I was so excited that I had comments today! Thank you all for posting! It's 1:05 a.m. here and I'm fixing to go to bed. But I just wanted to posts a quick response to the comments. Bubble, I hear ya, I feel the way about Diet Coke as you feel about tea (LOL) I have an unhealthy obsession with it But I think I'll do pretty good this week, I've got my game face on.
SwingxSetxGirl, I got my Phen from a local "diet doctor" that's all he does is weight loss.
Jlfreund, I promise you I'm eating *lol* they don't make a pill for me that's strong enough to take all my desire to eat away (LOL) I've just been eating very small amounts throughout the day I'm probably getting in about 1,000 calories if I had to guess. Also, thank you for the compliment on my "during" pic! That was really nice of you to say!!
Wildflower, I've never taken the pill you are on, but I took Phentermine about 6 years ago and after 3 months I was immune to it. It just stopped working one day. I hope your BP goes down and you can get to where you want to be!
Again, thank you all for commenting it made me feel like I wasn't alone here!!
*A thought before bed*
Six years ago I wanted the pill to be the magic bullet, and it was for a while, then it fell back to me to keep my weight loss going. As you can see in my "before" pic I failed miserably. I was at my highest weight ever in November 2005. This time I did the majority of the work myself, but got on a very bad plateau and I was afraid I'd slip and fall off the wagon if I didn't see the scales start to move in the down direction once again. So I went to the doctor and got back on the pills, I am very aware that I am the one who controls my food. I will no longer give in to the mindless eating I've done for the last 14 years. I know that if I eat anything I want- when I want, I'll be a size 20 again and the waistband will be cutting me in half because I was too ashamed to go buy a bigger size. It's all up to me, I'm the one who puts food in my mouth. I am responsible for my own actions. I am stronger than that piece of fried chicken, or slice of pizza, or cake or whatever the food is. I am the one who has say over my body. That's a liberating feeling!
Ok, I've got to take my MIL to Sams tomorrow, so I'm off to bed now. I'll update when I get back and put my groceries away. Until then-
I've been on Phentermine for 3 days now an I am loving the fact I've not obsessed over food since I took the very first pill. I started Phentermine on Friday 2-23-07 @ 155.4 and today is Sunday 2-25-07. This morning I weighed and I was 151.4. that's a 4 pound loss in only 3 days! I am feeling great and have been very energetic since I started taking them.
I even got TOM yesterday and normally I have water weight gain, but this time I didn't. I've been faithfully drinking my water and watching what I eat. It feels so good to see the scales going down again. I've been on a plateau for about 4 months now after losing 81 pounds on my own. Looks like that is over with! **THANK GOD**
My husband, our son and I went to dinner last night and to the movies. I ordered a house salad but I forgot to ask for the dressing on the side, so I ate 3 bites of it and no more. I didn't eat ANY of the hot, buttery, warm rolls they brought to the table and I only ate 1 potato skin dipped in a TINY bit of sour cream. I ordered the filet mignon which was 6 ounces, I cut it in half and gave the other half to my husband, it was served with a very tasty rice with herbs, and I had grilled veggies and a Diet Coke and a glass of ice water. I didn't finish everything on my plate, that was even after me giving half of my steak away.
I am so very, very proud of myself. Because I could have ate everything they originally brought me. I think the Phen helps me to stop and think before I eat.
We went to the movies and seen Ghost Rider- all 3 of us (including my teenage son who's into comic books) were disappointed. I like Nicolas Cage very much and he was good in it, but the writing lacked and it was kind of corny. But we all had a great time nonetheless.
I feel that the Phen is a tool for me to use, making me think before I eat. It's a wonderful tool! I wonder how much weight I can lose this month? I've already lost well on my 3 days on it.If I am remembering correctly I was 155.4 by my scales on Friday when I got them, so if that's the case I've already lost 4 pounds in 3 days. Wow!
Tomorrow is Monday and I'm starting an experiment. I'm not drinking ANY Diet Cokes from Monday to Friday, that's 5 days to see if it helps the scales move down any faster. I'll of course be updating my results here. I am drinking water 90% of the time and I'll be drinking ALL of the following this week: 1% milk, light soy milk, & coffee during this week.
