TGIF!!! Weigh In Results and Tattoo Talk - WOO HOO !!!
TGIF!!!! I can't believe Friday is finally here! It seems like it's taken forever for it to get here. It's probably because I have been looking forward to this day for a long, long time. I can't say I'm real happy about todays WI results, but I'm not really surprised.
I show a 0.6 pound gain today and although I'm not happy about it, I do understand why. TOM will be here shortly and "he" always messes my WI's up. He's a very rude guest!! So because of the gain I'm now back @ 134.4 again.
I knew before I even got on the scales and weighed I was gonna show a gain. I fell asleep with one of my rings that I normally take off at night, when I got up I noticed my fingers were swollen and looked pretty puffy. So I'm gonna just assume that it's water weight and that I didn't really gain actual body fat. I've been really good here this week, but I don't think I've gotten in all of my water for the past 2 days. I've been drinking it, but I just don't think it's been enough.
Oh well, what can ya do?? I just plan on drinking much more water than I have been and hoping that by next Friday I'll show a nice loss.
But on to something else- I'm soooooo excited! I go and get my tatt today @ 4:30! I have a few errands I've gotta run today before I go, but they are really simple ones and take no time at all.
While I'm out I'm also treating myself to a Chick-Fil-A Chargrilled Chicken Sandwich for 270 calories 3.5 grams of fat and 2 large Fruit Cups 100 calories each 0 fat. I haven't had fast food in a long time.
I went yesterday and got everyone something from KFC but I didn't have the first bite of any of it. I avoided it like the plague. Instead of eating that greasy fried chicken (which by the way I do love) I told myself I'd have my own version of chicken today and 2 large fruit cups. It was enough to keep me away from the chicken and butter laced corn on the cob and salt laden mashed potatoes and butter drowned biscuits. In all honesty I love fattening foods, LOVE them. But I don't love what they do to my waist or body after consuming it on a regular basis. It's just not worth it.
I was grocery shopping the other day and I went to the dairy section and they had a milk display set up and they had 3 sets of free magnets to encourage you to drink 24 ounces of milk in 24 hours (you can eat a milk product though instead of drinking milk, like yogurt, low fat cheese etc..) I got 1 of each set, they were 100% free! They have great short sayings on there to keep you encouraged about losing weight and being healthy. Look for them in your dairy section next time you go shopping!
Ok, y'all. I have a lot I have got to do today. I've got to catch up on seeing how everyone is doing. I've been so behind on reading any blogs lately. I'm gonna try to be all caught up by late tonight after I get the pics loaded on my blog.
I hope each and every single one of you have a great Friday!!
Use today to get closer to your goal, life is too short to spend it miserable about your weight, so do something about it and get it off! You will be glad you did!
I miss all of you, I'm gonna try to catch up as quickly as I can!!
Guess who went to.... (THURSDAY POST ) Sorry it's late
**POSTED AFTER MIDNIGHT @ 3:00 a.m. - so it will show as a FRIDAY POST** ***Sorry I'm so late in posting this guys***
Guess who went and seen her artist today.....
That's right it was me!!! And I am so excited about my ink tomorrow! You wanna know the truly hilarious thing? He didn't know who I was until I took out a couple of old pics of myself. *** More on that in a moment***
It has been about 19 months or so since he'd last seen me. I noticed 2 weeks ago when my DH & I went in to talk with him about my new art I was wanting, he kinda had a dazed and confused look about him when I was talking to him like I knew him (because I do know him and have for the past 6 years - LMAO*) so anyways....
I went to the studio today and I must say I was looking pretty cute, my hair was being good and cooperating and my new foundation made my skin look better that it has in a long time! So, I walk in and he comes out of his studio room and smiles, and I say "Hi" and I ask how he's coming along with the design and I wait for his response.... and wait..... (LOL) So he's looking at me and he says "Oh yeah- you came in a couple weeks back." and I nod and smile and say "Yes, and I talked with you about the custom design I was wanting."
