Happy Easter morning to everyone! My juice and water fast for the last 2 days has produced a 3.0 pound loss. Friday the 6th I showed a 0.8 gain making me 138.4 I got mad and decided I was going to do a juice and water fast. I'm glad I did. I'm 135.4 YAY!! 3 pounds may not seem like a lot but I have not been this low in weight in over 14 YEARS! WOO HOO!
I hope that you all have a great holiday with friends and family! I'll be putting up new pics either tonight or tomorrow of our Easter celebrations, which by the way is still a cookout. We were going to do a chili "cook in" but went with the cookout instead, and I'm SO glad!!! It's 30 degrees here and it's supposed to get 55 today. We'll see.
Happy Easter!
~Tink~ P.S. I bought a size 5 Levis at Goodys yesterday, I will be wearing them today for Easter, no dress way too cold. Besides I'm not a dress kind of person. I'm taking pics of my tags with the size showing, I could NOT believe it!!! I'll post those as well.
My skin is so much darker today then it was yesterday. I look like I've been on a beach in Brazil for the last week or two. Oh yeah, I think I'm gonna have to keep this up!!! Juice diet is going fine, I did have to eat 4 Triskets today because I felt like I was gonna pass out. But other than that I am feeling fine. I'm eating tomorrow @ the cookout and I am ready for it too! I'll be posting cookout pics tomorrow. Happy Easter y'all!
TGIGF (Thank God It's Good Friday) Weigh In Results
TGIGF! Well, it might be Good Friday but I didn't have a good WI at all.
I gained 0.8 and I knew it was going to happen because the scales this whole week have been going up 0.4 and then back down 0.2- down another 0.2 then back up to 0.6 and so on... So am I disappointed or mad? Hell yeah I am! And I'm gonna take action. Some people might say it's drastic, stupid, unrealistic, or even unnecessary. I however disagree. I'm starting a juice and water fast today that will last until Easter Sunday when I go to the annual family Easter cookout. I'm not messing around with this gain. I've worked too damn hard to come this far and let laziness get the best of me. I acted careless this week by not keeping a close eye on my Points and so now I'm on top of the situation. I will not stand for a gain, no matter how small it may be. For all I care I could have gained 5 pounds and I'd still feel the same way towards it as I do with the 0.8 gain.
Whether it's 5 pounds or 0.8 doesn't really matter, the point is I am not happy and instead of letting it depress me I'm taking the anger I am feeling now and making it into a positive and turning this gain into a good loss for next week. I know the body does crazy things with water weight and that kind of stuff, but I know this isn't water weight. I was not as careful in keeping track of my daily Point allowance this week and therefore I had a gain that could have been avoided.
I could have made my 100 pound loss this week if I was really keeping track of things and giving it my full attention. But no, I was stupid and unaccountable and now I've pushed that 100 pound loss back another week or 2.
Nobodys fault by my own. So as of right now I've had 2 cups of coffee and I've already been to the store and got the juice. The juice is Diet V-8 Tropical Blend flavor 10 calories for an 8 ounce serving 0 fat- and the Lipton Diet Green Tea 0 calories, 0 fat, and bottled water. I'm not going to eat any solid food until Sundays cookout. I'm going to weigh Sunday morning as soon as I wake up and post my weight on here. There's no excuse for this gain other than the fact I was an idiot and shoved food in my mouth and didn't write it down. I'll keep you all up to date. I'll be going to get my spray on tan this afternoon. When I get home I'll add the pic to my album. Right now I'm on my way to go cut my MIL yard.
I hope you all have a great day and I'll update with a pic this evening sometime. I think it takes 4 hours for the spray on tan to "activate" and get to the color it's gonna end up being. I have no idea what time it will be but I'll post a pic tonight.
((HUGS to you all))
~Tink~***************************************
UPDATE: 5:45 p.m. Good Friday
Leaving in 5 minutes to get my fake spray on tan. HealthyGirl, nope I've never had a spray on tan this will be my first one. For 30 dollars I hope it looks GREAT! *LOL* I think it takes between an hour and 4 hours for it to "develope" so I'll post a pic this evening some time! Be sure to check back!! Also I've done great on my juice fast so far!