I have a good feeling about getting out of the 150's this week and into a new "zone". I can't believe I've been stuck for so long and now it's just falling off of me. I really am thankful for this. I get discouraged very easily and I was afraid I'd go back to my old eating habits if I wasn't continuing to lose on a steady basis. I'm not worried about that now.
For the last 14 months I've been trying to " eat like a size 6 "
Meaning I think of myself in my head as being a size 6 and I try to eat like that. Ok, my husband is awake from his nap so I'm outta here. I may update later again tonight or I just might wait until tomorrow.Until then-
I've taken 2 pills yesterday and I'm at 153.2 !!! I am so HAPPY. I went to bed @ 5:00 a.m. this morning and it's now 7:35 a.m. and I feel like I've slept a whole 8 hours. I feel, refreshed & well rested. I LOVE whoever made this drug! I'm going to go for now, but I just thought I'd add this quick update. Have a great day today! Until then-
Well folks, today is the day. I have a 2:00 appointment with the "diet doctor" and I am really excited. I can't stand the waiting!
I've been over at the phentermine.com boards and I've been getting all inspired about getting back on this drug. There is one woman on there who's lost 15 pounds her first month. I will be thrilled if I could lose 15 pounds in 1 month. I've even read where other people has lost 25-30 pounds in a month. I'll be happy with just the 15 to be honest with ya.
I'm going to have my husband take my "before/during" pics today when he gets home from work. I'm so excited.
I'll let you know how I am doing this evening or at the very latest Saturday morning. Oh, speaking of Saturday. My husband and I are taking our son out to dinner and a movie. We are going to see Ghost Rider! I can't wait. But, I should be back here this evening giving you all an update though. I just can't seem to stay off the Internet reading about weight loss and other peope successes! I'm off to hop in the shower and get ready! Until then,
Wishing you all the very best,
~Tink~ ********************ADDED POST BELOW******
Well, it's almost 1:30 Saturday morning and I've got my Phentermine! I took one in the parking lot and after about an hour and a half I could feel it kicking in. I fasted for 14 hours for my blood test for my 2:00 Friday appointment. I took the pill at 2:30 and I could FEEL it about an hour and a half afterwards. I didn't eat dinner until 7:30 Friday night. I only had a very, very small amount of food. The drug is working because I wasn't even hungry- I am SOOOO happy. My doctor says if I lose 25 pounds he'll be happy. I am thinking to myself more like 35 pounds. If I lose 35 pounds that will put me at 120 pounds and that's where I want to be.
I have had so much energy today, I LOVE THIS PILL! I'm looking forward to going out to eat tomorrow before we go to the movies, I want to see how I do around restaurant food.
I don't think I'll have any problem at all. I remember the last time I took this pill, it made me almost euphoric. I just remember thinking to myself. " It's nice to not think of food 24 hours a day 7 days a week." It was a great escape from thinking of food all of the time!
I got my husband to take 3 pics of me today when he got home from work. A front shot, a side shot and a back shot. I look pregnant in the front and side shots. I didn't hold my stomach in at all (which I usually do 90% of the time, even in the privacy of my own home) It took me a good 10 minutes to relax enough to even let my husband see me with it not being held in. He's the coolest guy ever! He could care less. I know this much, he still treated me like a princess even when I was at my biggest @ 236 pounds. He'd still walk up behind me while I was doing the dishes and kiss my neck and tell me how much he loved me and how pretty I was. He never once acted like he desired me any less sexually because of my weight. He really never had a problem with it. I'm the one who had the problem. He really is the sweetest man I have ever known. I thank God for him each and every single day!
My son is pretty cool too, when he was little he'd say " Momma you're not fat, you're fluffy." LOL he is a cool teenager too. He told me yesterday when I finished getting ready to go somewhere I came out of ther bathroom with a new shirt on and he said " You look nice today." How cool is that?! My 14 year old son paid me a compliment, and it's often too, it's not like that's the only time he's ever said something like that. He and my husband really are sweet guys, I love them both so much. They are my world.