So anyways we are talking and it's more like he's staring at me than looking at me.... See, when I went in two weeks ago, I asked him after talking to him for about 20 minutes- "You do know who I am, right?" and he smiled and nodded yes and said something like "Oh yeah, of course I do." But I knew better. When we left I said to my husband "I think he was lying to me, I don't think he knows who I am at all." and my hubby agreed. (He's only met my hubby once, so I didn't expect him to know who he was, even though he did do one of his arm tattoos)
So I went in today to check up on things and see if he had any questions. So we are talking about the different aspects of the design and talking about changing a couple of things and afterword I look at him right in the eyes and I say "Tell me the truth- you don't know who the hell I am do you?" and he kinda shook his head no and he said that he knew my eyes, that they looked familiar and my voice was very familiar too, but he could not place me, he said it drove him nuts after we left the first time 2 weeks ago.... *****I KNEW IT! HA !!!! *****
So I pulled out a couple of old pics of me of what I looked like when he had last seen me. He looked at them and looked back at me and then back at the pics again. He shook his head no and said. "No I know her, I've done work on her before." I was laughing so hard and I turned around and showed him my back- I thought he was going to lose his mind right there in the middle of the shop.
He turned beet red and was laughing and sputtering words like, "Oh my God you look fantastic!" and "I can't believe I didn't know who you were!!" and if memory serves I think he said "Oh my God" like ten more times.... *LOL* I was blushing during his reaction, he just couldn't believe it was me.
I still think that I look like myself, only a thinner version of me. I don't think I look like a totally different person or anything. I have changed my hair color and makeup style & even clothing style since he last saw me, but I still look like me, to me. Maybe I do look like another person, I dunno. But he was really freakin' out about it...
It was so funny! It really made my entire day. So he started talking a lot faster and a lot more now, plus he was smiling the whole time -- before he's was kinda quite and acted a little put off. I guess because he thought I was some wacko "acting like I knew him" or something. It cracks me up to think about the look he had on his face. It was priceless!
So anyways, we talk and catch up, then I asked him to quote me a price so I know how much to bring with me tomorrow. He quotes me @ $150.00--- I am looking at him and I KNOW that's a very,very low price for what I am getting. I've been in there many, many times before just hanging out with the guys and someone they didn't know would walk in off the street and want something like a small pair of dice on their wrist and 2 initials and they'd want $65.00 for a tatt that wasn't going to be much bigger than a half-dollar coin. And my artist has been featured in tattoo mags for several of his designs, he's really awesome at what he does. He is the best in our area. And my husband and I both were thinking it was gonna run about 300-350.00 for the size and design that I had come up with, because it's pretty big and it's gonna take a while to do.
(Good Lord, I'm making a short story LONG huh? Sorry 'bout that, I am long winded I reckon' - plus I'm excited and I talk a lot when I'm excited.)
I look at him and I say something along the lines of "Umm, that's kind of a low price isn't it? It's a pretty big design." ((( It's not like I have money to just give away or anything, but I didn't feel right him doing the work for that amount, I KNOW how much a good tattoo cost and I was more than willing to pay for it)))
(continued....) he smiles and says "Oh it's ok, I'll have the other form of payment along with the money" and I'm like " ??? " and he says and I quote "Well, the added bonus is I do get to see you half nekkid." ( misspelled naked on purpose)
I'm thinking in my mind "OMG! He's freakin flirting with me!"
I know that I turned red, I felt my face get hot. It's one thing to have a guy smile at you while you're waiting at a red light, or one that holds the door open for you @ a gas station, or even the guy working at the post office who just seems "extra nice". But it's a whole other thing to have someone you've known for a long time just come out and blatantly flirt with you. I wasn't even expecting anything like that!