Ok, it's pic time! I've taken 2 pics, they are up in my album. it's been about 3 hours since I got sprayed. I was gonna wait until it had fully "developed" but I was freezing so I put on my pajamas - so you'll have to see the final color in my pics that will be taken on Easter Sunday @ the cookout. Also, they only charged me 15 dollars because it was my very first time- they have a deal I'm thinking about getting. But before I decide anything I'm gonna see how long this lasts before I make any kind of "investment". Ok, no more updates until either Saturday evening to let you all know how the juice fast is going or Sunday morning when I post my weight. I'm still doing the juice and water fast. So far I'm doing great on it, I've not had any solid foods at all today. Hopefully I'll gave a decent loss by Sunday !!
Hi everyone! It's 1:20 a.m. Thursday morning - I just thought since I have a few minutes I'd stop by and post real quick.
First let me take time and reply to some comments- shellyh, I use to weight train, that was the one time I actually stuck with it for 7 months doing the BFL (Body for Life) program with my hubby. We still have our weights and weight bench, I might work with 2 pound weights for the next month for my arms and then gradually increase the weights by a pound each month until I'm up to 5 pounds. (I use to do 8 pound free weight workouts with my arms) I'm not real crazy about doing the leg work on the bench though, I might just depend on the roller blades and maybe some lunges twice a week.
Angel (beaang) *LOL* no I don't have a strange work pattern, I'm a SAHM (stay at home mom) and I just don't sleep all that much, usually 4-6 hours and then I'm up, so I try to go to bed around 4:00 a.m. and then I usually get up between 8:00 a.m. & 10:00, but more often than not, my dogs wake me up at 8:00 so usually I just stay up.
HealthyGirl, thanks for the info on the DVD's. I too have a Yoga ball but I just use mine for situps, I can't lay on the floor because I've had back problems since I was way younger, the ball is awesome for doing situps. But I have to admit I've never tried to balance on one, I wouldn't even know where to begin to do that! *LOL* I'll be looking online for some DVD's in the next week or so and I'll be sure to check out the first one you recommended to me.Thanks a bunch!! (The other one(s) sounds a bit "tame" for me, but I bet it works wonders for stress though)
Alexia, yes- you are right. One day at a time! That really is what I need to be focused on instead of 8 days from now, or 3 days from now. Good advice as always!!
As far as the weather goes it was so beautiful today, BUT and this is a big but, it was cold!!!!! Our high today was 70, that's a 14 degree drop from the day before and the wind was actually cold when it was blowing. I had to wear a light jacket out today. Our weather is saying our high for today (Thursday) will only be 59, then Friday 58 Saturday 51 and Easter Sunday 55-- BRRR -- BRRRR-- & BRRRR!!!!! At night our lows for the next 7-10 days will range from 25 -37 ( It's 44 right now!!) Of course AFTER the holiday the highs start to slowly climb back up once again to "livable" weather. <Sigh> Oh well, maybe it wont be windy on Sunday and it might not be so bad. We might be roasting marshmellos instead of cooking out! *LOL*
So I'm excited about my tattoo- only 15 more days WOO HOO!!! I'll take a pic of myself Friday when I get home from getting the spray on tan. I'm really excited about that. I hope it turns out ok and I don't look all freaky and stuff!!
Ok, that's all I have for now. I hope you all have a great day!!! Use today to get back on track if you've fallen off. Don't waste anymore time, it's just harder on you in the long run, trust me I know!! I wasted 14 years of my life hiding in the house and avoiding people, places and situations all because of my weight. I don't wanna waste anymore time! Like Alexia says- Never give up!!!!!
Hi everyone! It's 3:10 a.m. Wednesday morning and I just finished doing laundry and I'm fixing to load the dishwasher. My mom is gonna go with me today while I run an errand, and while I'm out I'm taking her to get a copy of her birth certificate so she can get her Georgia drivers license since she lives with us now. I'm sure we'll have oh so much fun at the DMV.
I just now got back in from walking my dogs and we are fixing to have a BAD storm. My female dog Scully was scared to death of the wind, usually she's not scared of things like that but she was freakin' out big-time because it was blowing so hard. Uh oh, it just started thundering and lightning- so If I have to cut this short you'll know why....
