I'm still here Plus 2 new Pics In My album
I'm still here, I've added 2 new pics in my EP album. My mom came through the surgery just fine, but they think the cancer has spread, they removed some of her lymph nodes. She doesn't let me go into the doctors office with her, so I'm not really sure what's going on, or how bad it might be. She's being very private about this matter and I feel so alone and lost.
My weight is stable, and I really am not concerned too much about numbers now. I weighed this morning and I was 131.2- so as long as I am under 135 I am ok I guess. I've been working my butt off while at work, plus I am walking A LOT, I posted a pic of my pedometer where I've walked almost 7 miles in one night, plus you gotta remember I am pushing a cart that weighes about 75 pounds, so my husband says I am building muscle and that's why my weight is just being stable, but my body fat percentage is droping.
I've not been blogging at all, I just don't have the time. Even on my off days I'm busy cleaning the house, running my mom and other people to their doctors appointments and I'm still taking care of my mother in law and sister in law. I just have a lot on my plate right now, and I do feel bad that I've not kept you all up to date.
Today my mom meets with her oncologist and Friday she meets with her radiologist. I'm not sure what's going on, she doesn't let me go back in the office with her when she goes, I have to sit out in the waiting room. But I'm not pushy, she has enough to deal with besides a pushy 35 year old daughter. So I'm letting her do what she feels is best, but I just have a feeling something bad is happening and she doesn't want to tell me or anyone else for that matter.
I've been doing really good at my job, I have recieved 2 letters of praise and the director of my department has recieved E-mails about how nice I am to the staff and how I have made their stations cleaner than they ever been.
I'm not bragging, but I am a very hard worker and I take pride in what I do. I help keep infection down at my hospital and to me that's a very important job that I am proud to have.
Ok, so my eating is going really good. I do have a time or two every now and then when I let stress get the better part of me, and I binge slighly, but I recover and get back on track once again. So I can't complain.
I feel so bad that I've not checked on any of you, Angel, Alexia, Lauren, ... you all know who you are. I really hope that you are all doing great and that you are having much success! I've gotta go now, I've gotta hop in the shower and get ready, I have to take my mom to the doctor today and I have so much I have to do.
I hope you are all ok, and doing well. I'll try to update again soon, but with everything going on I just can't make any promises.
((HUGS))
~Tink~