So when I left the studio I was walking to my car and I called my husband and I said "Guess how much it's gonna cost." and he said "No. - I don't think I want to even know, just don't tell me." and I started laughing and he said "Ok tell me." and I waited for about 5 seconds and he said "I can't stand it, tell me" "Is it bad?" "It's bad ain't it ?!" LOL he was starting to sound almost desperate now, and I didn't want to make him suffer any longer so I told him and he was like "WOW!!!!" He said he couldn't believe it and then I told him all about being flirted with, and he started laughing and said "Ohhh ok, now I get it."
He also said next time he goes to get a new tatt he wants me to come along with him, and that he might get a deal like I did. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
So that's what's went on today. I went to bed at 1:00 last night (Wednesday night) and got up at 5:00 a.m. (Thursday morning) and I've been going ever since. I didn't even get home tonight until 10:30 (Thursday night)
Usually I'm home by 8:30 or 9:00 at the latest on Thursdays... But today was different. I had so many things to try and get done. I am so tired right now, I'll holler at y'all in the morning because it's WI day for me!
I hope you are all doing good. I'm sorry if my post seems kinda all over the place, I'm just not thinking too good right now. I'm gonna hit the hay, I have to get up early in the morning and get a few things done before tomorrow afternoon! Also, as soon as I get back home from getting the tatt in the evening, I'll upload my pics... I'll see y'all in the morning.
I am so excited I have butterflies in my stomach!!!
Hi everyone! So how did your weekend go? Mine was pretty good, although I wasn't crazy about all the rain we got, I did get a lot of sleep -so that was good. I'm so looking forward to this coming Friday! That's the day I get my new ink!!! I have a lot going on this week, so I'm thinking about taking the next 2 days off from blogging, and posting a new post on Thursday. That all could change though, it just depends on how well I manage my time and all the things I have to do. Who knows? I might post again Tuesday or Wednesday or both - LOL --
But I thought it was best that I tell you not to expect a post for the next 2 days just in case.
I've been doing really well with my plan and staying OP. I know it's harder for me on the weekends, but I managed to get through it almost effortlessly. I say almost because I did have temptations around me, but I was really strong and had control of my eating and feelings/emotions etc... So it's becoming like a habit to stay OP and avoid certain foods almost automatically. Almost.. I don't think I'll ever relax around food again. And you know what, that's ok with me. I am a healthier person because I'm not relaxed and that's good. I'll always have a food addiction and have that little voice in the back of my mind saying "Oh you can have a little of that, it wont hurt you." or "You have worked so hard today, you should reward yourself with a piece of cake." or "You are so stressed out, why don't you have some comfort food to make you feel better."
I know I'll always have that, but I usually snuff out that little voice by calling it bad names (LOL) and it usually goes away in a hurry.
I'm just feeling like I have more control over my life and health than I've ever had before, and it really is an amazing feeling.
There's been a HUMAN food recall by the FDA on olives. I'm copying & pasting a print version of my local news that covered it. Please be aware of when you go to Subway to avoid the olives, pass the info on to family and friends so they are not exposed to the danger too.
*NEWS* Olive Recall
The FDA has issued a warning to consumers about olives that have been recalled due to a possible contamination of a deadly bacterium.
The olives were produced by an Italian company and sold nationwide under brand names such as Borrelli, Vantia and Roland. The olives may be contaminated with a botulism causing bacterium. All the affected olives have product codes that start with the letter "G" followed by three or four digits.
Botulism symptoms include muscle weakness, dizziness, double vision and trouble speaking and swallowing. No illnesses have been reported in connection with these olives.
*END OF NEWS*
Ok y'all I'm off, I'll more than likely see you Thursday when I plan on posting again, but ya never know it could be sooner!
I hope each one of you use today to get closer to your goal. Weight loss isn't easy, but it is worth every ounce of effort you put into it! And we all know that ounces add up to pounds... Happy Monday all!
Good morning everyone!! It's Saturday and I'm ready for another day!! I feel so good this morning!! I just wanted to put a new quote up I'm now using along with another in my E-mail signature. I think it speaks volumes!