Ok, so I've been doing really good with the eating and portion control and all that, and my scales are moving a tiny bit, but not like I want them to be moving. What's that? - Join the club you say? *LOL* Yeah, I know I hear y'all. I know that a lot of you are going through the exact same thing right now. The trick with me is I'm gonna have to do something like roller blading or some other type of physical activity like that. I can't be doing the treadmill and stair-machine and all that. I get bored easily when I do that kind of activity and I never end up sticking with it long term. I think the longest I've ever stuck with a workout regimen like that was 7 months and that's only because I was doing the program Body for Life and my husband was doing it with me. I think a lot of us get stuck and either come close to giving up or actually give up, when all we really need is something to get our engines roaring again, something that's fun and - or challenging. I think I'm gonna have fun learning to roller blade, I haven't been this excited about burning calories in a long time! I'll be roller blade shopping some time this month!
*It's pouring down by the buckets right now and storming like crazy, we've had tornado warnings since 4:00 p.m. Tuesday afternoon*
So, I was hoping for a decent loss by this coming Friday since I had TOM on my last WI- but judging by the scales either not moving or only moving down 0.2 and then back, well let's just say I'm not too optimistic about Friday after all. We'll see.
I'm kinda aggervated with my body right now, things are looking like jello and I wiggle and jiggle more than I want to. I was wearing shorts yesterday because it was a beautiful, sunny, 84 degree day, and I just happened to look down at my legs while I was quickly walking my dog Mulder and it was like slow motion,- for real. I seen my legs swaying back and forth like I was watching someone on Baywatch in the slow-mo shots they do of all the girls running on the beach, only my legs didn't look like theirs, mine look like Chris Farley from SNL only not hairy. I was like "What the hell?!"
So I'm gonna focus on getting my legs toned and my arms as well. I try not to wave at anyone in public because I'm afraid I'll knock the person out that's a foot and a half behind me with my "batwing" arm-fat-swing. Oh yeah, that's attractive *LOL* So that's the plan. Get toned up more than I am now and lose my last 17.6 pounds. I'm thinking about getting a Pilates or Yoga DVD. I hear they are both really good ways to firm up, but I gotta tell ya, other than buying a DVD I'm not spending 1 cent on any kind of equipment. I bought a treadmill a while back and I hardly use it, only every now and then- that was 400.00 I could have spent to get a little Botox or 13 once weekly spray on tans. So while I'm researching both Pilates and Yoga, I'm gonna make sure I don't have to have any "special" equipment. I don't have the money or space for a bunch of crap that will never get used. So if you do either Pilates or Yoga and have a good DVD suggestion please add it to my comments and tell me why you like the DVD so much ( good instructions, good music, motivating, good results, etc..) I'd really appreciate that. I'm off to check up on ya'll before I fix my hubbys lunch and get his clothes laid out for him. I hope that you all have a great Wednesday!
~Tink~ P.S. HEY ALEXIA, GUESS WHAT! I did it, I copied and pasted like you told me! Oh my gosh! Thanks a bunch for that, this is so much better than the way I was doing it. I really appreciate that!!! YAY Alexia!!! ((HUGS)) Thank you !!
I have a question. For the people who write their blog in another program like Outlook, or notepad etc.. and copy and paste it in the blog body here where I am typing now, do you pay for your account? Or do you have a free account? If you have a free account like I do, can you copy and paste on your blog? It will NOT let me copy a post I've written in another program nor will it let me paste it here. I can not copy something I've just wrote myself and paste it somewhere else-- either way I can't do any copy or paste jobs. Is it EP? Or is it because I have Windows Vista? I have tried and tried and I have never had any problems with a copy/paste job on any other site - like E-mails or news articles, recipes, etc.