Well, I think I'm going to read some news and check the weather and look up showtimes for the movie. I hope you all have a great weekend just in case I don't log back on here until Monday. Until then-
Hi everyone, today is Thursday February 22, 2007 and I weigh 155.0 I'm pretty proud of the fact I got my sh*t together and got down to business. I had a not so good eating day the other day but I have redeemed myself with salads and cans of plain tuna (no mayo or pickle relish) and LOTS of water.
I took my MIL for lab tests today and then I took her to Wal-Mart for a couple of items she needed. She's lost about 90% of her eyesight due to being a diabetic for YEARS and not knowing it. She is a very religious woman and didn't go to ANY kind of doctor for almost 25 years, no matter what was wrong with her she just didn't go, she prayed about it. Now she's paying for it by losing her sight, and she sits and cries for hours and prays asking why God has not answered the prayers she's prayed for the last 2 years.
I feel so bad for her, she really is a sweet, sweet woman. I want God to heal her eyes so she can walk without tripping over nothing. Nothing will be in front of her or beside her and she'll trip because she "thinks" that something is in her way.
I want to lose weight for vanity, but I also don't want to end up like her. I was headed in that direction just a few months ago. I was morbidly obese my BMI was over 40, now it's in the 20's I am considered "overweight" by medical standards.
This has been the hardest thing I think I've ever had to do (lose weight). It's not easy saying no to food, especially when your mind is telling you to constantly eat it.
I have a few things to do around the house, hopefully I'll get back on here this evening and update, but if not I'l be back tomorrow.
Please enjoy my pics I up have posted here today, look in the picture gallery. I'll soon be adding "before" shots that will be taken tomorrow (2-23-07) I have 35 more pounds to go, I'm starting on the drug Phentermine tomorrow.
I'm counting down the days until this Friday, I have my doctors appointment with the diet doctor and I'm SO excited! I've been reading a lot of posts over at Phentermine.com and I'm really encouraged by all of those people success! I hope I'm a fast loser like some of them are. My name on Phentermine.com is DeniseD1971x
I've been trying to eat in moderation like always, but I had a couple of weak moments last night. The noodles and rolls won and so did the Lucky Charms. I lost the battle badly.
But I've picked myself up, dusted myself off and I've started a new day this morning when I got up.
I am still drinking my water, but I kinda was afraid to get on the scales this morning because of my binge last night. So as to not get discouraged I am going to wait until I go to the doctor Friday @ 2:00 p.m. and I'm going to go by their scales AND my own.
When I weigh @ home I am usually in the buff. Sometines I have on just a T-shirt and undies, but when they weight you at the doctors office they just make you take your socks and shoes off. I'll have on jeans, bra, and a shirt plus all of my jewelery. So I suspect that my scales will say I weigh from 1-3 pounds lighter than the doctors scales will. It's not a big deal to me, a coupe of pounds is not going to make or break my spirit. I know what needs to be done and I plan on doing it.
I've decided that I'm going to do an experiment. I'll get my pills this Friday (2-23-07) but I'm starting the experiment on Monday (2-26-07) I'm going to go 5 days and not drink ANY Diet Coke. I'm going to stick to water, 1% milk and 2 cups of coffee a day. I usually drink 1-4 Diet Cokes a day and I want to see how taking that out of my diet changes how I feel and if it really makes the scales move down any quicker.
I've been actively looking up information Online about plastic surgery. By no means are we well off or even slightly comfortable, but there are several factors that I think that's going to help me eventually get a tummy tuck and implants. My car is fixing to be paid off ( that's 330.04 ) extra each month, plus my husband is fixing to get a promotion and become a supervisor where he works which means more money, and I have decided I'm going to stop buying every little thing my heart desires, little silly stuff like eye makeup, lipstick, etc.. I have enough of that stuff already, I don't need anymore. So I'll be saving a good bit each month. I am thinking about saving 1 or 2 thousand and then going to a loan comapany that deals with people who are wanting cosmetic surgery. There's an ad I seen in one of my magazines the other day, it was something like www.doctorssayyes.net. I think that's the correct web address.