**Some people dream of worthy accomplishments, while others stay awake and do them.** - Dr. Alan Zimmerman
Is that a great quote or what? I love that! When I read that I thought "Wow, that's a really smart quote." I just thought I'd share it with y'all because well, I'm nice! LOL
I've gotta get up and get in the shower, I am playing chauffeur to my MIL & SIL today as usual. So I've gotta run.
I would like to say real quick: Use today to get closer to your goal, not futher away from it. I know a lot of us have trouble staying OP on the weekends because they are not as structured as the workweek, but stay "AWAKE" and be aware of what you are eating, and why you are eating it... I am AWAKE today! How about you??
TGIF!! Wow! this week has flew by huh? Today is Weigh In day! Ok, if you remember on Good Friday last week I had a 0.8 gain and it made me mad as hell. So I did a juice and water fast until Easter morning and had a 3.0 pound loss to make my weight 135.4 - Today I am 133.8 which is a loss of 1.6 pounds YAY!!! I'm 13.8 pounds from my goal of 120.0 !!!! AND I have PASSED my 100 pounds lost mark, I'm at 102.2 pounds LOST !!! It's OFFICIAL!!!!!! Yeah baby!! I can't believe that, it's surreal to type that number out and see it.. I'm really so happy and proud of myself.
I can't believe I'm almost there, I really never thought I'd ever get to this weight again in a million years... I swear, I didn't think I would ever be here again in my lifetime. I don't know how I kept going with such a lousy attitude about it, but thank God I did.
I'm not trying to sound ungrateful or anything, but yesterday I went to file an extension on my BIL's taxes, and when I got out of the car my husband was walking behind me and he said "Your jeans are baggy in the butt." I was quite happy and a little upset at the same time, they were my new size 5 Levis and I could feel they were roomier than when I first bought them- even before he made that comment. So of course I'm ECSTATIC about that, but I've also made the decision I'm not buying ANY MORE new clothes until I reach goal. I just can't afford to keep buying things and losing weight and them not fitting me anymore. I donate all of my clothes to the homeless shelter (except for all those capri pants- my Mom asked for them) but I've donated all of my old sleep clothes, sweaters, tops, shorts, jackets, coats, jeans, bras even shoes. I lost 1 whole size in shoes, I did wear an 8 for the last 14 years and now I wear a 7 in shoes- weird huh?
So I'm feeling really great, not only about my weight. But I just feel really good in general about a lot of things. I'm so excited about this coming Friday -- Only 7 more days until my new tattoo!!! I'm thinking about going to see my artist Eric this evening and seeing what he's got done so far. I have a lot of house cleaning I am gonna be doing today and I don't know if I'll feel like it later on, if not I'll go either Saturday or Monday.
My husband always takes pics when I go get new ink, so I'll be posting them this coming Friday night. I'm pretty sure my artist will be able to finish it in 1 sitting, I'm hoping so anyway. He may try to talk me into splitting it up into two different sessions because I'm a "girl" (well at 35 I can't really be a girl but you know what I mean) *lol*
But I'm not gonna split the sessions, I want it finished that day! (HEHEHE)
Ok, well- I think that's all I've got for now. I'm going to check up on y'all and see how you are doing.
Please use today to get closer to your own personal goal. If someone like me can lose weight, you can lose weight!!!!!!!
Have a great Friday everyone, and have an even better weekend!!!!
So it's 2:30 a.m. Thursday morning. My Mom had a doctors appointment yesterday morning and she has another one in 2 weeks to get a mammogram. The mammogram usually goes straight to a tech to see if it needs to be looked at by a doctor, but hers will be going straight to the doctor bypassing the tech altogether. I don't know how I feel about that, it makes me think something bad is wrong with her and they already know it or at least suspect it. Also, she's lost 11 pounds. I don't know if it's because she's subconsciously trying to lose weight because of me or if it's because she is sick. I do know that for the past month or two she eats and 15 minutes later she's trying to hurry and get to the bathroom. Her food goes straight through her. I'm just worried about all that adding up to breast cancer. But before I freak out, I'm just gonna try and not worry too much and see what her tests say. I'll keep you posted.