I just wrote for 40 minutes and I hit the backspace button without having anything highlighted on the screen and it's gone, every last word of my infinite wisdom (LOL yes, I am of course kidding about the wisdom thing) I'm just wondering if other NON Gold Members can copy and paste things in their blog- and if NON Gold members that can copy and paste do they have Vista? I'm gonna try and remember all the stuff I had written down here. <<HUFF>>
Ok, first off I hope y'all had a good weekend. Mine was pretty good, I ate well and got in some exercise by way of push mowing the steep embankment in front of our house, plus I got the house cleaned. I feel better when things are organized.
For the last 3 weeks or so we've had the best weather! Sunny, very warm, the highs in the uppers 80's, almost no rain except for a couple of days- just really beautiful. Now that Easter Sunday is coming up, of course the weather is gonna be much colder. The highs this coming week are going to be in the upper 50's - low 60's and the lows are going to be in the low to mid 30's ! What the heck is that all about? I wanted this coming holiday weekend to be sunny, warm and just beautiful. We are going to my cousins house like we do every year for an Easter cookout and egg hunt for the kids. It's always fun and last year it was so hot and sunny my husband looked like a lobster when we got home that evening he was sunburned. This year we'll probably be shivering the whole time and that just bugs me!
I'm still going to get my spray on tan like I had planned. At least I'll hopefully look like I'm warm in the Easter pics. I hope it will at least be 70 or warmer! Oh well, we'll just have to wait and see.
I am glad a new week is here, I am looking forward to seeing how the spray on tan looks this Friday. When I called and talked to them they said they had 3 levels of color- light, medium and dark. I wonder if they have pics of people before the tan in light, medium, and dark. I'd kinda like to see what I was about to get sprayed with. I don't want to look freaky or anything (this coming from someone with 11 piercings) *LOL* but y'all know what I mean. I don't wanna look like I've been dipped in wood varnish or anything weird.
Ok, that's all I've got for now, I've forgotten all the other stuff I had... if I happen to remember anything else that I had wrote down I'll post it later. I hope you all have a great Tuesday and hope that you're all doing good.
TGIF!!!!! I'm so thankful it's Friday! WI results are a loss of 0.8 ! I'm pretty excited about that because TOM is still here and so maybe I'll have an even better WI next Friday! Who knows? It's so exciting!!
I've lost 98.4 pounds total and I'm thrilled beyond imagination! I am 137.6 as of today!! Yeah Baby!!! Also, I've posted 2 new pics in my gallery. The first one is a pic of my 3 back tattoos, and a couple of pics under that is a pic of my ankle tattoo. The countdown has begun for my biggest tattoo yet, 21 more days. I'll be going back to the tattoo shop next week and seeing how the customization is going and seeing if I like it so far. There's nothing like getting a reward for something you've worked so hard for. This has been a long time coming.
Tomorrow I'll be taking my MIL and SIL to see a family member and then after that I'll drop them off at their house, come home, help my husband load up the lawn mowers & weedeater, on the trailer and we'll head to his moms house to do her yard. I suspect it will take about 2 and a half hours or so, but I'll be burning calories so that's an upside to it!
I have so much stuff going on in the next month. I'm taking my moms 2 female cats and my 2 female cats and having them all spayed on April 30th- I have my moms 55th birthday coming up on the 10th, My hubby has a follow up doctors appointment on the 18th with his ENT, I have a doctors appointment on the 27th @ 2:00 and then on the 20th at 4:30 I'll go get my tattoo. I have a my very first ever spray tan appointment on Friday the 6th, so I'll hopefully look tan in my Easter pics. Not to mention we are going to my cousins annual Easter get together on what else, Easter Sunday for a cookout and egg hunt for the kids. We do that every year and people are clicking away with the cameras so I want to have a healthy tan so I don't look like a ghost in the pics. Plus, I have noticed I look about 5-7 pounds lighter in weight when I have a nice good tan, and that's always helpful to look lighter!
Not to mention I take care of my BIL's affairs while he's absent so that takes up a lot of time as well, I take my MIL and SIL every Thursday evening and Saturday morning to see a family member. I also take them to the store when they need groceries or whatever, I take my MIL to her medical appointments and on top of all that I watch my cousins little boy when her mom (my aunt) has a doctors appointment. She has 2 this month I believe. So my schedule is pretty full, it has been really for the past 17 months since my MIL lost 90% of her eyesight due to diabetes. But it keeps me busy and moving and usually always on the go. And you know what, I'm thankful for all the things in my life right now, even though I do get aggervated at times and feel wore out, I'm thankful I can get up and go when I need to. I am so thankful for my eyesight, health, and really just everything.