But I haven't been to it yet. They have a deal or something like 99.00 down and 99.00 a month The ad said "No one is turned down" I suspect if you have bad credit like myself the rates are a little higher. Even if I had to pay 1,000.00 down and then 250.00 a month I wouldn't care, I'd still do it!
My sweet, sweet husband even said we could get a home equity loan if I wanted to. He knows how I am struggling with my body image right now. I thought after losing a little over 80 pounds I'd feel good abut myself. I ALMOST feel worse after losing the weight. I have a very flabby lower stomach and there is NO amount of exercise going to fix my sagging skin. Plus, my boobs are deflated and they look pitiful. I want a set of big boobs just natural looking, not the kind Pamela Anderson has. She looks like someone shoved two cantalopes up under her skin. I don't like that look for myself personally. But to each their own I guess.
You know, I've never even really thought about plastic surgery before until about 6 months ago. I just never really thought it was going to be financially possible for me to even explore that topic. I'm like most people in America, our family lives from paycheck to paycheck. We pay the bills and buy groceries and that's about it. We are mostly broke until the next week. But with my husbands' promotion coming up in about 3 weeks and the fact that our car will be paid off I have been really getting excited about having this done.
I've never had any kind of surgery on me, ever. The most I've ever had done to me was 7 stitches in my right foot when I was about 9 years old. I'm terrified of doctors and hospitals. I haven't even been to an OBGYN in 14 years because of my weight. I was too ashamed to put my big ass up on the table. I was afraid they'd make fun of me or talk about me when I left. Even though they probably would not in reality, I just feel like they would. ( Yes, I know it's all in my head) But that doesn't change the fact that I have a panic attack just thinking about getting undressed and having a stranger touch me.
I know there are women who are much bigger than I ever was, that still go get checked for cancer and other things like that. But I just couldn't bring myself to go. I hope that once I get this last 37.6 pounds off of me I can get up the courage and go to the doctor and get my pap tests started again. I know something is wrong with me in that department, I think I might have cysts or something. But even knowing that something might be wrong I just can't seem to make myself go.
I'm hoping to maybe even get a referral to a good plastic surgeon from my future OBGYN. I'm sure they know of some good ones in my area. Well, that's all for now. I must walk my dogs. Until next time-
I'm reporting my weight for this morning. It's 155.2 I'm happy with that number, but don't be fooled. I'm almost positive I didn't lose 1.8 pounds overnight. I am accounting the lower number to water weight I've lost. I started drinking water again yesterday, so I can safely say I've lost water, not actual body fat. Either way it's a step in the right direction. I've got to run an errand here in the next hour. But I will be back to update in more detail. Until then-
Hi, my name is Denise but you can call me Tink if you'd prefer. Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I'm 35 and I have been married for 18 years now to my wonderful husband. We were married when we were both 17 years old. We have a 14 year old son who's the best kid around. I gained 75 pounds when I was pregnant, the day I had my son I weighed 203 pounds.
Since becoming pregnant my weight has been up and down over the last 14 years. Mostly up, but down a time or two. I've actually lost 80 pounds 3 times in the last few years only to gain it back and then some each time.This time I hope will be my final and last attempt at reaching goal and staying there for the rest of my life. The last 3 attempts I never got to my goal.
To make a really long and boring story as short as I can I'll try to sum up the last few years as quickly as I can. My mother-in-law called me the day after Thanksgiving in 2005 and asked me to take her to ther emergency room. She was admitted and they kept her there for 7 days. I stayed with her day and night only to leave the hospital daily for no more than 2 hours so I could come home, shower and get a fresh change of clothes. After 7 days of staying with her in the hospital I had lost 12 pounds, yes 12 pounds in 7 days. It was ironic really. The day after Thanksgiving I woke up and I weighed and I wrote it down on my wall calendar - it was my highest weight ever. I was 236 pounds and miserable. I was almost numb to the fact that I had gotten so large. The next thing I knew I was throwing on some clothes and rushing to my MIL's house to take her to the E.R.