So I've done really good this past week, even with a whipped cream icing birthday cake in the house that just tastes Divine with a capitol "D". I had a tiny piece today, about the size of a peanut butter cup, so I didn't do so bad. I'm gonna have to either make everyone hurry up and finish it off - or freeze it. I can only stand temptation for so long, and I can only show good judgment for so long as well. I know where this could be headed if I don't take action now. One of three things are gonna happen tomorrow: 1- they eat the rest of the cake- 2- I throw the cake away- or 3- I freeze the cake in the chest freezer. (I don't eat things like that once it's been frozen, I'm really funny about things like that, so it would be safe from me thawing it out and eating it 2 weeks from now. Because that's something I simply would not do. Yuck...
I'm taking my MIL & SIL to Sams today. They always wanna eat a slice of pizza when we go, and the slices of Sams pizza are so HUGE!!!! I think I'll get a piece but cut it in half and give it to my son. Onetime my son who's 14 ate 2 HUGE slices of pizza and a really big cinnamon pretzel and a large Coke in one sitting. So I'm sure he'll be able to eat his full size slice and the other half of mine. He's tall and skinny and he's just like my husband, they can consume about 4,000 calories PER DAY and stay the same weight. They must have a great metabolism or something. My son and hubby are so skinny, it makes me wonder why scientists can't study people like them and figure out what they have inside their bodies that we don't. I just think that if they did a study about people who can eat whatever they want and as much as they want and never get fat they'd eventually open up the door to obesity and figure out why one person can eat a 4 oz. piece of cake and stay the same weight and another can eat the same 4 oz. piece of cake and gain 2 pounds.
I still have this idea where they should & could come up with a nasal spray that you spray up your nose and it makes you able to not smell anything for about 2 hours at a time, no matter how strong the scent is you just couldn't smell it. Just think, you could walk by a bakery baking fresh bread and not smell it. I've actually smelled food in the mall food court before and instantly became so hungry I thought I was starving, when just 5 minutes before I wasn't even thinking about food. So smell of course has a huge impact on a persons brain when it comes to food and the level of how hungry you are OR the level of how hungry your BRAIN is making you think you are...
Here's another idea- make a mouth spray that you spray like a sore throat medicine and it makes you not taste anything at all for let's say 2 hours at a time.. OR it could make all the food you try to eat taste really horrible like it's spoiled or rotten. I bet either one of those products would help people on their battle with weight loss. I know I'd certainly try both products if they were ever to come out on the market. That would be a great thing to have in case of a last minute dinner party and you don't wont to blow your diet, you could either use the nose spray and not smell the food and everyone knows if you can't smell it you wont be able to taste it. Or you might wanna use the mouth spray, which would make all the foods taste like they are spoiled OR it would have no taste at all and so you only eat a bite of this and a bite of that. That would rock! Oh well, I'll keep hoping, dreaming and wishing for science to get on the ball and do something great like that.
Besides my hopes and dreams of science I've got nothing else to talk about.
I've got a busy day ahead of me. I hope that you are all doing great and using today to get closer to your goal!!!! I'm off to catch up on blogs and to see who's updated while my laundry finishes and then I'm off to bed.
I hate thinking up titles, let's call it Wednesdays Post, shall we?
So here it is, 2:30 Wednesday morning. My mom had a good birthday yesterday. I've told her that when she feels up to it, to call her stylist and make her an appointment so she can get her hair cut and colored, that was my gift to her. Plus, I got her some new gowns that she loves. She got gift cards and other presents from other family members as well.