My next challenge is to quit smoking. I don't have a set date yet, but it will be by the last day in August... nothing is set in stone just yet, but I'll of course keep you all updated on what's going on and all of my plans and challenges.
I hope that each one of you has a great day and that you used today to get closer to your goal. Each day is so precious, I wasted so many days complaining about being fat and miserable and depressed. I can't believe I did that for 14 years. It makes me sad knowing all of the time I wasted and things I missed out on because of my weight. But it's a new day, and I'm choosing to lead a healthy life, not only physically, but it helps me mentally as well. I'm no longer depresed and only suffer from anxiety every now and then. So life is good! Have a great day y'all!
I might see you all this weekend, or I may take the weekend off from blogging, I'm just not real sure of anything right now. But just in case, have a great weekend as well! USE it to get closer to your goal, not to eat like we have a free pass!
Hi everyone, it's really late here (3:00 a.m.) and I'm just here to put up a quick note. Yes, when I get my new lower back tattoo I'll gladly post it. My appointment is for Friday, April 20th, at 4:30 p.m. I'll post a pic of my 4 tats that I have now when I get up later today when I post my WI results.
Thank you for all the great comments! Y'all are all really so great and encouraging!
TGIF y'all !! Make it a great day and make it count towards your goal.
I took the first step... To getting my new back tattoo!!!! Yeah baby, Yeah! (That was in my Austin Powers voice by the way.) So today after taking my BIL's taxes to the place he's gotten his taxes done for the past 2 years, and no one being there at all and no "Out To Lunch-Be Back by X:XX" note on the door- I'll have to go back Monday, and then after taking my husband to his ENT appointment, which went really well, I stopped back by my favorite tattoo shop and told my artist what I wanted, and wrote a semi-detailed description down for him of what I had in mind for my next tattoo. I made sure he still had my numbers for my home and cell just in case he had any questions and I also made my appointment for Friday April 20th !!!!!! I am so happy and excited. It's gonna be some awesome ink on my back! There's nothing like having custom ink done, not off a flash board or anything, something you've put together yourself. I'm so stoked about this!!!!!!! It's been a really long time since I had some ink done. ( 2 years) Yikes! That's too long!!!!
I'm positive I'll be be down 2.8 pounds in 23 days to make it "official" for my 100 pounds lost reward, in fact I'll go out on a limb here and say I'll be down 6 pounds in 23 days. That means I'll have to weigh 132.8 on or before April 20th.
Oh I'm not sweatin' it at all . Today I woke up with a renewed since of energy and a new outlook to reach my goal. I've decided I'm going to lose the last 20 lbs. with as much passion, energy and enthusiasm as I did my first 20 lbs. !!
Yesterday was a "blah" day, TOM showed up and I was all bloated and achy and just felt really bad as I do every month he shows up. I felt a little bit better today so that's good news! The scales were quite kind to me this morning, that was more good news and I was thankful.
Speaking of being thankful I watched Oprah the other day and they had Reverend Will Bowen from Kansas City on there who started his church out with purple bracelets like the yellow ones that Lance Armstrong had going for cancer and the pink for breast cancer, etc... His were purple and they say "A Complaint Free World" on them. I ordered one because I think I complain too much. The goal is to go 21 days without complaining about anything. If you find yourself complaining you have to take the bracelet off and switch it to the other wrist. I already have a ring made out of the same rubber/plastic material that has the words "eat better" on it. It's a baby blue color and I'm not sure but I think it's visable in 1 or more of my pics in the photo gallery. It reminds me to make better food choices instead of grabbing something like a bag of M&M's or some junk like that. I think it helps me having that on my finger, so why not try another "reminder" to not complain so much?
