a measly two days of The Shred which I am so annoyed at myself for. The Shred was in my laptop which was stolen however Tina was good enough to burn me another copy. Just need to sort out a DVD player that will plug into the tv now.
Sorry this is ridiculously boring. I felt I should give you all some sort of update given the fact I've been away for a while and the only thing I have to report is nothing!
I am really going to up my game. 4lbs to go until I'm under the 14 stone mark. Will it ever happen? It just seems to be one thing after another, making me feel like it will never happen. One day eh?
To be honest, I feel like I'm at the bottom of this mountain and me being 14 stone is at the top!
Not been on for a few days due to the a bit of a hiccup that occurred to me. I say hiccup, it's more than that. I was broken into in the early hours of the morning on Tuesday/Wednesday and they've cleaned me out. TV, laptops, xbox, handbag with purse, camera and ipod in it. Oh and because they got ny car keys, they've also taken my car. Fuming isn't even the word for it. Who do these people think they are, coming into my home while I'm asleep and taking the things I've worked bloody hard for?! Oh and get this little gem, I have no contents insurance.
Losing weight is the last thing on my mind at the moment to be honest but we shall see what delights the scales bring me tomorrow.
What I will say is this. These things happen for a reason and whilst I don't know what it is yet, I'm sure I will find out soon. I am touched by the support my friends have offered me, you are all truly amazing and I am lucky to have you in my life. Yes it's cheesy but I really mean it.
I am hoping to get the word out about my car because the police reckon it will have been dumped somewhere so please keep your eyes out for it, especially if you live in the North West of England
1,500 calories of saturated fat and sugar, the Craz-E Burger consists of a bacon cheeseburger with a stick sugary doughnut as the bun. My teeth hurt looking at it! I have to say I wouldn't mind trying one though, I'm such a minger sometimes!
To find out more about the Craz-E Burger (in case you want to ruin your life!) then you can find more out in the article below...
Who remembers the pig dream? Well the nightmares are back. With a vengeance. Despite the fact that they are really vivid and feel incredibly real, I can't remember what all of them are actually about.
I can remember one of them, I'm drowning in gravel. I mean seriously, I've woken up choking for the last few nights and I can almost taste dust in my mouth. I've been shaking and everything. I woke up last night and just started to cry. They're horrible and I just wish that they would go away.
Apparently (yes I felt the need to research) nightmares in adults are mostly caused by stress and the best way to get rid of them is to find the cause of the stress. Easier said than done but let's just say being jobless would eradicate a lot of the stress I am having at the moment.
I hope they'll go away soon, I feel like I'm going insane
To be fair, I can't believe I put so much weight on again anyway but 3lbs is a massive achievement for me considering the usual speed of weight loss. If we disregard the fact I've just had a massive Burger King (words can't describe the horror that swept over me after reading the nutritional info on their website) then I've done pretty well all week.
In fact, let me share the sheer despair I felt after reading the nutritional info...
973 CALORIES WITHOUT CHIPS?! Oh god. Thankfully I couldn't finish it and only had a handful of chips (oops, did I mention I got chips with it?) but I may have, sort of, well actually, finished it off with a Galaxy. Damn. I'd like to use the term Epic Fail.
A lesson to us all, DON'T EAT FOOD YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T. It will leave you in a pit of despair. OK so I only feel mildly guilty but I thought I would exaggerate a bit. In fact, sod it - I lost 3lbs!!!
I now have a week to Shred away and repent for my burger related sins this evening. Ooh that reminds me, I must amend that Lord's Prayer for us dieters.
One more confession, I am kind of having an affair with Tesco Diets. I tell it things I don't tell Extrapounds because I log EVERY single item of food on there. I left Tesco Diets after running out of money and my short fling with Extrapounds turned into an unexpected love affair. I am sort of seeing Tesco Diets again but I have convinced myself it is purely platonic. In fact, it is. Tesco Diets is the guy you fancied for a long time but came to realise you will only ever be friends with them, anything more would be wrong. So no, I'm not cheating on Extrapounds at all!
Yes, I have actually lost my mind. Tiredness does that to me.
I know I've not been on here for a few days but I didn't really want a few days of ranting so I stayed away.
TOM has been hurrendous and coupled with work being, well not great, I've just felt like crying every five minutes . Due to TOM's visit, I have not been able to Shred either (seriously, I did try) so that has gutted me too. I'm hoping to be able to do it by Friday though (I will seriously be unhappy if not) and then I really need to up my game. Can't believe it's Day Seven of Shred and I've only done two days. Rubbish timing.
I'm on day three of Tesco Diets and I must say I'm not doing that poor. Went for a Chinese with the Other Half tonight as he wanted to cheer me up (I love him so much for that) and I was really good. I didn't eat tons and did the old Paul McKenna knife and fork down between every mouthful trick which seemed to work too.
Big weigh in on Friday and I have everything crossed for a loss although given the TOM hindrance I'm not sure it will happen.
On a brighter note, check out my pressie from Lizzie! Those who know me well will know I get random cravings for Lilt a lot and because Bolton is some kind of weird time warp that doesn't sell things I want and open shops when I want, I can never get it. Not only is it Lilt, it's Lilt Zero!!! Ooh behold the totally tropical goodness...
So here they are, the pics from my photo shoot. I'm so happy with how they came out! For those in the Manchester area, visit www.modelworx.co.uk if you fancy some yourself or www.missflawless.co.uk if you just want your make up doing. Both Nikki (modelworx photographer and all round miracle worker) and Sarah (aka Miss Flawless the make up guru) are fab, you will love them!
Those on Facebook can see the full album (with extra pics) below...
After starting work at 8am and a night out straight after work planned, I was panicking about not being able to do my daily Shred (still need to write that poem!).
Determination won over and I managed to rush home and do it before jumping in the shower ready to go out. Felt ace for it too so there's a lot to be said.
I have however undone all my good work by getting completely wasted last night and eating junk all day to try and get rid of my hangover. I also attempted to Shred but threw up and thought it safer I give it a miss.
I'm going to do it twice tomorrow to compensate but not sure whether that actually works.
Another hurdle to overcome is the unwelcome visitor that turned up today, TOM . I hate it. Oh well, onwards and upwards - need to go shopping tomorrow to get some healthy bits in so I don't ruin the Shred
Oh, and look what appeared in the pub toilets - I can't escape!