I've done really well today as far as being OP. That's really good since I've been stressed out here lately because I feel like I'm being pulled in every direction. Taking my MIL & SIL all the places they have to go, now my mom is having some sort of medical problems and she also let her licenses expire. Taking care of my BIL's crap he has going on... I'm just really tired, plus I have a 14 year old son and a husband. I've not even had time to properly clean the house in the past week. I'll be trying to get that done tomorrow when I get back from taking my mom to the doctor. I did get the bathroom cleaned and organized today, so that's at least 1 room that's done. Hopefully I'll be able to clean the living room, and kitchen tomorrow and maybe even straighten up my bedroom a little bit. Thursday is always a busy day for me. I'm taking my MIL & SIL to Sams and then in the evening to visit a family member. That doesn't seem like much but it is a lot, believe me. I just get so tired of my MIL's other kids not doing anything for her and her daughter. If it wasn't for me they'd set over there and starve to death and never get to go anywhere.
I use to eat out of stress, now I don't. What's changed you ask? Well, I've changed my eating habits quite a lot over the last 16 months or so. So I try not to turn to food for "comfort" or "relief". Every now and then I'll catch myself lurking in the kitchen when I am dealing with stress or anger or whatever, but usually I snap back into the present and face reality. Reality is if I eat because I'm having problems, then I'm gonna be 236 or bigger if I start that habit back up again. Because I am like every other person on the planet. I have problems.. I know better than to eat for comfort , so I try really hard to stay "aware" about my feelings & mood- and such.
I'm just really grateful that I'm where I am at, I started this blog with 37 more pounds to lose to get to my goal. I've lost 22 of those 37 and I feel that I'll be losing the last 15.4 pounds within the next 2 months. My goal date is August of this year, but I'm really hoping to be at 120 pounds by June 1, 2007. That would be so awesome! We'll see.
I'm really sad to see JD just up and leave EP. He was such a nice guy and he was doing so great! He'd already lost 50 pounds and was making great progress in his weight loss, but he just up and vanished. POOF!
I feel really bad that he's not here to get support, but if he wasn't mentally ready to lose weight then he just wasn't ready. I think I kept myself fat for a long time because I was scared of the attention I might get from other people. Not just men, but everyone in general, I think I wanted to be invisible and when I was obese I was invisible, trust me. All I know is that I just wasn't happy being a size 20, 236 pounds and hiding in my house all of the time. So I finally stopped talking about it and took action. I use to talk all the time about losing weight. "I wish I could lose just 30 pounds" or "Man, I wish I could just stick to a diet for longer than 4 days!" or my favorite one of all time- "I'll start on Monday."
Then after making comments like that I'd pile more food on my already overflowing plate. I don't have a great story to tell you about how it "clicked" with me about weight loss-other than my MIL finding out she had diabetes and a whole list of other medical problems. I just thought to myself "I don't want to end up like this" "I don't want to lose my sight due to diabetes" - "I don't want to lose a limb because of diabetes" ( My MIL hasn't lost any limbs, but it's pretty common for diabetics to lose a limb and we know plenty of people who have lost a foot, part of their leg from the knee down, or the whole leg because of it.) But what I really didn't want to lose was my eyesight. I've seen how that's affected her life to the point of getting off my ass and losing the weight I had carried around with me for so long.
I don't want to depend on someone to take me to the store to get a gallon of milk, and then on top of that, getting to the store and not even being able to see the milk to choose my brand... No thank you. I'll just eat better foods, and less of them. Ok, that's it for now, I think I might have preached some in this post. I didn't mean to, it just kinda came out.
Two more things and then I'm off to fix hubbys lunch-
I want to thank every single one of you who left a comment on my blog the other day giving me the most wonderful compliments and for also sending prayers and good vibes for my Mom! I was so excited to see all of the positive words of encouragement from each and every single one of you! It really made me feel good about myself and it lifted my spirits about my Moms situation more than you'll ever know!!!!!! Also, as soon as my cousin sends me the pics she took on her camera I'll post more Easter pics. Thank you all so very much!! I told my Mom there are a lot of people praying for her, she was really touched. She thought it was pretty cool for complete strangers to pray for her. I think it's pretty cool too!!