I feel I complain a lot about money and weight and not having enough time and other petty- little things. So instead of complaining about the things I feel that I lack in one way or another, I'm going to be thankful for the things I have in abundance. Like my husband and son, love, family ( mom, aunt, grandmother, cousins,) laughter, my Internet friends, my home, healthy food, our cars... I just have SO many things to be thankful for. For instance, all of the cars we own run in perfect shape, all are paid for but 1 and it should be paid off by the end of this year. I am so thankful my husband has a good job and we have health insurance with dental and vision.
Our house is old but it's ours, it doesn't look pretty or cute like I want it to look, but it keeps us cool in the summer and warm and dry in the winter. We've remodled the bathroom completely, and the living room, both rooms are done except for the trim and baseboards. We'll get to it when we get to it. I am really gonna chill from now on. I've got a wonderful life! There's no need in stressing over things that's out of my hands for the time being.
There's just so much, I am happy and thankful to have. I shouldn't go around being so negative all the time over money and numbers on the scales and not having enough time to get things done. Tomorrow is not guaranteed, so I'm going to enjoy TODAY!
I'm sure I'll have to switch my bracelet a few times before I break the habit of being a "complainer" but I feel it's a good thing for me to be more conscious of my words/feelings/attitude in my life. Maybe it'll make me a better person.
I hope that each of you reading this have a great and safe day tomorrow! Also, I hope you have a "Complaint Free World" that you'll live in tomorrow!! Now, I'm going to check up on all of you - (read blogs) LOL What? You thought I was coming over without being invited first? Never. I'm southern, we have manners.
Hi everyone, it's Monday morning and I hope that you all had a good weekend. I had a pretty good weekend except for Saturday when I did something I haven't done in a very long time. I ate way more than I needed to and I am trying to figure out why. I am back and forth on this issue trying to analyze why I did it. My husband has a theory and I have one too. So here goes-
On Saturday after cleaning the inside of the house I went out and I worked in the yard all day from noon- six in the evening. I picked up fallen tree limbs, cut the grass and raked. Doesn't sound like much does it? I was outside about 6 hours doing this almost non stop except to go in an get more water and tinkle. We have a HUGE yard and a lot of huge oak trees, 1 really big hemlock, a redbud, three black walnut trees about 4 maple trees and a few more, but their names escape me now, anyways during the winter months we have large limbs fall off the many trees we have, thus in the spring we have a LOT of limbs and twigs to be picked up. It took me over an hour to get them all up before I even started mowing. I used the wheelbarrow to move the heavy limbs to the back of the yard. I made many, many trips. It was 88 degrees Saturday we broke a record that day for the high!
It was absolutely gorgeous! I kept hydrated well with water and had eaten my normal breakfast of 1 cup Cheerios Blueberry Yogurt Burst in 1 cup of soy milk and fresh fruit. So I had some energy from my breakfast to get me off to a good start. It felt so good to be outside and not have on a huge coat and gloves, I was enjoying the day and to be honest I was really getting into the yard work like I never have before in the past. I noticed I could work fo about 2 hours at a time before I had to stop and take a water/bathroom break. Last year I was just a few pounds under of 200 pounds and I could barely breathe. Last year I was so much heavier that it was physically hard to work longer than 30 minutes at a time without sitting down for a 20 minute break.
This year I didn't have to sit down every 30 minutes and have a 20 minute break. This year I'd work about 2 hours before stopping and getting more water and going to the bathroom. I maybe had a 10 - 15 minute break about every 2 hours. This year I felt so invigorated!! So motivated, full of life andenergy!! I worked so hard and I loved it. My yard is looking very, very good right now, but I have a lot more work to do. There are bushes to cut down, some that just need a to be trimmed back a bit, and a few other thngs as well, so I plan on doing that on days this week that I don't have to take anyone anywhere or go do anything.
The problem started when I came in the house, I was STARVING. I didn't eat lunch and it had been a long time since breakfast. I was filthy with dirt and grass and leaves and sweat and I looked like I had just rolled all over the ground, I had little tiny twigs in my hair, leaves sticking to my clothes and socks, dirt under my fingernails. I looked a mess! I was also exhausted. So I'm starving, filthy and exhausted. I didn't feel like cooking, my husband had been inside all day with a terrible earache and sinus problems (he has a doctors appointment on Wednesday with an ENT specialist) He's been miserable for the past 2 months with ear pain and sinus issues.