She was diagnosed as a type 2 diabetic and also having high blood pressure. She was given a diabetic diet to follow and the day I took her home from the hospital I decided I didn't want to spend my time in any kind of medical facility at any age. So I already had a great jump start to the weight loss. I had dropped 12 pounds in only 7days, the trick now was seeing if I could keep my motivation up long enough to see some more weight come off of me. I started by cutting out real Cokes and switching to Diet Cokes, I also started buying everything I normally bought - the big difference was I was now buying the sugar free versions. I also started watching what I ate. I stopped frying all of the foods I cooked. I started baking and broiling and grilling.
I've always loved veggies, but I would smother them in butter until they had drowned basically. So I stopped adding butter to my cooking. Then lastly I started watching my portion sizes.
It was very hard for me to eat less. I had for the past 14 years eat whenever and whatever I wanted without a second thought to it. That's how I became obese. I just didn't care. But after seeing my MIL in the hospital, it pretty much scared me. I didn't want people touching me, and poking and prodding me all the time with needles and pushing pills down my throat. I didn't want to end up with diabetes or high blood pressure. So I got my butt in gear and I started making very small changes in my lifestyle. It wasn't easy but I took it day by day.
I'm like anybody else, I'd have really good days and then I'd have a day (or several in a row) where I thought I was going to eat the kitchen sink if only I could just rip it off the wall. So I ate better and cut out real Cokes and watched my portion sizes. I lost 50 pounds in about 6 months. I didn't exercise at all. The weight was just coming off.
Then my cousin asked me to join Weight Watchers with her. I did and I LOVED it. I did the Points system, I lost an additional 30 pounds making 80 pounds lost. I've since stopped going, and I even stopped following the plan.But I have maintained my weight loss of 80 pounds for the last 6 months on my own.
I'm just not motivated enough to go to the meetings right now or to start exercising. So I've made a decision. I've got an appoinment this Friday with a diet doctor on ( 2-23-07) and I'm going to ask him for Phentermine (37.5)
I've taken it before and I didn't have any side effects. The only difference between taking it now and taking it back years ago was I wanted it to make me lose 80 pounds in 4 months without changing any of my eating habits, this time I've already lost the 80 pounds on my own plus I have changed my eating habits and I'm just wanting some help with the last 37 pounds. I have already changed my lifestyle, but I fear if I don't get the last bit off of me and quite quickly- I fear that I'll get discouraged and fall back off the wagon and head back to 236, and I never want to go back there again! Ever!
So my goal is to lose 37 pounds by August 15th (my 36th birthday) I know I can do it. I'l be updating this blog often so check back if you want to see my progress. Just for the record, I do plan on getting some physical activity in. I'm buying some roller blades in 2 months and I'm going to start walking my dogs when it gets warmer. One of my dogs is very obese and she's only 3 years old. I don't want her to die at a young age, plus she is developing breathing problems. But until it warms up, I'll be using my treadmill at least 3 days a week. I'll be starting this activity on 2-26-07. I'm not sure how much or how long I'll be able to walk, but it's a start. I'll post on here to keep you informed.
Things you need to know wbout me:
I have some tattoos and I'm getting another one here shortly. I have 11 piercings. I love movies. I love music, I love concerts. I love both of my rescue dogs and both of my rescue cats. And mostly I love my wonderful husband and my wonderful son. They mean everything to me. I want to be around for them for a long, long time.
Well, I guess that's all for now. I'll be writing again tomorrow. Just to keep myself honest I plan on posting my weight EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'll also be putting some pics together throughout my journey. I'll be having my husband take pics of me this Friday (2-23-07) when he gets home from work, because that's the day I go to the diet doctor and start on the Phentermine.
But I think I'll do pretty good this week, I've got my game face on.
I've just been eating very small amounts throughout the day I'm probably getting in about 1,000 calories if I had to guess. Also, thank you for the compliment on my "during" pic! That was really nice of you to say!!