And lastly, I'm worried about Alexia- she hasn't posted since Friday and that bothers me. Is it like her to go this long without posting? I haven't been on EP for very long, only a couple of months so I don't know if it's routine for her to do that or not. I just felt like it was out of the norm. Yes, I worry too much, even about people I don't "personally" know. I'm still worried about JD to be honest with ya. <SIGH> I worry too much! Ok, that's all from my neck of the woods. I'll posts a quick update later on today when I get back from taking my Mom to the doctor- maybe we'll know something. I just hope she's going to be ok.
Please use today to get closer to your goal, don't waste it like I did-- so many days, my wasted days added up to a little over 14 years.. I can never get those days back again.
Nonsense and just rambling on about nothing in particular...
So we had a great time on Easter Sunday at the cookout. It was 52 degrees and sunny, but it was really windy so that made it feel colder than it really was. I ate a lot of food at the cookout, and that's ok with me. I had planned it as a "Free Day" meaning I could eat whatever I wanted and not count Points.
I use to have a free day once a week for two reasons, 1- is that it helped me stay OP during the week knowing that whatever it was tempting me at that very moment I could have on my free day, and 2- it kept my body guessing about what I was doing, it was like I was tricking my body into letting go of stored fat. Because like some of you know after being very strict and staying OP almost to the point being anal, your body gets the idea that you might be in a famine and holds on very hard to the fat you already have stored in your body. By having a free day once a week it made my body "think" the famine was over and it would let go of some stored fat.
So anyways, we all had a great time. The kids hunted eggs and my son kept hiding them because they kept asking him to hide them so they could find them over and over again. Then the little kids wanted to hide the eggs and have my son look for them, he did and they loved it. It was a fun day and I felt really good because of all the compliments I was getting. It was a nice change of pace to feel good about myself. While we were there it dawned on me that I wasn't worried about what so & so would say or think about me. I wasn't worried about the clothes I picked out, I wasn't worried that my stomach was hanging over the waist of my jeans, I wasn't worried about whether or not my double chin was very noticeable,I wasn't worried about the rolls of fat on my back hanging out, I wasn't worried about anything. I just went and really had a good time.
Last Easter was a little bit different. Last year on Easter I was 194 pounds, I had already lost nearly 42 pounds and I was still quite big. Even though I had lost almost 42 pounds no one noticed at all, if they did notice they didn't say a word to me. (The 2 family members I was going to WW with at the time of course knew and always told me I was looking good and that I was doing so good etc..) but the people who didn't know we were going to WW didn't say anything. All 3 of us kept our WW meetings a secret, we'd failed in front of people so many times we just didn't want anyone to know that we were all trying again, just in case we failed again.
It's funny how people can be jealous of your success and make it oh so obvious that they aren't commenting on your weight loss no matter how spectacular. So even if you've lost 20, 30, 40 or even 50 pounds and no one has said anything to you, don't sweat it. I had to lose 98 pounds before a certain family member said anything to me about it. Yeah, can you believe that? 98 freakin' pounds and now all of a sudden she wants to tell me I am "wasting away". LOL yeah um, right. But the point is don't worry about what people are or aren't saying to you about your weight loss.
You wanna hear something funny? I thought it was funny anyways, you may not think so.. So when I was a size 14 - 20 no matter where I was at in between all those sizes I never liked the clothes they had in my size. Sure they had some nice clothes if you wanted to pay 65 bucks for a blouse and 120 dollars for a pair of jeans that were cut halfway decent, and since I didn't and couldn't pay that I ended up buying clothes I could almost stand, but didn't really like. I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about.