He loves cooking and usually cooks when I am out working in the yard or whatnot. But he had been sleeping off and on all day, I felt so bad for him. My 14 year old son tells me matter of factly that he does not want to eat a sandwich for dinner, he wants something "hot". So what's my solution? I call Pizza Hut and order a large Super Supreme, a large Veggies Lovers, a family size order of breasticks and a family order of cinnamon sticks. Then I go take a shower because it will be 45 minutes before it's delivered.
Now that I've had a shower and scrubbed under my nails and washed the grit and grime off and I am no longer making a southern fashion statement by walking around with twigs in my hair I feel so good and clean. *LOL*
The pizza gets here, I make myself a large salad, with green leaf lettuce, romaine lettuce, fresh raw baby spinach, bell pepper, red onion, baby carrots, sliced cucumbers, and grape tomatoes. I use light salad dressing. I get 1 small slice of the Veggie Lovers pizza along with my salad. I have water and a Diet Cherry Coke Zero. Should be filling right?
I tried to eat as slow as I could, but since I was starving very bad by this time it really wasn't as slow as I normally would eat. I ate half my salad before I even touch my small piece of pizza. Then once the pizza hit my mouth it was on...
I got up and got another small slice of pizza and sat back down and proceeded to inhale it along with the rest of my salad. All the while thinking how hungry I still was. So I finish every bite of the salad and 2nd piece of pizza, drink 24 ounces of water with dinner and a Diet Cherry Zero. When I got up from the table to put my dishes away I was still very hungry. But I didn't eat anymore right then, I decided to wait 45 minutes to see if the hunger would go away, if not I'd eat something lite to see if that helped me. So 45 minutes goes by and I'm still feeling hungry, physicaly hunger, not mental.
So I get 1 cup of Cheerios and 1 cup of soy milk, low in calories and fat, good for me right? No. Because on the 2nd bowl of cereal I didn't even measure the cereal or soy milk, just pour and eat... An hour after eating the cereal I was in the kitchen getting me a water and a Special K bar, then later on I remember eating 2 peanut butter fudge cookies, and then getting another salad and another slice of pizza only this time I had 2 bread sticks to go with it. I ended up eating so much and I never really felt satisfied. I was so disappointed in myself. I really took eating like that really hard, because I had not eaten like that in a long, long time.
My hubby said he thought it was because I used up a lot of energy working in the yard. I think it's because TOM was supposed to be here on Saturday and didn't show up. I feel like he's going to show up anytime, but he's just not here yet. I just feel like I ate so out of control, I don't like feeling like that, it made me very nervous and I was sooooo extra careful on Sunday after that episode of marathon eating. I'm just so disappointed in myself. I know that nobody is perfect, that we all have slip ups, but this was really like a major eating frenzy and it felt devestating to eat like that and not even feel full or sick. Sunday I was back OP and today has gone really good. I weighed this morning for the first time since Saturday morning. I just couldn't bring myself to weigh Sunday morning, I was too scared of what the scales might say. Today they said I had 0.3 gain from what the doctors scales said on Friday the 23rd. So if that's all the damage I did then I'll try to move on.
I don't ever want to feel like that again, I felt out of control and I didn't like that at all. I didn't lose all this weight to eat like that again. I didn't come all this way to turn around and go back. I'm 18.8 pounds from goal and I'm not gonna screw it up this time. I'm pissed off at myself, but I'm making the choices I need to make for the rest of the week.
I will have a loss by this Friday, I'm not playing around on this. I've got my game face on, so it's on!
<~~~ Game face!
I hope you all have a great Monday!!
Keep on rockin' it!
~Tink~ P.S. I took my measurements Saturday morning, I've lost 7 and 3/4 inches since 2-20-07 .. Two of those in my waist! YAAAY !!!!!
P.S. I bought a size 5 Levis at Goodys yesterday, I will be wearing them today for Easter, no dress way too cold. Besides I'm not a dress kind of person. I'm taking pics of my tags with the size showing, I could NOT believe it!!! I'll post those as well.
*LOL*
Yikes! That's too long!!!!