So when I was fat I griped about all the ugly clothes and about how the stores didn't carry cute clothes for "people my size". I swear to God it seemed like every time I found a top I liked, it was a small or an extra small. They didn't have any 1, 2 or 3 X's in my size. And how come when I found the cutest pair of jeans on the planet they were sizes 0 - 9? The 14 - 20 sizes were jeans that looked like they were made for Mrs. Roper off Three's Company! It wasn't fair! I would end up fuming about the ugly clothes they made for fat people, getting mad and crying in the dressing room and leaving the store in a fit of rage either with no new clothes or clothes I absolutely hated.
The shirts had the ugliest prints, the jeans were tacky and cheap looking no matter how much they cost. I was just so sick of the lack of cute clothes. Wanna know the funny thing now? I went to Goody's Saturday, the day before Easter trying to find something "cute" to wear and I was having a hard time finding jeans and tops in my size. LOL I swear I was almost in a panic when I tried on a pair of size 7 Levis and seen that if I lost 5 pounds after I bought them they'd no longer fit me the way I like to wear my jeans. It was so funny, my husband kept saying "It's ok, we'll find a pair like you like with the green stitching." He was so sweet trying to keep me calm and keep me from losing it in the store. And he was right, he found a pair with the color of stitching I wanted in a size 5 (Yeah a 5! YAY) I also had to make an effort to look for medium tops, they had about 8 large, and about 10 small and only 1 - 3 mediums of each color. I finally found the mediums. It just goes to show ya no matter what size you are it's always gonna be a pain in the butt finding clothes in your size. I think that's funny that I have the same problem with shopping now as I did back then. (Only now I love the clothes I end up buying!)
Oh, by the way- I went back to Goodys today and I bought 2 more tops like the yellow one in my Easter pics. I got pink and like a sea-foam green, very cute and they were in medium too! The sales girl said they had gotten a truck in & had just put them out on the rack before they opened. Plus, they were 40% off WOO HOO! So I have 3 tops and they are all the same style, but different colors. (LOL)
It just now hit me when I was looking at my calendar with all my daily weigh ins written down on it, Easter Sunday I hit the 100.6 pounds lost mark! BUT I didn't weigh this morning because of the free day Sunday, I will not weigh again until Friday. And I know a lot of you know that I am addicted to the scales and that I weigh every single morning, well I've got news for ya- when I have a free day I don't even want to get on the scales until my body has had time to adjust to all the extra salt and fat intake. So I will not be weighing until this Friday the 13th - That's always been a lucky day to me anyways. So I should make it "official" this Friday! Also not this Friday (the 13th) but the next Friday on the 20th I'll be getting my new ink! I'm so happy and excited about that! It's my reward for losing the weight.
On a different note, please pray for my Mom. She came to me last week and told me she has a knot in her breast, not a lump, but a huge knot. It's been hurting her for 2 months now and she just told me about it. She has a doctors appointment for Wednesday. I don't want her to have breast cancer, she smokes 2 packs of cigarettes a day and has since I was little. Her birthday is today April 10, she'll be 55. I have her cake ordered and her cards, and I'm having her hair done for her birthday. So just say a little prayer for my Mom. I'd really appreciate that.
Ok, it's almost 1:35 a.m. here and I've got to get the hubby's lunch made. I hope you all have a great Tuesday. I hope you use it to get closer to your goal. If I can do it you can do it!
Keep on rockin' it!
~Tink~ 10 days until my new tattoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've added new pics of Easter Sunday. Also, I can't believe JD is gone. He just took his site down. I feel really bad, he was such a sweetheart. Hopefully he'll come back in the future. But it must have been something he needed to do for one reason or another.
I'll give a proper update later on, right now it's 3:50 a.m. and I am dead tired. Hope you all had a great holiday. I'll check on everyone later when I get up.
TGIF!!!! I can't believe Friday is finally here! It seems like it's taken forever for it to get here. It's probably because I have been looking forward to this day for a long, long time. I can't say I'm real happy about todays WI results, but I'm not really surprised.
It cracks me up to think about the look he had on his face. 
- Dr. Alan Zimmerman
